Life: Clouds in my sky

I feel so lonely today...but it's a long story why... (2) Comments

Posted: 2/27/2007 10:34:39 AM

School: A new day...a new subject

Today's Tuesday!!! That means my hectic Monday is officially over and I can move on to studying physics!!!! I shouldn't really give physics so many exclamation points but...sigh. It ok. Go physics!!!! Usually I'm not so excited about Tuesdays because they are my extra long days but this week I'm psyched out. I really admire people who are ambitious, so much so that I am sometimes envious. I wonder where people get their ambition and what drives them!?! I need more time!!!!! (0) Comments

Posted: 2/13/2007 6:08:42 PM

School: My Eyeballs Hurt

You know, someone should be proud of me...Right now it is 12:49pm and today I have already given one speech, turned in my outline, taken one bacterial genetics test, and written one physic lab paper! All I have left for today is to take one organic evolution test, make a powerpoint presentation for my anatomy students to study, and attend one more lab. Then I'm done!!!! Hopefully I'll be alive tomorrow so that I can study for my Physics test on Wednesday... (2) Comments

Posted: 2/12/2007 1:51:43 PM

School: Which way's up?

Last semester I complained about having to study too much...this semester I'm finding much comfort in having to study. And, I wish I have more to do! Although I am taking 22 credits this semester (four more than last semester) I'm frantic for stuff to fill my time. I must be losing my mind... (0) Comments

Posted: 2/1/2007 2:59:42 PM

Life: Frowning

I've noticed that I have been frowning alot lately...but not because I find that many this upset me or that I encounter many things that I don't like. It's just like when you're not doing anything and your thinking or just sitting or whatever, I find that when I come back to my senses my mouths is pulled down in a frown. Something must be bothering me because I know that if I were frowning just because my mouth has nothing to do that would be untrue. It takes more muscles and energy to frown than it takes to smile...so why the effort to be so mad (subconsciously..). Must be something... (3) Comments

Posted: 1/30/2007 5:20:09 PM

Life: School again!!!

School again! and so much more! I took a well needed break over winter vacation because the wheels were literally falling off my wagon. I'm back in school now but busier than ever! So many things have happened to me, I don't know what to say. I lost a friend (not through death), I lost some love (fell out of love rather), and I lost myself. I feel like I barely know what I want most of the time and the only thing that I'm sure I want now is just to go to med school. Everything else is a mess. Yikes! Looks like I need Dr. Phil. I want to change who I am but really I keep doing all the same things that I always have. Perpetuating the cycle. Guess I'm really as smart as everyone thinks huh? I made many new year's resolutions this year but so far am only keeping up with a couple of them. I think that I need to go see a psychiatrist though because I have self esteem issues amongst other things but of course I have no real motivation to go. I'm such a basket case! How embarrassing...stop reading. (1) Comments

Posted: 1/25/2007 8:26:06 PM

Wanted: TEDDY BEARS FOR CHRISTMAS

This girl in my pre-med sorority Alpha Epsilon Delta is helping one of her professors collect 2500 teddy bears for his group that is trying to help underprivileged families for Christmas. It's his job to collect the teddies for the children. I know that I have lots of teddies at home (if they all haven't been given away to my nieces) and I need to go look for them so I can donate them. I'm just posting this up here so that I REMEMBER to look for them. I'm hoping I have at least ten at home to donate...maybe I can hit up my friends and family and round up twenty or so. It's not like they're at home loving these little guys to dealth. Better to give them to kids that will. I picked this picture to represent the teddies I'm searching for because to me he's a little ugly...and I feel so bad for him that I just think he's all the more adorable. Funny that he's so ugly he's cute...but aren't we all. Well maybe not the beautiful people... :P Free Image Hosting by ImageCave.com (0) Comments

Posted: 11/29/2006 10:15:44 AM

Choi Si Won

This is my "Korean boyfriend" but not really. I watch Korean tv with my best friend and I don't really see that many cute Korean guys and then one day I saw him and I was like finally another Korean cutie other than my Oppa. Although I was looking at some pictures of him online and as I was flipping through them I noticed that Si Won looks alot like my Oppa in some photos. Probably why I think that he is so cute. But he is a younger version of what my Oppa looks like...and a little more softer...feminine-ish. Still, I think he's a cutie! Guess I should be studying instead of doing this though! Free Image Hosting by ImageCave.com (0) Comments

Posted: 11/27/2006 11:02:19 AM

Gotta do, Wanna do: Essays and Working out

I finished the Midwestern essays and I've kinda started the Nova essays. If I get these done tonight then I'll have finished four essays today...Yay me. Getting things done doesn't feel as good as it used to though. Even though I get things accomplished it doesn't seem like I'm really getting anything done because there's just more stuff for me to do afterwards. I feel like I'm running in place. Aaahhh! I'm tired.... (2) Comments

Posted: 11/10/2006 10:16:10 PM

Life: Self Esteem

Yesterday, I was supposed to go shopping because yesterday was Thursday. I was actually really down yesterday because it seemed like everything I had wanted to do wasn't really working out and everything I was trying to finish wasn't getting done. I did my exams (of course) but the essays didn't get done and I have to rewrite one and start the other. Still we were going to go shopping but since like Wednesday night I wasn't so excited about going shopping for some reason...probably cause I know that even if I go shopping it's hard for me to find clothes and I get fustrated and discouraged. Still a little excited to go but more dreading it because I know the outcome. I have all these ideas of what I want or need to get but going and not finding them brings me down. Anyways, on the way there Oppie tried to pump me up and he did of course. He's my Oppa. So when we got to the mall I was pretty excited. But, then two minutes after entering the mall my sister called and asked me to pick her up because her boyfriend had taken her car and left to do something for work and could no longer pick her up. Not her fault and of course I said I'd pick her up but still since I was all pumped up for shopping I crashed. We stayed at the mall for a sec though because Oppie hadn't eaten all day and was STARVING. I was hungry too but whenever I get down or disappointed I lose my appetite and I hate eating when I'm not hungry cause it only makes me feel worse. I accidently made Oppie feel rushed when he was eating because while he was eating I asked hime to hurry because Trish was waiting and so he threw away the rest of his sandwhich and we left. I know he was still hungry and I shouldn't have done that. We carpooled so Oppa had to drive me down to St. Luke's and pick up Trish and then drive us back up to Scottsdale. Round trip: it took us almost two hours...traffic time. I felt so bad because I wasted his whole day and he seemed pretty upset. Maybe because we were wasting so much time and because I wasn't eating. We also got into an arguement later that night about my not eating, and I'm gonna try to eat at least the perfunctory three meals a day. It's just that sometimes I get so down and when I eat and I'm not hungry I feel so weighed down it makes me feel worse. I don't know if this is an eating disorder or not because I don't not eat because I want to be thin, it just makes me feel worse about myself so I don't. I know I should though because I'm not big to start out with (104 as of yesterday, I weighed myself at the gym) and I've lost a pound since Monday or Tuesday (I weighed myself earlier this week at the gym). So I know I definitely need to start eating right and today I've already had breakfast and I'm planning on lunch and dinner. My self esteem has been so low this past week and I've be stuttering a lot lately. I hate that. Normally, I like to think that I'm pretty strong and determined, confident and self assured, but this semester I feel like I'm on such a rollercoster ride. Everything is supposed to be good right now...Duck's talking to me, Thai's not really bothering me with school work, Oppa's jazzed up about all the supplimentary applications he's getting (although he did get a rejection letter from Albany today so he is quite down)I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I've developed a bi-polar personality. Up one day and down the next. I'm still trying the GREAT day diet but this week it's not working out so GREAT. That's ok though, it's Friday so that means next week is only a few days away and tomorrow is of course another day... (1) Comments

Posted: 11/10/2006 11:28:27 AM

School: SCHOOL?

Yes, school. It's Thurday and school's not where I'm supposed to be today! I'm supposed to be at the mall shopping for winter clothes (although it is kind of pointless because today the high is supposed to be in the low 90 F). But, the mall's not open yet and I've attended one TA's meeting and have to take two online tests and write two essays before I can go anywhere. So... I guess I'll be in the computer lab for a while. Hopefully only until 1 but then we have to go get Oppa a hair cut so by the time I'll see the inside of a mall it'll be around 3 or 4. Still that good enough, shopping is exhausting. Monday I have an appointment to go get fingerprinted at my old high school. I went to interview there for a position as an AVID tutor but I thought it was a volunteer position...it's not, I'm gonna get PAID. Bonus! But, I have to dedicate 10 hours a week to it and that's about 6 more hours than I had anticipated or set aside for it because I'm kinda already busy as it is. But, that's ok. I can handle this because the busier I am the more I get done. The more crunched for time I am, the better of I am at accomplishing things. Ok well I have to start my exams now... (1) Comments

Posted: 11/9/2006 11:22:12 AM

Life: The FUNNIEST thing

My best friend had the funniest thing happen to him, just now! I'm sitting in the Learning Resource Center where he works as a monitor and hands out computers. The door to the room has a lock on it and you punch in a code to enter the room. The code is posted on the door so all you have to do is read it and punch it in. Well, he is in such a bad mood today and has been snapping at me all day. This person comes up to the door and knocks on it and he looks up from behind his desk and says, "Why are they knocking on the door?" in a are they retarded sort of voice. So someone opens the door for this girl and she walks in...she's a blind girl that I have seen around campus since my frosh year. She comes in and says, "I'm sorry I don't know the code for the door. Can you tell me the code." and she is obviously blind and oh my goodness everyone in the computer lab just is like GOSH! So someone tells her the code and she walks in an meets her friend who guides her to his computer (well not really because she's really independent so no one really guides her because she likes to do things on her own). And I turn to him and am like Oh Oppie do and I can tell he feels like a totally butt. And I can't help but laugh so hard because I told him that he was being grumpy and it came back and bit him on the behind. Poor Oppie! I feel so bad for him. (1) Comments

Posted: 11/8/2006 5:22:49 PM

Life: The purpose of Life

As I was walking to one of my classes today I passed the memorial union and saw a big, tall square made up of dry wall (or something like it). On the top of each wall there was a question heading like "What is the purpose of Life?", "How do you get into Heaven?", etc. I walked up to the one asking "What is the purpose of Life?" and someone had written "TO LIVE" and another had written "TO VOTE" more had written "to serve God", "to make money", "to have sex" things like that. I couldn't stay long and there was much more written on the wall but as I continued my walk to class I thought about the purpose of life and what that quesiton was really asking. Does everyone have a separate purpose or are we all taking different paths to the same destination? What's my purpose? That's a question I am almost afraid to answer. I have the feeling that if I could answer this question about myself then I would know myself a lot better. But, what if the answer I get is not an answer I want. A hard slap in the face, reality is a b-word. What if the person, the goals, the purpose I discover is not what I want. Or maybe it is the true me and that's why I feel so discontent all the time. I'm going in the direction opposite of my true purpose. Sometimes when I think of these questions I realize that I don't really know myself because I don't think of these things. I'm not really living my life, I just following a line on the ground. Is that my purpose? If I lose my way or the line fades to where I can't see it anymore then have I lost my purpose? Then I think...who am I? (2) Comments

Posted: 11/8/2006 5:07:56 PM

Life: Comfortable

You know, I like the new old me...although I have been thinking about it and really did I change to a new me and revert back to the old me OR have I really just acted and been the same all along and just had my perspective changed and reverted? It's all an enigma to me. I say this because usually if I do something different Thai or definately Oppa will tell me or say something. But, since I've "changed" back to oldie me, they haven't said anything. I think that it was my perspective that changed...what I was looking for changed. To me, it is so interesting that my perspective can change and I won't notice but when I go to want and having the perspective I had prior I THINK that I am changing then. Sometimes I do or say things for all the wrong reasons. Well, all the wrong reasons to me anyways. I definately need to gain more perspective but I feel like I really need to think. It's hard for me to think though because I always have so much more going on in my head that don't pertain to my gaining perspective. I'm always thinking science or what I need to do tomorrow or what I need to do for Oppie or what I need to remind Oppie to do etc... I want to go somewhere where I can meditate, maybe connect to God, feel calm. I need a quiet time but if I have quiet time I just end up falling asleep. Not a good method. My goals for the rest of this week: Be productive in shopping - make an active effort to find the things I want for the winter season Be productive in Oppie's applications - try to finish Midwestern's app and Nova's app Wake up early to get ready Find a place/Think of a place that will give me thinking time...maybe I should join yoga at my gym... Be more sociable Oh! I almost forgot...Duck and I are getting along GREAT now! Not fantastically but still really well. Sometimes we even talk on the phone and he sounds a tiny bit like he used to. I'm so happy that we are becoming friends once again! (0) Comments

Posted: 11/8/2006 2:09:49 PM

Stress!!!!: Arg

Today seems hard! I'm down. I'm unhappy. Overall in general I'm discontent. But, a good thing that I realized was that today was the first day in a while that I have felt like this...at least the first in 3 or 4 days which is a GREAT thing. So a good and bad day; a trade off you could say. I'm looking forward to tomorrow immensely. My plans are to go shopping, shopping, shopping! Even though normally I am not materialistic I feel like I need to buy happiness. I feel like the old me again because I used to be heavily addicted to shopping therapy. I don't need to buy or have expensive things but just the sheer act of going and looking and trying things on...hey, as long as it fits I am golden. Sometimes it is a little discouraging though because it is hard for me to find things that fit that I like. Plus, because I'm so little I don't really fit into any category. I'm too big for the junior clothes (which are cheaper by the way) and I'm too small for the regular small or x small adult clothes. Still, when I find something then I'm super excited. Nothing's happened today but ever since I got up I've felt uncentered. I got into a little tiff with Oppa about a tone he used on me but it was minor. It's just sometimes I don't like the way he says things to me and I know that he doesn't realize it but it hurts my feelings. So today I called him on it and he was surprised or should I say caught off guard. I'm not the confontational type so this was the first time I mentioned it. Poor Oppa, he had no warning. Maybe I feel uncentered because I woke up rushed this morning. I fell asleep early and woke up late and had a two page paper to write before 8. Not so hard but not a GREAT way to start the morning. In the future I'm going to actually try to wake up early enough to be girly and get ready the proper way, like I used to before college. I don't know. Once I hit college I just kinda went into relaxed mode but I miss dressing up and looking girly. I think this winter my goal is to be chic and stylish...take the time and see if I wake up getting ready for the day then perhaps I will be. That'll be better than feeling like everyday kinda just snuck up on me. I think I'll start early tomorrow and hit the mall early. Just so that I can really buy the things I want. That'll be hard cause I'm not really even sure I know what I want...but when do I ever. (0) Comments

Posted: 11/8/2006 1:54:10 PM

Life: I think so...don't you?

Try not to become a man of success but rather try to become a man of value. ~Albert Einstein Right now, I'm helping Oppie work on his supplementary applications that the pharmacy schools are sending him. I am so proud of him and his accomplishments! I know that he'll get into all the schools that are important to him because not only is his GPA awesome but his essays are genuine and reflect his character well...I think. And since he has such a GREAT character, this is a good thing. But, as we work on these essays, we have to think of things to write in them, about his goals, his personal objectives, views on the community, etc... They ask you questions like, "Why do you want to be a pharmacist?" or "What do you think you'll contribute to the community as a Pharmacist?" And as we think of answers for these, I also think of my future applications and the personal statement I need to write (really I should get on that now). Everyone I know, everyone I hang out with or talk to or come into contact with are going into the medical profession. Doctors, pharmacists, dentists, nurses, PAs... Why? Why do we do it? Is it money, prestige, expectations, humanity? I'm sure everyone would make a good doctor, but how can I be a GREAT doctor? I know that as a doctor I'll eventually be making boo-ko bucks but is that what drives me? I don't want to be that doctor. You know, the doctor who breezes in and glances at your chart before barking orders to the stand by nurse and then breezing out again. All without making eye contact with the patient. That's an exageration of course, doctors don't do that OF COURSE but some just don't care enough that they might as well just do that and save everyone's time. I want to be a doctor but I want to do it for the right reasons. I can't say that I only do it for the patients, that I only do it for the people. I know and you know that I will enjoy the prestige (if I ever attain it) and that I will enjoy the money (when it starts rolling in...10 years from now). I will and I don't deny it but what's more important to me. I try to live in a way that I would like others to live, and I try to treat people the way I would like to be treated and behave the way I think others should. I mean that it is ok that others don't necessarily live this way but it would be hypocritical to expect others to live a way that I wouldn't be willing to live. Are these enough to be sure that I'll never be the heartless doctor? People burn out or change or grow or are affected by the world. I know that I'll change in the future but to what? A bigger and better me or a ickier version of what I am now... I'm glad that I am helping Oppie write his essays. That way we both can evaluate our goals and make sure that they are our goals for all the right reasons. Just another assurance that the future health care providers released into the world are a little more normal...a little closer to humanity...a little closer to God. Albert Einstein was a very smart man...beyond his realm of science...it seems that his intelligence extended into humanity as well. But, I will always be jealous that he came up with the Theory of Relativity before me... Only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile. ~Albert Einstein (0) Comments

Posted: 11/7/2006 8:55:03 PM

Life: ROCK CLIMBING!!!!

Today was GREAT! Well actually it was ok but really after everything that I did it was GREAT! I really got a lot accomplished. I drove Oppie to school, voted, got my hair cut, and went ROCK CLIMBING! Rock climbing was sooooo fun and I haven't been in like two years. Not since my cousin moved away. But, today I went with Oppa and he had never been before so it was a treat to take him. He's always taking me to new places so I was super glad to be able to take him to a new experience. We had lots of fun and I know that in the future if we need bonding time it will be a definate place to go. My hands hurt though from clinging to the rocks but still a good kind of hurt. Also, I started working out again...first day yesterday. I'm trying to make time to go everyday so of course I'll be hitting the fitness tonight also. Yesterday was chest and arms; today is back. I'm sitting in the library now, typing this up and I can see Oppie talking to Jenny from here. At first I felt a little twinge of jealousy but it has passed. I think that I am letting him go slowly, you know liking him "like that." So...look at me I'm growing. Only, sometimes I'm still lonely and I can't wait to meet someone that I'll like in that way. I'm a little picky but I don't think my standards are all that high. I just want a nice guy who's funny, well mannered, kind and considerate. Smart would be a bonus but intelligent is a must. For now though, I think that I'm just focusing on me and making myself happy along with others. Before, I think that I was concentrating too much on others and ignoring me too much and that was why I was feeling unappreciated. You have to appreciate yourself first for others to appreciate you also. So, I'm not putting myself first but I'm not putting myself last. Good enough. This week I'm going to go winter clothes shopping...YAY! Always a self esteem booster to buy new clothes... (0) Comments

Posted: 11/7/2006 7:16:52 PM

Life: Ai-ya

Ai-ya! I slipped yesterday in my resolution to be the new oldie me and I re-reverted. So today as I think about it I feel so bad and I'm kinda mad at myself. As I think about it more and more I gain more resolution not to slip again but yesterday was only one day in!!! My goodness, my resolve lead me a stray and abondoned me last night. But, today is a new day. And I don't feel good about what I did because I know I'm gonna get hurt again so I think that it only makes my resolve stronger that way next time I won't fall off the wagon. I know that everytime I fall, the pit only gets deeper. So I need to hang on for dear life. I know what I want now and I just have to KEEP MY RESOLVE! I think that people want to much...want to much?...need to much?.. Somewhere wanting and needing became the same, I think. I want lots of things but they are not things I need. What I need, I don't want. To be buddhist but filled with want...my soul must be new, how embarrassing. I wonder if it's noticeable. Halloween is over! And here comes THANKSGIVING!!! I am so excited because it is my all time favorite holiday. Tell me, who can say that they are mad at the holiday dedicated to food, known for food, given a day off just to eat food! I know that food is not what the holiday is about but still... my family gathers around and we gorge ourselves on a the yummiest tid-bits you know everyone was waiting all year for. There just something about food that can simultaneously fill your stomach and your heart...for me it's love...for some...it's indigestion... (0) Comments

Posted: 11/1/2006 2:23:59 PM

Life: Deeper

I love my new profile pic...when I look at it I feel like it says everything that I am right now. Before, I was almost literally wearing my heart and feeling pinned on my sleeve and it seemed that I was getting hurt left and right or that I felt misunderstood or oh I don't know...a multitude of different feelings. But, now the new and improved me is okay. Funny thing is that the new and improved me is really the same old me that I used to be. I used to keep everything bottled up inside and I used to keep barriers up but ever since I met my best friend Oppie, he was the only one who ever asked what I was thinking and really pursued it and tried to make me open up to him. After years (literally, two to be exact) I did start to open up but then I felt so vulnerable so insecure because to be so open like that made me feel like I was hurt easier. I love my Oppie with all my heart but I can't do it any more, I think I like being closed up in my self better and so I've reverted. I decided this just recently however (past couple of days). But I don't know with him, I probably will remain as open as I can but it's hard to do that. I feel just like that glacier. Maybe I may seem small on the surface, but my spirit, my feelings, my soul runs deep. There's more to me than what's on the surface (as with everyone) but it is for us all to decide what people see of us, how much of us we want them to know or have access to. We all know what's best for each of us. I feel like the picture that I had up prior to this one really reflected who I was then. It was a girl but you could only see one eye, wide open and gazing at the world. Now I look at it and I think, why is she hiding (half her face behind hair). That's not me anymore...I'm not hiding...My soul is so light I can float on water...my crystalline structure has made me less dense than the elements that surround me and nothing's going to hold me down. (2) Comments

Posted: 10/31/2006 1:51:38 PM

Goals: Ouchie Ma Gouchie

Golly gee willikers...huh I wonder if that's how you spell it. Anyways, today is going to be SO busy. I have to do so much stuffs. Oppie and I need to write like 10 essays for tomorrow, he has to write a lab report for tonight, and I have to make a power point presentation for tomorrow. But, otherwise I am ok today. Schools is not where I want to be right now but that's ok. I was walking outside from the car to campus and gosh I noticed that it was such a beautiful day out today. Today's the day you'd want to go out to the range or the batting cage and hit a few balls. Or it'd be nice to go sit by the tallest fountain in the world, or second tallest anyways. I know that the beginning of this week may seem busy to me but lucky, I am not overwhelmed. Now that I have everything settled all I have on my mind is what I need to do. And I can make plans and I feel like I can do anything. Whenever I feel like I'm going to waver, I just remember everything that happened in the past and how it made me felt and bing-o bang-o I'm back on track. Talk about learning from your experiences and I'm glad that I learned from them because it just makes me more focused and I think that with every passing day I feel a little more stronger and sure that what I chose to do was right. Well, maybe I didn't choose to do it but what ended up happening was for the best. I feel like all my relationships are better...most of them anyways, not really with Thai..but once this semester is over, I don't think that I'll really have any problems with him anymore. Oh and I think that I'm going to go to a potluck on Friday...I haven't really decided if I want to go but I think that I will. I also wanted to go to the fair on Saturday but I don't know if that'll pan out. We'll see. Oh and I wanted to go hang out this weekend or on Friday...we'll see. Plans for next week: winter clothes shopping and rock climbing.' Oh and I'm gonna start hitting the gym again this week starting tomorrow!!!! (0) Comments

Posted: 10/31/2006 12:58:17 PM

Life: A clear on the fore front

Haven't been here in a while but nothing much happening with me. Pretty much everything has settled in my life. I think. Well, I know how exactly everything is and where I stand in every situation and relationship and I think that I am pretty happy with the turn out. Maybe not super happy because for some of them because it'll be pretty difficult for me but once I move on and past it I'm gonna be ok. I know what I have to do now and I intent to be resillent. I'm going to come first in this. Ducky and I are now talking but I won't let him drag me into another drama again. If it heads that way I'm going to cut him off and lay it down so that he knows I'M NOT DOING IT AGAIN!! Otherwise I'm ok now. Better than ok....I think (1) Comments

Posted: 10/30/2006 4:58:58 PM

Life: Sigh...

Suddenly, I feel so tired...and lonely. (0) Comments

Posted: 10/22/2006 5:34:31 PM

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Posted: 10/22/2006 5:01:52 PM

School: Done!!!

Whoo-hoo!!! In just under three hours I have accomplished three of my goals for the day...Two papers and a quiz!!! GO Me!!!! It almost motivates me to start writing Wednesday's paper but not so much that I will. Besides if I start my lectures and chapters, then maybe I'll fulfill all my goals for the day...maybe or maybe even more!!! Three down, two to go... (0) Comments

Posted: 10/22/2006 4:58:50 PM

School: Long week ahead

This week is going to be way busier than I had previously antcipated. When I thought about my schedule last week I had just planned for my two tests, one on wednesday and one on thursday. But, as I re-evaluate this coming week I realize I have so much more.... I have one paper for microbiology to write for Monday, a quiz for Monday, a recitation paper due for Monday, a lab report for Tuesday [already finished though!!!!:)], a lab report for Wednesday, a test for Wednesday, a presentation for Wednesday, a test for Thursday, and essays to write (hopefully started and finished on Thursday). And next week I have a test in WST on Monday but that's ok because I have all weekend to study for that. Seems like a lot to read but I don't know...I know I can do it. My goal for today is to finish both papers for Monday today and also the quiz. I also want to do two lecture notes for my biochem test and read approximately two chapters of cell bio. Then hopefully I can write my Wednesday lab report tomorrow and I'll be free to study for tests for the rest of the week. But, if I don't get to all my cell bio and biochem stuff today that's cool. My minimum goal is the papers, quiz, one lecture, and MAYBE one chapter. I feel kinda icky though. We went to IHOP for brunch and the food was good...I always enjoy breakfast food. But, after leaving the restaurant and while driving I suddenly didn't feel so hot. BUT, on the bright side. Today, I wore a sweater to the library so hopefully I will not be freezing, although the cold air does make my nose cold. I have cold nose syndrom. Alright, its noon now so that gives me approximately 5-6 hours before dinner to achieve so of my goals. Go me!!!!! (0) Comments

Posted: 10/22/2006 2:07:04 PM

School: Saturday!!!

So it is a beautiful Saturday afternoon and I am studying in the law library. Not what I wanted to be doing on this BEAUTIFUL fall day but that is the call of life. I was looking forward to hitting some balls on the driving range this morning but that didn't really pan out. It's ok though because I had a great lunch at Hodori...mmm rice, what would I ever do without you? Anyways, I'm going to have a great day today I just know it. And even if it isn't, I can tell myself I am and it'll keep my spirits up. It doesn't help that the law library is filled with large window showing the clear blue sky. Or that it is only like 10 degrees in here and we're freezing our butts off. Oh well. Tomorrow should be nice also, but unfortunately I'll be spending the majority of it at work and then back to the library again. It's ok though...I like air conditioned air better anyways. (0) Comments

Posted: 10/21/2006 4:51:43 PM

Spirituality: Dear God

Thank you for the peace of mind and the wonderful day you've given me. Please watch over those that I love. Watch over my parents on their vaction and Oppa's parents on their weekend trip to Sedona. Please take care of my family, Oppa's family and Duck's family. Thank you for being with me today. (0) Comments

Posted: 10/20/2006 8:29:00 PM

Miss you

Even though you're not with me just know ... your in my heart and on my mind. This sunset reminds me of you... Free Image Hosting by ImageCave.com (0) Comments

Posted: 10/20/2006 7:32:12 PM

School: One down, all day left to go

Well actually, it's really TWO down. I just finished my power point presentation and the quiz I'm going to give my lab section over the endocrine physiology lab. Not so bad for 1:30 in the afternoon. All I have left is my 2 hour meeting and then off to the library to study. Watch out biochem here I come...after I print out some notes of course. (0) Comments

Posted: 10/20/2006 3:38:45 PM

Life: SUPER GREAT DAY

Yesterday, I had a SUPER GREAT day. I can't really remember what I did in the morning...oh yeah I was studying in the law library until like 2:30 or so and then Oppie comes back to the library after meeting his professor and TA and says hey lets go eat our sandwhiches and I submitted my request for Chinese food. He said ok but we should go eat our sandwhiches now since we're going to have Chinese later and then he told me to pack up all my stuff and go. But, he was in such a rush. So we packed up all our stuff and he wouldn't tell me where we were going and we took our sandwhiches and hit the road...for 30 minutes. We took the Country Club exit and turned left on Shea and right on Saguaro and went straigh til we hit a park. And as we passed the park I was all excited because we were going to have a picnic and also since it was still quite light outside, we could study too! I was so happy...Oppa always seems to know just want I need and so I was excited when I saw the park. BUT Oppie-do however was NOT happy. He was all like "OH its not on, the fountain isn't on..." and I hadn't even seen it but in the middle of this huge lake there was an iron like structure and Oppa told me that it was supposed to be the highest fountain in the world and that's why he brought me to this park. We were in Fountain Hill and the fountain shoots its water up 562 feet and is (or was) the highest fountain in the states (Thai said someone built another that beats it) Since it wasn't on Oppa was SO disappointed and I felt soooo bad cause I know how he is and I know that once something doesn't go his way he just wants to leave and go home. And sure enough, he said lets just go back to school. But, I didn't want to. I want to study outside because even though the fountain wasn't on, it was still VERY nice out (Arizona in the fall) and the park was beautiful. Plus, we still could have our picnic. But, since we didn't bring anything to sit on (troubles of last minute picnics) we went to Target and bought a little blanket to sit on. AND on our way back to the park...THE FOUNTAIN WAS ON and oh my goodness it was sooooo AWESOME I have never seen anything like it. It looked so fake because it was a GIANT stream of water against the clear blue sky and the way the water fell back down it look positively animated. Like you are watching a low budget movie or something...it was so good it looked fake. I just don't know how else to explain it. Anyways, I really wished then that Oppa was driving because I could not look at it enough. I was so neat. And then of course because that's what Oppa had wanted he instantly perked up and was happy to stay at the park (before he did NOT want to stay). And then we spread out our blanket made our sandwhiches and enjoyed the park. There were lots of ducks and birds at the park and Oppa threw a chip or something at one and the WHOLE flock came over and there must have been a hundred of them (well maybe not a hundred). But then we didn't feed them anymore because we didn't want them to stay. After we ate our sandwhiches the fountain turned on again (it turns on at the top of each hour for 15 min) and so we got to see it twice! It was soooo cool because when it started it was like an explosion and when it ended it was SO strange. It stopped so abruptly and totally not in the way that I thought it would. It was like watch a fountain start in reverse and it looked like the base just sucked the water back up into it and that was it...it was just over, no after splash no nothing. SO neat. After that we fell asleep (Oppie more deeply then I and he missed the fountain ending) but left soon because Thai and Y Vi wanted to go eat. But, before we went back Oppa took me to this off shoulder thing so that we could see the sunset colors on the horizon and it was really pretty. I just love those colors, they have a way of bring peace to your soul. Then we went to Chinese with Thai and Y Vi and it was great, very satisfying. And Thai gave me this little crank music box like thing that is mechanicalized like a player piano. So, when you crank the handle you can see the inner drum turn and the little bumps move under the amplifier. It plays a fancy version of twinkle twinkle little star. So cute. And as Oppie said...yesterday was just my day!!! Then, just to top it off...last night I slept with my light off and I felt way rested. I'm a little tired but that's ok...school and life takes a toll on you. I was a little scared and paranoid (detracting from my general enjoyment of the dark) but then I though of Oppie and pretended he was there to keep me safe and slept through the night. But I guess since I wasn't used to sleeping in the dark anymore I woke up every 45 mins or so. Still a GREAT day none the less. Today's Friday so my schedule and Oppa's schedule don't really coincide so I guess I'll tough it out alone today. We're all so busy with our different things that since I saw Oppie this morning at the car I think that's the last I'll see of him today. I miss him already. But, he said he's having a FANTASTIC morning so...I hope that his day continues to be SUPER FANTASTIC!!!! But me....fantastic's a bit ambitious. I'm going for a GREAT day...! (1) Comments

Posted: 10/20/2006 1:06:47 PM