Life: Moving Day

Tomorrow, my JCB and I hit the road for Indiana! He spent his entire day Saturday cleaning and bringing various items over. The carpets have been cleaned, the bathrooms scrubbed and rescrubbed, the toilet seats replaced, all surfaces have been dusted and sanitized. I think tonight, my hubby is making another trip over as well to finish up. And then up at 4am to make his 6am flight to come get me! I AM SO EXCITED!!!!! Tomorrow evening, I will be in my new home with my family. I could not be happier! I truly am blessed to have Jamie in my life. He is without a doubt the greatest husband to ever walk this Earth. I love him so much..... (1) Comments

Posted: 1/27/2008 5:59:16 PM

Love: Pride

The best use of "swelling with pride" I have heard to this day was used to describe Bob the Enzyte guy. I could never top Bob. Excluding my little boy, I have never really known someone I could be proud of on a regular basis. Sure, certain people would do things here and there that would make me proud, but nothing consistent. And that's fine. No one can be expected to be on their game around the clock, right? I was emailing my hubby yesterday at work and the subject popped up, and I realized that the way I feel towards him in regards to his daily achievements is best described as swelling with pride. I can literally feel it when he talks about the things he's done or is doing, or when he sends me a poem or song he wrote, or when he talks about his goals. JCB truly inspires me. I am blown away by how much strength and determination one person can hold. He is truly my Superman. (1) Comments

Posted: 1/5/2008 8:15:08 AM

Love: JCA & JCB.

This weekend was by far the best weekend I have ever had in my life. That description doesn't even do it justice. When JCB gets back online, I'll let him take care of the poetic description. He's so amazing. If it wasn't for my friend, Paula, I never would have known NewBlog existed. If not for my extremely boring job at the time, I never would have had all the free time to post on here. If not for NewBlog, I may not have met JCB. I love NewBlog right now. I really have to thank everyone who was supportive when Jamie and I first brought this up. It really meant a lot to receive a positive reaction and not the typical doubt and disrespect. To be honest, everyone has been very supportive on both his and my side. I guess people can tell we're serious. I am so very much in love! I've turned into such a hopeless romantic, and I love it. Jamie Curtis Baker, I love you. Wedding invitations coming soon..... (7) Comments

Posted: 12/9/2007 7:31:12 PM

Love: Comfort In Silence

Relationships can be the most wonderful and the most horrible thing all in one. You take this one person and you allow them to take a hold of your heart. They can handle it with care or they can play baseball with it. You just never know which way it will go. For some people, relationships are nothing more than a game, a fun activity. They love the chase, the flirtation, trying to catch someone's eye. Once they get the prize, they get bored and move on. I don't fault anyone for doing that, but it's pretty rough if you're the one being treated like a trophy, won and quickly forgotten. The biggest obstacle for me in any relationship is communication and trust. I put these two together because if I don't trust someone, I am reluctant to communicate with them. Conversations are kept short, sweet, and to the point. I will probably rarely, if ever, talk to them over the phone because I know I'll have nothing to say, and I always dread those awkward silences. My friend, Chris, is one of the few people who I can stay on the phone with for hours on end. I remember one night long ago, we stayed up late watching infomercials and making fun of people's names. (Remember Larue?) That comfort is something I treasure, but also something that I tend to find only in friends, never in a lover. It's so hard for me to find people I can truly be myself around. That is not to say I am false in front of other people, I simply do not let myself relax; I tend to censor myself and hold certain things back. Often, I am called a bitch because of the way I act with people. Hell, people read my profile and call me rude. This tends to make me hold back even more. The last few days have been simply amazing for me. I have spent hours at night on the phone with someone I email and text message throughout the day. I tell him things that I wouldn't dream of telling most people, and it comes so easily. Every night as we hang up before drifting off to sleep, I am simply amazed at how comfortable I am with him, how we never run out of things to say, even though we talk around the clock. But one of my favorite parts, and there are many favorites, isn't the sweet things he says, although I adore that. It isn't the flowers that were waiting for me when I arrived home from work, even though they made me jump up and down like a little girl. It isn't even the promise of a beautiful future. It's the silence. Perhaps I'm alone on this one, but the silent pauses mean the most to me. And before you think I've lost my mind, let me explain. With most people, I am always scrambling to find something to fill the silence. The times I'm not trying to fill it, I'm trying to think of an excuse to get away from the person. I feel almost claustrophobic if the silence stretches for too long. With him, there's never a single negative thought in my mind, none of the panic that usually floods me. I find such comfort in our silence. And that makes me happy. (3) Comments

Posted: 12/5/2007 7:54:10 PM

Life: I'm Getting Married!!!!

(I'm not really getting married.... I posted this on MySpace about a week ago, and confused nearly all of my friends, so I figured I'd put it here too. Since JCB got me back on here. He's pretty good at talking me into things) Every time one of my friends from middle or high school gets married, I always think that they are too young, that their still just kids, just like me. My friends, both younger and older, seem to be getting married off one by one. And of course, people just always have to ask me when I plan on getting hitched. Well... I haven't the faintest idea. I was engaged to my middle school sweetheart for almost 3 years. During that time, I didn't get excited about wedding plans, I didn't care about setting a date. It wasn't that I wasn't happy because I was at the time. I just wasn't feeling it. I don't understand the wedding crazed mindset that some people fall into. Sure, I would love to find my soulmate and live happily ever after. But when I try and imagine how I want that to be, I don't even imagine a wedding. I imagine falling asleep in each others arms, cooking breakfast together, going grocery shopping as a family on Sunday afternoon, and other silly things. Sometimes I do imagine being proposed to. But it never goes past that. I suppose my biggest frustration with people pushing the idea of marriage at me is that they seem to feel that their is an age requirement for marriage. That, if I dare let myself hit 30 without a husband, I will be cheating myself out of something. That since I have a kid, I should be husband hunting twice as hard. That this is the time in my life to be seeking commitment. QUIT IT PEOPLE!!!!!!! I love being in a committed relationship! I do want to get married one day. I just don't feel the need to rush! I spent too many of my younger years rushing to grow up, and now that I'm grown, I want to hang on to my young years. I don't need to race to a hubby and a mortgage and a joint bank account. When the time is right, you'll get an invitation in the mail. Until then, back off me. p.s. JCB, will you marry me? (3) Comments

Posted: 11/20/2007 8:25:53 PM

Love: Jamie Curtis Baker

Is the greatest boyfriend a girl could have. The end. (7) Comments

Posted: 11/20/2007 7:18:31 PM

Love: Bragging Rights

I've had a couple people ask to see pictures of my angel, so here you go. :) He is such a sweetie. A couple of my son's Christmas pictures (2nd Christmas) Smile for the camera phone! Cuddle time A skilled musician already! Working on his tan Happy 1st birthday! and.. his first Christmas! (10) Comments

Posted: 2/25/2007 4:40:15 PM