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Angelic Tearz
About Me

I'm 15 and asian, about 5"7 so im kinda tall =S. I live in Canada and im going through a LOT of drama in my high school life so I need lots of advice.

Age: 17

Gender: F

Location: A cloud above the world

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Quote of the Week: "Yes, there are other fish in the sea, but what happens when a shark comes and eats up all the other fish?"
Song of the Week (English): Never Let You Go - Janice Wei
Email: galoreness_galore4000@hotmail.com or angelic.tearz@gmail.com

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~ Past Blogs ~
December, 2006
November, 2006
October, 2006

Twilight

this book is written by stephenie meyer incase anyone was wondering, but thats not my point. This book is just so AWESOME and im soooooo addicted to it, at first i saw the cover and it was a picture of two pale white hands holding out an apple, and it reminded me of a character called ryuk in an anime, and hes ADDICTED to apples. and my friends said it was really good so i asked to borrow it and read it, and i got soooo addicted to it, i LOVE the character edward cullens, and yes i know hes a FICTIONAL character in a FICTIONAL book with his FICTIONAL perfection and his FICTIONAL love for bella, which is still FICTIONALLY PERFECT of him, and theres a second book called "new moon" and i really really wanna read it, and it came out in oct 2006 so i CAN read it ♥♥^^ but edward dissappears for over half the book =( and the third book should be better but wont come out until oct 2007... its so devistating, how am i going to wait that long? seriously... and theres also gonna be a MOVIE ♥♥ ^_^, im DEFINATELY gonna be one of the first ones to watch it and buy the DVD and watch it like so many times, im prolly gonna memorize all the lines, eck, i sound soo obsessed... which i am xD and still now, i dont understand what the apple on the cover is suppose to signify...

7 Lives*

A few years ago, a couple who were about to get married were driving in their car towards their home as they just finished buying a wedding dress for the wife. The skies that day were very dark and gray. The clouds then released their water and it rained. It rained hard, for a long time. After about an hour of rain, the couple was still driving, but decided to stop because it was hard to see the road. Then they noticed that it was flooding outside and they were beside a mountain. The mountain started to collapse, slowly causing a mud slide.

Of course, Joe wanted the Claire to be safe so they both got out of the car and ran away from the mountain, but they were not fast enough. The mountain collapsed and covered everything below, including the couple’s car. Joe suggested that Claire should go to a safe place, so he took her somewhere safe, on top of a piece of wood floating by.** But only she was able to get on, so then Joe was in a very unsafe situation.

Then Claire fainted, when she woke up, she was in a house, and she was alone, without Joe. She broke out in tears, wondering about his safety. Then an angel of death came to speak to her, the angel told her that he was dead. The woman was very upset and asked the angel if there was any way to bring him back to life, the angel said “Yes, there is only one way, and that is, if you give up your life, in order to trade for his life. But there is a consequence that is; you and that man will never be able to meet each other for your next seven lives.” The woman thought long and hard, and then she finally answered with a “Yes, I will do anything for him.”

The woman died. But ironically, the woman died with her wedding dress beside her it must have floated to her during the flood. Fate must have decided that she and that dress must never be apart.

Moments later, Claire woke up. “It was all a dream…” for the past few years, she had been having this same dream over and over again. And her sister said that she was always tossing and turning in her sleep.

A few hours later, Claire went with her sister to meet up with her sister’s boyfriend. At that time, Claire was single. Her sister’s boyfriend, Cam, brought Claire a hand drawn picture. He showed it to her. In an instant, Claire realized that the woman in the picture looked exactly like her. She asked “Why have you drawn a picture of me? You have never met me, how do you know what I look like?”

Cam answered, “That is true, I have never met you, and the only problem is that, I did not draw this picture, my brother did. He had been mentioning a woman in his dreams that looked like her, so he decided to draw a portrait of her. He’s been telling me that in his dream, he and that woman were getting married, until a flood killed his fiancé and they never met again. Would you like to meet my brother?”

A few days later, Claire went to meet Cam’s brother. As soon ask she saw him, she recognized him as the man in her tragic dream. “My name is Joe, you must be Claire” said that man. Claire responded in a very weird way, she slowly started to cry, tear after tear. In between those tears, the only thing that she could say was “Seven lives are finally up,” and “This is the eighth life” Joe understood what she was saying, and stepped closer to her, letting her cry on his shoulder. He responded, “We are finally able to meet.”

*in many cultures, people believe in after life, and when you die, you become a different person forgetting your memory from your past life.
**yes, it sounds kinda like titanic, but its not suppose to


Depressing Stuff: ~ Pain ~

How can you know what pain is? You're too young to know pain. You're too young to know real hurt."

"Maybe you're right. I don't know pain. I guess sitting by the phone for hours waiting for someone to call, but knowing they won't isnt pain. Crying myself to sleep for hours, because every word they say cuts me worse than the knife that cuts my wrist isnt pain. I guess having my heart ripped out and thrown around every day by someone new isnt pain. Waking up alone every morning and going to sleep alone every night isnt pain. I guess you're right. I'm too young to know pain."


Story: Ice and Snow

Elliot, the son of a feudal lord who lorded over a great expanse of land, And Freedert, and Ordinary village girl, met one day and immediately fell in love. However due to their different social statuses, nobody around them would accept their love. However, their love only deepened and no matter what others said, they were happy. And then, the one to pull them apart was not a person, but war. Believing Elliot's words, "I will definitely come back alive" Freedert gave a sword to him, so that he could protect himself. Then, after he left, she prayed day after day for his safety. However, her prayer were in vain And Elliot was shot in the back with an arrow, and died. All in order to protect the last fortress protecting the territory. Where she, and the village, awaited him. Learning the news, Freedert prayed to God in the village church. She prayed that all of her time would be given to him. That wish was granted. Freedert's time was given to Elliot, and he returned to life. Instead of a pool of his own blood, Elliot was surrounded by the scarlet roses that Freedert loved. Then, when he returned, and learned of what she had done, this time, Elliot prayed. "Please return the time that she gave to me back to her." "Please exchange my time with hers." God felt for their strong bond, and joined their soul together. Then, their time was given to the village that they loved, and the village was promised eternal time. The village was protected for eternity, and the villagers never forgot the two.

Random Posts: When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 glasses of wine...

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very
large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf
balls.
He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if
the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."
The professor then produced two glasses of wine from under the table
and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty
space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, " I want you to
recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things-your God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favourite passions-things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would
still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your
house, and your car.
The sand is everything else-the small stuff.
If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room
for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never
have room for the things that are important to you.
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical check-ups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
Play another 18.
There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal."
Take care of the golf balls first-the things that really matter.
Set your priorities.
The rest is just sand."
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the wine
represented. The professor smiled.
I'm glad you asked.
It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of glasses of wine with a friend."


Random Posts: ~Rain~

It rained today but it was wierd. The sun was really bright and the sky was very blue, yet it rained. I thought it was very pretty because you could see each droplet of rain shine because if the sun's reflection, and it wasnt heave rain. It also made me in a good mood cuz normally, when it rains, the sky is dark and gloomy. I like rain ^^

Song info: Never Let You Go

The rain, just never seems to bring
the joy, I feel the same
everlasting pain of my loss remains

My heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left the mark
all that I dreamed of now it seems so stark

Though I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know,
I'd never let you go

The way, you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything on that day

I can't believe we'd never dance
I just need one more chance
to share the sunset our one last romance

Though I told myself won't hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in

If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know,
I'd never let you go

If you gave me, one more chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how I was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know,
I'd never let you go


Song info: Someone There For Me

Sweet dreams
is what he said as he went underground away from me into the dark
Forced me
from all my innocence into the very ordinary day today.
Watch and wait and see what comes

From the Soul of the man who is uncertain
When the sand washes out to the sea…
when the dreams fall away
and the promises forgotten
will there still be someone there for me… for me

He sings
and with his hands he holds a microphone and speaks so loud for all to hear
I’d give
whatever is left of all the work I’d do my hands are tired from all the years
See and wait and look I will

With the soul of the man who is uncertain
When the sand washes out to the sea
When the dreams fall away and the promises forgotten
Will there still be someone there for me... for me

Watch and wait and see what comes

From the Soul of the man who is uncertain
When the sand washes out to the sea…
when the dreams fall away and the promises forgotten
will there still be someone there for me

With the soul of the man who is uncertain
When the sand washes out to the sea
When the dreams fall away and the promises forgotten
Will there still be someone there for me…
promises for me… promises for me


Random Posts: Abortion

Month One
Mommy, I am only 8 inches long, but I have all my organs. I love the sound of your voice. Every time I hear it, I wave my arms and legs. The sound of your heart beat is my favorite lullaby.

Month Two
Mommy, today I learned how to suck my thumb. If you could see me, you could definitely tell that I am a baby. I'm not big enough to survive outside my home though. It is so nice and warm in here.

Month Three
You know what Mommy, I'm a girl !! I hope that makes you happy. I always want you to be happy. I don't like it when you cry. You sound so sad. It makes me sad too, and I cry with you even though you can't hear me.

Month Four
Mommy, my hair is starting to grow. It is very short and fine, but I will have a lot of it. I spend a lot of my time exercising. I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes, and stretch my arms and legs. I am becoming quite good at it too.

Month Five
You went to the doctor today. Mommy, he lied to you. He said that I'm not a baby. I am a baby Mommy, your baby. I think and feel. Mommy, what's abortion?

Month Six
I can hear that doctor again. I don't like him. He seems cold and heartless. Something is intruding my home. The doctor called it a needle. Mommy what is it? It burns! Please make him stop! I can't get away from it! Mommy!! HELP me!! No . . .

Month Seven
Mommy, I am okay. I am in Jesus's arms. he is holding me. He told me about abortion. Why didn't you want me Mommy?

Every Abortion Is Just . . .
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.


Random Posts: Death Note

How to use it:

The human whose name is written in this note shall die. This note will not take effect unless the writer has the person’s face in their mind when writing his or her name. Therefore, people sharing the same name will not be affected. If the cause of death is written within 40 seconds of writing the person’s name, it will happen. If the cause of death is not specified, the person will simply die of a heart attack. After writing the cause of death, details of the death should be written in the next 6 minutes and 40 seconds.


My Day: October 14, 2006

Eh, today was kinda interesting, and yesterday was friday the 13th not that anything bad happened to me, i was in a really great mood, i dont even know why. oh well, cuz on thursday it was kinda raining so i had my umbrella and i opened it inside and my friend was like "thats unlucky" and i was like "i dont believe in bad luck" and yea, and yesterday it was raining, and i was being stupid and i was like "guys, its raining like, water out there" and my friend was like "-_- not like it can be raining something ELSE. lol, stupid me but today, about the guy i sorta like, i promised him taht i would show him around my school cuz they have wierd door numbers, but then i sorta was trying to avoid him so im GLAD i didnt see him, and hes didnt even TRY talking to me.

Story: This is a story I started writing

Chapter 1

*beep* *beep* *beep*

“Oh no, it’s already 7:30? I’m late, I’m late. ECK” says Cathy as smacks her alarm clock, rushes out of bed and gets ready for school. “Sarah, what am I going to wear, it’s the FIRST day of high school.”

“-_- we’re in high school, we CAN’T wear anything OTHER then our uniforms, REMEMBER??” says Cathy’s twin sister, Sarah.

Cathy smacks her own for head “Oh yeah, I forgot, and I spent almost a whole 5 minutes picking out an outfit”

“Well, you better hurry up because if you don’t get downstairs in 10 minutes I’m telling Chad to drive off without you.”

“Okay, okay, now what shoes should I wear?”

“9 minutes!!”

“Okay, okay, I’ll be there in 2 minutes, don’t you DARE drive off without me.”

Sarah slowly leaves her room and walks down the stairs; there she was greeted by Chad, the family driver. Her mother is already off to work and her father is in the backyard watering the plants. The only ones left in the house are herself, Chad, Cathy and several other maids and butlers. Sarah didn’t like the maids and butlers much because she hadn’t known them for a long time, but Cathy on the other hand, loves ordering them to do things with that lazy attitude of hers. A year ago, their father died in a terrible car accident and left the rest of the family in grief, but one day her mother met a romance novelist and fell in love with him at first sight. They were inseparable since. When the father died, he left billions of dollars in his will for his family, they bought a new house in the city of Lagost, but her mother renamed this town with the last name of his new husband, Nanami.

“5…4…3…2…1… okay, times up, I’m leaving now” shouts Sarah.

This first year high school student steps into the car accompanied by Chad. Chad is an experienced driver. He has been driving since he was very young and is able to drive many types of vehicles. He is now 40, the same age as Sarah and Cathy’s mother because they went to school together. He is tall with dark brown hair, with no facial hair. Chad drives off for school without Cathy, but as soon as he leaves, Cathy steps out of the front doors.

“NO… now I need to walk to school -_-, maybe I can take a short cut through there,” looking in the direction of a small path beside her driveway.

It is now 7:45am and school starts at 8:30am, if she walks to school now, she MIGHT just make it. As she walks along the path, she’s thinking to herself “What’s high school going to be like?” as she turns a corner. She trips over the uneven pavement and falls onto a guy. She gets up and looks at the guy, she’s about to say sorry but she realizes that that boy is very good looking and looks no more then 15 years old. The guy looks up and sees that Cathy is still on top of him, he gives her this really sweet look that makes Cathy daydream about him for about a second, and then he pushes her off and says “OMG, you are SO heavy, I thought I was going to DIE.”

“How dare you push away a young maiden without even a simple ‘are you okay miss?’” Cathy shouts back.

“HEY that’s MY line, why were you even in there anyways?”

“WHAT!?! Why am EYE here? More like why are YOU here? Could it be that you are snooping on the new wife of Mr. Takeri?”

“WHAT are you talking abo-“

“Ms. Takeri, there’s someone snooping outside of your house!!!” Cathy interrupts.

“Stop making up lies… why are you here anyways?”

“Stop changing the subject”

“I’m not, you are”

Cathy looks at her watch, “oh no, I’m going to be late,” looks up at the boy and says “your lucky this time” and runs off towards school

Cathy makes it in time for school and meets up with her sister.

“Why are you so late?” says Sarah

“You DON’T wanna know, I ran into this psycho and blah blah, LONG story” rambles Cathy

“Okay… tell me when we get home. Let’s hurry up or we’ll be late to our first class”

**if you have any comments or ideas for the story, feel free to express your ideas or email me


Song info: Temporary Insanity

I dont know if anyone will like this song cuz its kinda old, i heard it long time ago but i still like it and it has a nice tune to it. i will be uploading a new song each week so if you want to download this one, go to: The Weekend- Temporary Insanity.mp3


My Day: Oct 10

today was pretty interesting cuz it wasnt a bad day but i wasnt that good either. so first off when i got to school, i saw my friends, which i dont normally do cuz i dont go to school early, so then we talk a bit and stuff, then the bell rings so i go to class.

first period was history and my group and i had to present our topic "tactics and weapons on land" or something on world war 1, but then the principal warned us that there was going to be a fire alarm. so then we try to start up our presentation with my teachers laptop so it doesnt work, so hes like "bring in your own laptop tomorrow and present it then" so then i sat down and started talking to my friends, a few mins later my teacher tells me to plug in my USB again and try to do the powerpoint presentation again, and it starts working, so we start saying our parts. then at our third person (out of 5 ppl) the fire alarm goes off, so we all walk out the door and wait infront of the school. after that we finished our presentation and it took up the whole period cuz our slide show was the longest.

then i had business, it was very boring. so then my friend who sits with me had to go to the chapel for something, so when he came back i asked him why he was called down and he said that the retreat date that he chose was full so he cudnt go on it. it was the same one as mine and now i have no friends (other then that girl i mentioned before, who went sorta went to the mall with the dude i like so i dont really wanna talk to her much)

LUNCH TIME!! A lunch so its the first lunch with the best food cuz its all newly cooked. so then i saw my friend and we lined up for FOOD. i got mac and cheese but i didnt really want that much so i asked for a little bit and i was still charged 3$ and the whole thing was 3.50$ (our caf food is very expencive now, no fair). we sit down and eat and these peoples who are sorta my friend askes my guy friend to pretend to play a part in this english film they were doing where he had to say a line "i watch tv alot because i dont have many friends and im not fit so i cant joing sport teams" haha, it was probably sooo embarassing for him. so then i went to the guidance office to ask them to change my names on the honour rolls where they take out my middle name (took sooo long)

ENGLISH was after and we have to do these poem analysis where you have to talk for 9-12 mins and we get grades on an oral mark and present our media project which was worth 15% of our FINAL mark, and thank goodness im going tomorrow, but i was suppose to go 4th today but we ran outta time. eck, im scared thinking about it. =S

haha, math was so stupid cuz as soon as we got there, we got a quiz on PARABOLAS, ewwie. so then on the announcements, the prncipal was like "staff and students, we have a code green" so then the teacher reads the thingy to see what he hasta do and it says to continue with regular school activity and ignore all alarms and buzzers. so then the fire alarm goes off (and we still doing our quiz) and the teacher told us to stay where we are so were still doing our quiz, then some random teacher comes into the room and says "hey guys, its a fire drill, get out" so then we get out and the whole class starts cheating on what was on the test talking about what was on it. after that, we go back into class and we had to finish the quiz and blah blah blah. then the principal goes on the PA and goes "good job to those who stayed in teh class" and stuff.

now im home and im playing some stupid game to try to get some stupid prize cuz its the only thing im gud at but i kept losing, oh well. and now my mom jsut told me that i dont get to make those japanese dolls anymore (kimekomi) because the teacher died =(, and when i was at that place where they were showing it, i saw a car with a really nice license plate, it was "4 ANATA" which meant "for you" in japanese, i wanted to take a piccy of it but when i went to it, the car was gone =(

~Angelic Tearz~


Random Posts: What does this mean?

Yesterdy night, I was still on msn so then the guy and the girl both msn me, the girl asked me whats wrong with my screen name (it said that my heart hurts, im really upset, why did this happen and tears **it was in chinese) so i said nothing and then she stopped talking to me. Then later on at night, the guy talks to me and asks me whats up, so i said i was upset and he said that i sounded sad but when i asked him how, he said he didnt know. After that, we were both not really talking to each other so i decided to just ignore it and NOT start the convo, in the end, he didnt talk to me anymore.

~Angelic Tearz~
October 9, 2006


Depressing Stuff: How should I handle this?

*sigh* the worst possible thing happened today. Or at least she made me feel worse about it. This is what happened, at school on friday, me and my best friend were doing this thing for thankgiving where we walk around neighboorhood for 3rd period. So then we started talking about this guy I like. This guy isnt from our school so my friend has never physically met him, but I have, I met him in grade 3. She was mentioning how she called him on his cell phone on thursday and said 'good morning' and he said that he was wasting his minutes. So then I asked how she got his phone number, (they have only been talking on msn as far as I know) and she said that he gave it to her. So then I asked "Did HE give you his number or did YOU ask for it?" and she said "He gave it to me." So then I asked why and she said "Well, he asked for my cell number so then I gave him my number and I thought it was not fair that he had my number so I asked for his number and he gave it to me". (**note: the guy knew that I liked him and my friend thinks I like him but I never agreed to that). After that she said that she was going to the mall on saturday, so I said "How come you are going to the mall on saturday, you said you couldn't go with me on any saturday" and she said "It is because it's a holiday so I can go" So then I ask who she is going with and she says that she going with the guy I like. I just don't understand, they have never physically met. So then I already feel really upset but I didn't mention that to my friend. Then she starts talking to me today on msn and mentions that she had a great time with him. So I'm really wondering, what should I do about it and who's considered the third person in this relationship, me or her?

~Angelic Tearzs~
October 8, 2006


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kamea
1/10/2007 4:21:12 AM
I totally forgot – Happy New Year!!!

ILUV_JEN
11/15/2006 11:53:59 PM
whear that place

einahpets225
11/3/2006 3:15:09 PM
Hello cccybuny119!

einahpets225
10/14/2006 5:29:57 PM
Hello.Thank you for the request!Just got on today. I like the mini stuff you put on your layout!

BrooklynFrank
10/11/2006 9:22:17 PM
spelling counts, you know. even in spanglish.

ohemgee
10/11/2006 3:06:37 PM
heyyaa rachell, needta talk to yaa =) msg me orr stuffers

BrooklynFrank
10/10/2006 7:52:37 PM
hola senorita

ohemgee
10/10/2006 3:51:57 PM
heyaa sexxyy 3 Bored right now. So anything up lately?

DEVON
10/8/2006 3:00:50 PM
hey cuttie

cryingXinside
9/28/2006 5:03:28 PM
cute pic
xD

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