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cryingXinside
Member Since: 9/27/2006 4:58:33 PMLast Seen: 3/30/2007 8:16:59 PM
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Bands: Meg and Dia, Flyleaf, Hawthorn Heights, Nickleback, AFI, Takign Back Sunday, Panic at the Disco, Aly & Aj, The Red Jumpsuit Aparatus, Def Lepperd, 30 Seconds to Mars, Angels & Airwaves, Fall out Boy, Kelly Clarkson, Plain White Tee's |
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Posted 2/20/2007 4:28:59 PM
This page is no longer in use. Sarah Lyons died last nite from a heart attack and other failing organs. We {Sarah's family} all thankyou for being so kind to her in her times of need. She ws very fond of each and everyone of you. Thankyou again for the support and prayers.
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Posted 1/25/2007 8:02:07 PM
How is everyone?
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Posted 12/29/2006 8:15:53 PM
Well not too much has happened since the last time i wrote here.Well i guess that isnt completely true. I got engaged. I lost the love ov mii life But I am healing. Christmas was hard. But great because mii wonderful family came out to be with me! I couldn't have asked for a better present! =] i hope everyone is doing well Happy New Year
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Posted 11/30/2006 6:16:21 PM
Well... I had my opperation all went pretty well except for the fact that it didnt change anything so now i am still sick and weak all the time and im trying to work nights still and pay all these medical bills and stay in school ahh life is so stressful i wasnt able to fly out to see my family because if i would have gotton sick on the plane i wouldnt have been able to get to a hospital get i would have died...so i stayed home and had pizza i couldnt stand it i didnt get to see my family and my little sister called me on thanksgiving crying and begging me to come see her and i feel absolutely horriblee because i cant i want to see them i miss my family i havent seen them in monthes and there is no way i am driving across america thats just not possible *tears* i just dont knwo what to do with myself i hope everyone is well you all have been in my thoughts and prayers everyone here has such a kind heart and i wish i had more time to talk to each of you i really do but between work, school and trying to sleep and maybe grab a snack in the middle of it all leaves no time for anything social what so ever and i am sorry i really am Sarah
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Posted 11/6/2006 8:31:11 PM
ok. so i am still trying to get my life together. but for some reason that is a completely impossible thing for me to do right now. i was born with a heart condition called SVT. Basically when my heart goes into that type of beat my heart rate shoots up to about 300 beats per minute. And on top of that i devolped a pretty serious blood presure diease type thing. And my blood pressure always runs extreamly low, and I pass out a lot and am currently on 34 pills a day. but lately i have been passing out and going into my heart arrythmia at the same time which is really not good, so i am going to have a sugery that will hopefully stop my heart from going into the arrythmia. It really isn't that serious, but I would feel better if you guys knew. Cuz you are so supportive and it just makes me feel so much better. So i would realy appriciate any positive thoughts/prayers. I hope everyone is doing well. Sending love to everyone.
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Posted 10/31/2006 6:26:34 PM
Happy Halloween Everyone! Also i would just like to say...when someone has just lost their best friend/sister/lover/guider you dont go and say that person is selfish and doesnt care about others. Because that isn't something that a frickin greiving person wants to hear. I dont want your fuckign opinion if thats what you have to say. Because you dont understand, and you dont know. Yes i let a little bit of information about Emma out to you, but that gives you no right in hell to say that she was a selfish or unkind person. And I hope that no one acts that way towards you if you ever loose someone the saem way I did. And to all thoes who were supportive the morning i found out about Emma's death; I just want to thank you fromt he bottom of my heart. You mean the world to me. All of you are truely angels! And God will most definately bless you for that. You know who you are. I am eteranlly thankful to you. My house was broken into last week. A bunch of items were stolen. Extreamly scary and saddening. And the police haven't foudn the man, and probably won't. October was not my month and I will be the one celebrating tonight when it is officially November! A time for thanksgiving and togetherness. I get to fly out to California to see my family! They all moved out there the summer I went to collage, and I was left here. So I don't get to see them too often. So I am very excited! xoxo Sarah
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Posted 10/18/2006 1:19:12 PM
hey. sorry i havent been on here in so long! i went on a little road trip w/ some friends. very fun! But this morning i got a call from my friend Matt tell me that at about 6:30 this morning when he went to pick up my very good friend Emma he found her dead in a closet. She had cut herself allover and before she bled to death she wrote a not saying "Do you feel sorry for me now?" and the took a knife and jabbed it into her hand to keep the note in place. The main reason she did this is so sad;;she had been dating a guy for a short amount of time, and she seemed nice. But yesterday he said he only went out w/ her becuase he felt sorry for her. She had things hard too. It jsut breaks my heart to know that she is gone. I loved her w/ all my heart, but that just wasn't enough to make her happy and to save her life. R.I.P Emma
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Posted 10/9/2006 7:00:04 PM
i still really cant believe that everyone here is so nice. it really amazes me. so, from the bottom of my heart i really want to thank all of you. life is a emotional roller coaster. its gotton old fast. i am trying really hard to find good ways to deal w/ all the stress and what not. but everytime i think i've foudn a good way to deal, im told its 'unhealthy' i am so tired of being told what to do. like why cant i just live my own life w/o answering to everyone i've ever met. i am old enough to take care of my self. but life goes on. trying to like it.
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Posted 10/5/2006 2:51:12 PM
we have had major storms here the last week. the electricity was down and stuff. it sucked. things seemed to have gone down hill the last couple days. my mom decided it would be a good idea for me to see a physchiatrist. it was soposesd to help w/ all the depression i have been having and what not. but it only made things worse. my step-dad came too. he told the doctor a bunch of lies about me and shit. the doctor then came to the comclusion that maybe i should be put into th hospital for observation. my mom the life saver said that was not needed at all. but after all the now i just feel horrible. its like i dont even feel at all. today has been awful. i am very open to kind words and encouragement. i really want of of all this. ready to take the easy way out. but i know my family needs me. but it is so hard to keep goign when you feel you arnt living for yourself, only other people.
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Posted 10/1/2006 2:12:12 PM
hmm. this weekend has been pretty good surprisingly. friday night was fun. went to a party. saturday i was @ my friend megs house. that was cool. and today im just chillen around the house. thinking about some stuff. [BOYS!] cough cough umm.. yeah i need some boy action lol! well if your a cool dood leave me a comment or something. xD ehh i gtg alena is like jumping on me *OUCH!*
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Posted 9/28/2006 1:27:52 PM
Wow. Last night i got comments and such from so many sweet ppl! i didnt think that anyone would take the time to talk to me. it was a great surprise to have all you kind hearted ppl take time from your hectic life to talk to me. i really appriciate it! [spelling? lol] all your sweet notes helped me get through the night... Yeah. Last night i got a call from my ex... weird right. after about a year of love and happiness i go on a vacation w/ my family for 4 weeks to Hilton Head Island, and when i get back Cory [the boyfriend]tells me that he fell out of love w/ me and that it's my fault because i went on vacation and he forgot about me. Even after i racked up a $4700 cell phone bill so i could talk to him day and night while i was gone. Yes. I was completely devestated. I had worked my entire life around being with him adn spending all my time w/ him. and he just forgets? whats wrong with me? did he jsut get bored with me? i honestly dont understand. i am the kind of persont he gets easily attached. yes, it is a major weakness of mine. he was everythign to me. after 2 monthes of serious depression and suicidal thoughts i am deatached from him. i think. but he continues to call me. and that jsut makes it harder for me to try and move on. i dont want to completely forget. but i am tired of thinking about him all the time. i mean; if he were to come tome today and tell me he wants to get back together everypart of my heart would be scream yes. even though i know that isnt what is best for me. so; if you have any help to give me i am toally open to any advice. i said advice. not what you think of me and my retarded love life. all i want is a little help. ehhh... life is so complicated! but i guess you jsut have to take it day by day, and help others along the way. and love life. i need to work on that one. BUT... again i want to say THANKYOU! to all you sweeties out there who were talking to me last night xD it makes me so happy!
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Posted 9/27/2006 5:27:55 PM
Ok so im new to this thingyy... im not really sure what its about. please dont judge me based on how i look; what my life is like; what i say; get to know me before you say a word. I understand that no ones life is perfect. more or less most ppl have it extreamly hard. i deal with an extreanly hard life everyday... so i can relate w/ most ppl. if you are one of thoes ppl who have everythign you want and still arnt satisfied, dont waste your time tryign to talk to me, or tell me that i dont know what im talking about, cuz i only have 2 words for you kinds ppl...FUCK YOU!xD i like real ppl. ppl who can trip over their own feet; then fall on their face and laugh like crazy at themselves! or if you are that persons friend and you laugh w/ them, but then take the time to help them back up on their feet. i like to talk to ppl. so if you ever need a stranger to just tell your problems to...im right here.=] but i also have my own issues. i would rahter tell them to complete strangers than to my best friend. dont ask why, cuz i dont even understand it. i just went through a break up that was completely devestating. i know what it is liek to have your WHOLE world fall down around you. and no im not goign to say i hate him. i dont hate anyone. i still care for him a great deal. i still love him. but i know that we are over. and it has taken a very long time but i am ready to move on. but that doesnt mean that it doesnt hurt to think about him. or to think about me w/o him, and him w/o me by his side.
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