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Posted 12/22/2008 1:12:59 AM
i take too much to heart, especially concering a certain C.F.I feel sick.And i make it so he cant talk openly with me...i always get upset or take things wrongand i mess everything everything up.What the hell IS GOING ON HERE.My ability to get close to people is dying.Im realising this with him.I want to know for a fact that nothing will go wrongthat this is a sure thing and that I wont fall and cry and empty out like what happened with Dave.But thats unrealistic.I cant expect everyone to drop everything and plan the future with me.The fact is..Im sixteen.And I want marriage. Tough luck. . Which is stupid..Incredibly stupid.. to want at my age.I dont know what happened in my past. on the other side of the galaxy. . Or whatever...to make me need something so final.How dare I analyze myself.How dare I want everything to run right.IM A TEENAGER.why cant I just be happy with things as they go?Because im a true romantic and im an aries.Full of passion and love, but aggressive and needing to make the first move.I always say I love you first.I always kiss first.I always do everything first.I guess im scared that if someone else does something first, theyll have dominance over me...and I cant have that happen.I cant allow myself to be submissive to anything.I always have to stand my guard and never give in and always just ....be in control..WHAT A BULIMIC THING TO SAY.The end..
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Posted 12/17/2008 11:42:20 AM
New Plan:Quit being such a girland take this like a manBear your shield and take the bulletsLike you know you canBloody battered and no tears will be shedI CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THIS LIFEEVEN IF I END UP DEAD.
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Posted 12/17/2008 11:40:57 AM
New Plan:Quit being such a girland take this like a manBear your shield and take the bulletsLike you know you canBloody battered and no tears will be shedI CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THIS LIFEEVEN IF I END UP DEAD.
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Posted 12/17/2008 11:40:52 AM
New Plan:Quit being such a girland take this like a manBear your shield and take the bulletsLike you know you canBloody battered and no tears will be shedI CAN MAKE IT THROUGH THIS LIFEEVEN IF I END UP DEAD.
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Posted 12/10/2008 7:05:37 AM
I love how like..im ALWAYS there for all of you fucking whiners.and the second im miserable, you run for the door.You're all sad excuses for friends.
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