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The Last One!

posted on 11/12/2008 12:03:38 PM in (8) Comments

Hello evryone!! tomorrow is the last examination paper i have to take. please wish me luck!! hope i can do the best and pass all my subjects!! Pray for me k~

In, falling and afraid of LOVE~

posted on 11/8/2008 7:04:45 PM in (10) Comments

Good Day evryone~

this article that i am about to write, is expressed from very deep inside my heart... i would be very glad if anyone can give me some opinion on this.

i am, in love, still falling in love, and afraid of love..

i have at last found someone so compatible to me, sometimes we say the same things at the same time *like identical twins do*

we share the same habits, the same rationale of thinking, the same likes and dislikes, nearly everything we do is interrelated.

for example, if i were to hv a test tomoro, he'll also have something of the sort..maybe not a test but a presentation or a seminar to attend to..

another example, this has happened twice already. if i got sick, he'll get sick too. not the same sickness, but the fact that we both got ill at the same exact moment is just way too much of a concidence.

when he was presenting his final year project, i was the one who had this involuntary reaction of a nervous breakdown.

when i had a painful headache, i'll suddenly get a call from him, "are u ok? i feel uneasy for some reason"

Oh and he was the former president (2007/2008) of the Taekwondo club in my university. i was the former treasurer (2006/2007) of that club.

i have known him since he was in his 1st year.

he is 2 years younger than me, enrolled in Diploma of Mechanical Engineering. I am taking Bachelor Degree of Chemical engineering. We're both in our final year, but he is in his final semester and i still have one more semester to finish. after he graduates he'll be taking his bachelor's degree and i will be working by that time.

even thought he is 2 years younger, he looks older than me. age is not a problem for me. and its not a problem to him either. do u think it should be a problem?

and his thinking is beyond his age too. very mature for a 20year old.

he was the one who decided to take this relationship to the next step. he was the one brave enough to own up that he fell in love with me. only after that did i confess that i harbor the same feelings for him.

and he trusts me a whole lot too. he lets me read his emails. he tells me all the passwords to his mail accounts, facebook, friendster, and everything else. he also has a blog.

i'm not the type who will read other ppl's mail. its just too rude and i respect other's privacy. eventho he permits me to read all his mails, i still feel queer. if he lets me read his mails, shouldnt i let him read mine too?

he has a blog and every time he posts an entry he'll tell me first and i'll be one of the first to comment.

he doesnt know i have a blog, bcoz i told him i dont have one. none of my friends know. i'd like to keep it private and receive sincere comments from ppl who dont know me without any external influence. but since he trusts me so much, shouldnt i be able to do the same for him? but if i told him that i have a blog, wont he think that i've been lying to him all this time?

he has told his mom about me, shows how serius he is. he is the 3rd child out of 4 siblings. i guess his mom is already used to the idea that her children are growing up.

i am the eldest out of 7 siblings. and my father cannot accept that i am already 22 and should already have a boyfriend at this age.. my mother says she can accept it but from her face i know she cant accept it too. she says its ok coz she wants to be the cool parent LOL.
but i want to let my parents know. i dont want them to find out from other ppl.
how should i tell them? give them little hints? send signals? huhu..
oh, and my mom specifically told me not to find someone younger than me.. how should i tackle my mom?

but i am very sure that i love him, will try to be the best for my parents, for me and for him.
i will not be afraid of love again, bcoz wounds will heal, broken bones will mend.. time is the cure..

wow~ i've written a lot.
till next time!
thank u for reading this =)

this is me and my deary one ^_^

Little Bits N Pieces

posted on 11/8/2008 10:01:45 AM in (5) Comments



Hola~

here's some bits n pieces of what has been going on in my life at the moment.

1. I'm in the middle of my examinations. i have taken 2 papers, 2 more to go *I took ur advice JANIS..i stuck like glue onto my book*
i can say that i'm quite confident at the moment. and i really studied hard. freaking 8 hours of studying a day!! am i great or what?? hahaha! *now i'm being obnoxious..LOL*

2. My deary one has no final year papers to take bcoz he is already in his final semester, i still have 1 more semester to struggle thru.. he'll be graduating soon. and he also got a tremendously great result for his final year project. He got the most amazing and outstanding A!!! i'm so happy for him. i hope i can get an A for my project too... *praying fervently*

3. as u already read above, i am studying my ass off for this final examination. the next paper is in 2 more days, and the last paper is 2 more days after that. i cant wait for it all to finish!! i wanna go back to training taekwondo!! i so miss the sparring!!! i wanna kick n punch sumthing so badly!! *now i sound like a hooligan..LOL* its been so long since i joined a tournament..aaa~ the memories...so great~

4. my mobile phone is broken. its a motorola L7... it wont turn on, suddenly went dead and refuses to light up again.. huwaaaaa~~!!! i was so extra careful with it... i already took it to the mobile phone care center, the technician said the software was attacked by a virus. so i left it at the center and after 5 days still no news, so i take the initiative to go and see for myself what happend to my mobile. 5 days at the center was just a waste, all the technician had to say was my mobile cant be fixed... just great~
i'll get a new one.. as if~ what? money grows on trees..rite?? *in denial to the fact that i am totally broke*

i guess thats it for the time being. i'll try to update at least once a week. adios!

*JusT YoU aNd Me*

posted on 11/7/2008 8:07:50 AM in (14) Comments

do u hear me?
i'm calling ur name
every breath
is a call for u
reach to the sky
reach for the stars
when i miss u
i look above
its what we share
this beautiful scene
just you and me
i close my eyes
reaching out
ur there
ur everywhere
i feel u
ur within me
within my heart
within my soul
every single breath
i call for u
i look above
i see the sky
i know for sure
my feelings reached u
the sun is smiling
just you and me
can see

All Rights reserved by Siti Aisyah Mohammad Azmi ©2008

~*FiNaL ExAmINatIon*~

posted on 10/29/2008 10:16:33 PM in (4) Comments



Helo helo people~!

Examinations is just around the corner.. and I haven't studied even an inkling! where is this confidence of mine coming from?? I dont understand y i am so calm lately, I have a business plan report to present this afternoon yet i havent revised the slides yet. I also have to submit my Final Year Project report by this evening and i still haven't finished it yet.. work is still in progress. BUT i am not making haste, i am seriously taking my sweet time to finish all those tasks. I'm turning into a bad student... somebody hit me on the head and throw some words of advice while ur doing that as well.. huhu..

SwEEt CirCumStANCeS

posted on 10/12/2008 1:05:58 AM in (3) Comments



Good Day to All of you~

i finally found some time for me to post an article..but i actually have tons of work to do.. huhuhu!

1. Friends??
Firstly, i'd like to share with u a story about me n my fren.
I have a fren, he has been my good fren ever since my 1st year in university. It was great fun being friends with him coz we really click with each other. seems like we share the same head.. ahaha! we are in the same class and also in the same Taekwondo Club. And through all the times we've been together, i found out that he developed some feelings for me. i only just knew this, after 3years being his fren. i feel really guilty bcoz how could i not notice this and made him suffer. he said he has given me signs about his feelings but the problem is i cannot read those signs, i prefer spoken out loud words than signals that i dont notice. he told me all this only after i deliberately ask him this question but in a playful way >> "do u want to be more than friends with me?"
imagine if i didnt ask that question? how long will he keep his feelings inside and suffer even more.. huhuhu..
but sadly, i cannot accept his feelings... i'm already involved with someone. if only he had told me earlier, maybe there is hope for him.. i still want to be his friend though. but its hard coz there are times that he felt i was giving him some hope, but i never did. and yesterday, he asked me out as a friend but when i wanted to ask a few other friends to join in the outing, he hesitates. is it really a friendly outing or is he trying to take me on a date?
so in the end, i pretended that i was busy and didn't go out with him at all. so he went out alone, which makes me feel more guilty than ever. Gawd~!!! what a way to make a girl miserable... huhu.. how can i tell him that i dont want to have that kind of relationship with him? how can i make him accept that i only want to be a friend? because my words were clear enough.. i told him straight out like this "i cant accept ur feelings. i'm rejecting u now so that u wont get hurt later..but i am still and always will be your friend"
isn't it clear enough? maybe its too harsh.. dear friend, i am very sorry for this.. i never meant to make u feel that i wanted to be more than friends with u..i thought u understood me well, but i guess i am expecting too much.. i pray that we can still be friends bcause ur one nice person i cannot lose.

2. Work..!!
I'm in the middle of preparing for the presentation of my Final year project (FYP). My FYP is about the production of gluconic acid which is an extensive product used in the food industry. it is a food additives, to help preserve canned foods and to give food some flavour. the problem is, my group (consist of 5 people) have to plan out a plant for producing this gluconic acid. we need to find a site to build this chemical plant and find the most suitable and cheap raw materials. we need to calculate all the possible material and energy balance involved in the process and to top it all off, we also need to make sure that the production reaches 50000 metric Tonne per year! and the best thing is, we only have less than 3 weeks to do all that. real GREAT!! i'm already sleeping less than 5 hours a day, now its decreasing to 3 hours a day.. huhuhu! my poor eyes are beginning to have eyebags and soon i'd look like a panda..puffy and blackened eyes.. T_T
pray that i'll be able to survive all this..

3. Love~
thru all that busy and hectic goings on in my life.. i feel that life is getting better. i am happy! even with all those problems, i dont mind bcause i found something precious along the way. that is serendipity, it means finding something that u dont expect to find. my relationship with my family is getting better too. its getting better and i am greatful. Thank you, GOD!
Have u heard of the song called FALL FOR YOU by SECONDHAND SERENADE? here is the lyrics..everytime i hear this song, my heart smiles.. bcause my dear one gave me this song along with these words "this is from me to you, and it expresses my feelings for u"

Fall For You
by Secondhand Serenade

The best thing about tonight's
that we're not fighting
It couldn't be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core


But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind


I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find


This is not what I intended
I always swore to you that
I would never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start


Oh, But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you, over again
Don't make me change my mind
I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible


So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep


And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep


Because tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you, over again
Don't make me change my mind
I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find


Tonight will be the night
that I will fall for you, over again
Don't make me change my mind
I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

HoLidAyS

posted on 10/7/2008 6:47:42 PM in (4) Comments



Olla Dear Readers~
really2 sorry bout not posting 4 a long time.
i just got back from holidays and there are no internet back at home.
i'm also busy with my final year project. wish me luck plz!!
i'll be back later with a new post. but now i have to get ready for class.
i'm off~~ bye!

HappY BirthdaY

posted on 9/17/2008 10:52:36 AM in (4) Comments



Its my deary's birthday last sunday.. 14th September marks the day a sweet angel was born for me to meet in the near future.. hehe!

The picture above was made by me, and i have posted it to his website. So glad he liked it, coz he likes Tifa Lockheart from FF7 so much. =D

Happy Birthday my dear~ hope ur life will be blessed and u live blissfully happy!

My wish for u is that things will work out smoothly for u =)

Friends Forever

posted on 9/15/2008 6:37:36 AM in (3) Comments

Referring back to my previous post, about my sweet problem ^_^

it seems that he is interested in me, but he has already planned out his life. if we're meant to be, then we'll be. Like he said, if its already written down by GOD that we're meant for each other then nothing can separate us. so right now, we'll stay friends and always try to be there for each other.
i'm so glad~ eventhough he is younger than me, he is more mature. Thank u GOD for giving me the chance to encounter such a lovely person =)

NEVER!! huu~

posted on 9/11/2008 8:49:07 PM in (0) Comments

A woman was working in a post office in California.

One day she licked the envelopes and postage stamps instead of using a sponge. That very day the lady found a cut on her tongue. A week later, she noticed an abnormal swelling of her tongue. She went to the doctor, and they found nothing wrong. Her tongue was not sore or anything. A couple of days later, her tongue started to swell more, and it began to get really sore, so sore, that she could not eat. She went back to the hospital, and demanded something be done. The doctor took an x-ray of her tongue and noticed a lump. He prepared her for minor surgery. When the doctor cut her tongue open, a live cockroach crawled out!!!!

There were cockroach eggs on the seal of the envelope. The egg was able to hatch inside of her tongue, because of her saliva. It was warm and moist...

This is a true story reported on CNN

Andy Hume wrote:

Hey, I used to work in an envelope factory. You wouldn't believe the....things that float around in those gum applicator trays. I haven't licked an envelope for years!' I used to work for a print shop (32 years ago) and we were told NEVER to lick the envelopes. I never understood why until I had to go into storage and pull out 2500 envelopes that were already printed and saw several squads of cockroaches roaming around inside a couple of boxes with eggs everywhere. They eat the glue on the envelopes.

PLEASE PASS THIS ON, TO YOUR FRIENDS. After reading this you will never lick another envelope or stamp again!

Early Morning~

posted on 9/10/2008 7:11:55 PM in (2) Comments

Earlier this morning, i was thinking to myself..
should i write a blog?
since i like reading people's blogs so much..why dont i give it a try?
thus, here i am exercising my fingers away on the keyboard.

I just felt like i'm gonna burst with an overload of emotions stirring up inside of me.
Blog writing can be an outlet for me to release the pressure building up inside.

1ST CASE

A friend of mine is having problems with his girlfren and turns to me for advice.
Its tough, giving ppl advices coz it might turn for the worst if the wrong advice was given.. so i have to think through it thoroughly and doing that so early in the morning is not recommended.

His problem: his gf isn't empathic enough. if he were to burn himself, she would laugh and say "serves u right!"
and this guy did burn himself and her reaction was exactly as the above^
and it lead into a fight. FYI, they just got over a fight 2 days ago and now they're at it again.
so, who is the victim here? poor lil me coz i have to put with the guy's whining and wallowing.
so i told him to get straight answers from his gf about her feelings. whether if she really wanted to go on with the realatinship or not. whether it is worth it to go throught all those fighting and bickering over a few moments of sweet love.
but the girl always avoid from his questions and deflects the question like a pro tennis player.
i dunno how the guy is going to pin her down to get some answers but i know that i'll be hearing from him soon.


2ND CASE

My problem: a mixture of feelings muddled up together to form a cloud of storm and its fogging up my brain.
1st of all, i am a student and i'm in the final year of my degree.
there's this guy who is really nice to me. he calls me his angel, his darling and everything else that falls into the category of sweet words.
he sends me emails showing that he cares very much and gives me words of support to face my final as a student.
i'm deeply flattered by this bcoz, i have to admit that i really like him.
i think that he is admiring someone else tho its my own speculations. i cant resist the fact that i'm jealous.. oo dear me! how lame this sound rite?
another thing is he's younger than me, maybe thats why i'm so insecure.
but how can i be sure? tho he calls me his other half, deep down i kinda know that i'm not the type he likes.. or am i just being too uptight?

@_@ i just dunno what to write anymore..
now, it seems like i'm just wasting ur time..sorry dear readers~

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