eh problems in my fucked up world:( Posted 4/28/2006 12:07:54 AM Now usually when I get dealt some awful news I go into this state of depression that I feel I can't get out. But for some reason I am feeling ok. Considering my morality is up in the air. Today I woke up and took the kiddos to school. I thought about alot of shit today. I know that sometimes I might think too much. Might be my fucking problem. I don't defend myself as much as I should too. I called Lex today and voiced an opinion which I know for a fact he wasn't tooo pleased. But not that I give a flying fuck. I dealt with his shit for yrs and yeah it sucked balls. So now he has to deal with me. I talked to him on the incase my shit comes back bad. What are we going to do cus kemo can be really hard on a person. What would we do? with the kids? He said he would take them. For some reason he is looking to take my kids from me. I know him. I feel it in my bones. He is trying to take them. Get a hold of them. My son told me today that his "Grandma" was telling him shit about me. Which in all honesty pissed me off. Does she not realize that my son is such a major mama's boy that what she is doing will only have a bad effect on her. Not me. He told me his grandma called me a "whore" in thai. WTF? She has the nerve to call me a whore? wtf for? I never cheated. I never let alex down when it came to my loyality. I was always there. Even when I had good reason to cheat on him. I didn't. I was raised with better morals then just to justify his cheating with someone myself. Plus I have alot of respect for myself. I know right now Legally I am still married. But in my head and heart . My marriage ended when he stuck his dick in someone else. It was mutual. We knew it was over. I am ok with that. Yeah I was a stupid cunt for taking him back and re- marrying him. But I always wanted the "cookie cutter " family. Plus I got the guilt trip from the oldest. But I forget that he should want the same too..... I am so sick of my x husband and his bullshit. I am sick of his family. I am sick of him trying to get the kids against me. Does he not realize that he was only there for the important things but forgot the in- betweens. Yeah those count too... All the times Elijah fell....cried...started opening up to people... When Brenden first started kindergarten...and first grade and second who took him? When Nia first took her first breath, cried, first bottle, first food, first steps, first words, first yr. Her memorizing her body parts...abc's ...numbers and even to spell her name. He missed all that. Cus he is a retard to join the army in the first place behind my back. Cus he is can't cut the umbilical cord from his mom. FUCK HIM! So you think you can come in and move shit around...brainwash my kids...change shit. Nope fucker I have the upper hand.... he just doesn't know it yet.... * just glued my fucking hand to my sister's figurine..fucking crazy glue* (0) Comments

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General Comments ajit Posted 5/3/2006 6:44:26 AM ur world start wth fuck.. wht a fuckin life. charlesmonish Posted 4/28/2006 6:58:56 AM Hai this to sad Please login to post a comment.