Anuhthur 1 Uv Dem' Daze...

Woke up this morning...Feeling really weak...Could be cause i only slept two hours last night. Couldn't really sleep. Got to work today. i was late. 45 minutes to be exact. Boss looks at me funny. Middle Finger Him. Elevators not working...again! Guests' complain as if it's all my fault. Middle finger them. Feeling light headed...my face is numb. Daughters' mother comes by to collect. Nothing but complaints' also. Middle Finger her. She leaves...now my head hurts real bad. Manager asks if i am okay as if he really cared. Middle Finger Him. Went to the office. Nose starts to bleed. Blood real heavy. Took me ten minutes to calm it down. I should see a doctor but i choose to stick around instead. Girlfriend calls. Complains' of the lack of effort i put in this relationship. Sent her to hell. Called her an "attention whore" and told her to just move on. Don't really find a use in her. Head hurts real bad. Visions' hardly a blur. Trying to ignore it. People talking around me. They won't shut up. Talking nonesense. Back in the office. Try to close my eyes'. See my dad. He just stares. Then starts to laugh...laughing at me. Making me feel stupid. Then his face goes blank. He continues to just stare. He then says "Come in Gil, Come in" I wake up. Only to hear the same words on the radio. Need to get back in my post. Wish i was home. (1) Comments

Posted: 4/22/2007 7:59:30 PM

Enjoy My Fellow Americans', As We Once Again Bend Over!

Here's an image of the Son of a Bitch that Sticks' it to us this time. Take a good look at the picture above. Think about what he's done. And tell me what can America do to avoid something like this from ever happening again. If you read more about this story, you'll find that there are more questions than answers. At least that's what i found. "He was a nice, clean-cut college kid. We won't sell a gun if we have any idea at all that a purchase is suspicious," says John Markell, Owner of "Roanake Firearms" who sold this kid the 9mm Glock. One of the guns' used in the shooting's. Of course, because there's nothing wrong with a university student buying an automatic pistol. A firearm clearly not used for "hunting". So i would imagine that there is nothing "suspicious" about that. Rrright! Please...you know that statement was pure bullshit! He just wanted to sell the gun. But it's not his fault. The faculty also knew that this kid was...how can i say this, a Phuckyn Loon! They say he used to turn in some trippy papers in his Creative Writing class. Apparently, he used to write alot about death and killings. They wouldn't release these papers because of "Privacy Laws". But i would imagine the papers went something like this: "Hello, my name's Cho Seung-Hui. I want to say something...Cha-ka-kaka-kakah!" Which in Korean, meant..."I'm going to kill many people very, very soon. So be prepared!" Fuck "Privacy"! All of the signs were there. They ignored it and the only thing they don't want exposed is their Stupidity! Seriously though, what the fuck was it that made this kid so depressed, he felt he had the right to take all those lives'? Was his dick really that small? Did his parents deny him an X-box? I mean, seriously...what happened? I don't know...but it's fucked up and i feel real bad for all of those people who were cheated from having the beautiful lives' they were looking foward to. R.I.P. I just can't wait til i see the news that this kid played some kind of a "Violent Video Game" and they start "Cracking Down" on them again like they did with the Columbine shooting's. Cause god forbid anybody else takes blame for this. But i feel like this: We have our own minds', and we make our own decisions'. The only one we could and should place blame on is Cho Seung-Hui. And i hope he burns in hell! For eternity. Little bitch! -3ND TRANSMYSHON- (5) Comments

Posted: 4/18/2007 11:04:09 AM

Dadeez' Lyttle Gurlz...

The other day, i was with my daughters' and i noticed that Morgan, my oldest...is already half my height. So many thoughts ran through my mind like: "Damn! In a few years...i'll be planning her sweet 16. Then, College!" That's not all. She'll get married to some...Asshole (More of an asshole than i'll ever be...)! And then...she'll forget about her dad. But then again, she's not even ten yet. So that kind of eased the pain cause i realized i have enough time to plan the murders' that will prevent all of the above from happening...lol. Seriously though, my baby's growing up so fast! It scares the hell out of me. Then, there's Cyan. Lil' 9 month old Cyan. The new little princess in my life. You should she her...you'd want to pinch her face. When she looks at you with those pretty little eyes of hers'...it's just hypnotizing. anyway, i give her a small peice of chocolate and then...She Bites' My Finger. She has three small teeth that have already grown out. Shit! Now i'm getting the same thoughts mentioned above running through my head. And it made me realize... I am So fucked! (0) Comments

Posted: 4/3/2007 12:19:31 PM

Slide...

I had a strange dream a few nights ago. This dream is still buggin' me out! In this dream, i found myself waking up in bed the same way i was in the first place. I turned to the other side to make myself more comfortable to fall asleep again, only to find that there was some strange woman standing by my bed. I've never seen this woman in my life and i was trying to figure out who she was. But i couldn't. She was just staring at me and smiling. Now here's where it all get's trippy... The way she smiled. It wasn't a nice smile. It was more of an eerie smile if that makes any sense. Her eyes' were wide open and she had this horrifying grin. She asked me "Are you ready?" I said "What?!!" Then she responded with the word "Slide..." She then pulls out a huge kitchen knife...and before i can do anything, she slits' my throat! I obviously don't know what getting your throat slit feels like, but i kind of have an idea now. In this dream, i actually felt my throat opening as the knife slid through my skin. It felt so real, i woke up hard of breathing and panicked cause i thought i was really dying. I was scared shitless! Now what the hell did she mean by saying "Slide..."? It reminds' me of the movie Fight Club (If you saw that movie, you'll know what i mean). This could only mean either i am going Crazy, or i've watched that movie too many times'. Strange... (1) Comments

Posted: 3/10/2007 12:21:42 AM

Best Video Ever!!!

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Posted: 1/8/2007 8:26:51 PM

Hello all!

Hey people...i know it's been awhile but with this x-mas season heating up and all of the overtime at work, i did not have a chance to post anything. So for those interested, i will brief you in on what's going on in my life: Work- Things have been fine at work. Even with all of the asshats who also happen to be employed there, i can say that thing's have been pretty smooth. Which is strange because at this time of the year things always seem like they're falling apart. But aside from all of the overtime i have to put in, i have no complaints. Life- So x-mas is almost here. Being busy with work and all, i thought it would be impossible to go shopping for gifts this year. There's alot of kids in my family (Eight including my two girls...). So i was worried that thing's would be difficult in that area. But i recently ran into an old friend who was able to help me score 7 Tmx Elmo's! So i was able to wrap six for my nieces' and nephews' And one for my youngest cyan. And a colleague of mine at work also sold me a brand new Nintendo Wii (she got it for her son...but he wanted an Xbox 360...) which my oldest daughter Morgan has been driving me crazy about. So it seems like X-mas is gonna be great! Health- My body's aching. I feel lightheaded and i think it's because i'm coming down with the flu. I really hope not. I don't want to be sick during my vacation. And with my luck, It's gonna happen that way. We'll just wait and see... Love- It stinks. I caught my girlfriend(Now my ex)in a lie. A really bad lie! It seems everybody lies' to me. I guess it just comes with the territory. I mean, it's all my faught. How can i expect to be in a relationship when i can't really mentally afford it right now? I was unable to spend as much time as i wanted with her so, this shit just happened. But i'm not mad at her. Honestly. I'm just really dissapointed. I really liked her. But i wish her well. Maybe i should just focus on being a Dad and stay away from relationships for awhile. So that's it. Story of my life. Pretty boring huh? I wanna thank everybody in advance for reading this post. And if i'm unable to log in by that time, I wanna wish everybody a Merry Christmas and i hope everyone get's everything they've wished for. Most of all, i hope this holiday season fills you all with Happiness and Joy. Lot's of love people, -Gilbert- (0) Comments

Posted: 12/1/2006 7:45:10 PM

Desperate People...

So as you probably read on one of my previous entries', i'm a big gaming freak. So it's a surprise to my friends (even to myself) that i didn't reserve a sony playstaion 3. I don't know why, i just never got around to reserving one. Big Mistake... I still wanted one. So i hunted all over new york on nov. 17th for a place in line...but it was madness everywhere. There were lines that circled' the block twice! People were arguing...and i even noticed one guy trying to sell his place in line (i think it was third...) for get this...$2,000!!! So i searched "ebay" (I'm a dumbass for even bothering i know!), And my god!!! I couldn't believe what i was seeing! Some poor shmuck paid over 10,000 dollars for one! It was crazy! And it wasn't only him, there were other auction ranging from $2,500-$6,000! These were actual bids. For a video game system that's worth only $600.00! I mean, i'm a huge video gamer. I was even willing to pay a couple of extra hundred dollars for one (Hey, small price to pay for not reserving one on time...). But then i started thinking...(Yes i can do that...lol) say i paid about 1,500 dollars for one, just to be one of the first to have it, come spring time (when they're available everywhere...) i'm gonna be really pissed off at myself cause i spent $1,500 on something i could have just waited for. Now imagine how i would feel if i had spent $10,000. I mean...i don't care how rich you are. If you spend that much money on a video game system, come spring time...you're gonna feel like a total jackass when they're available everywhere for a very small fraction of what you paid for. Now that's priceless! Stupid. Guess i'll just wait til' spring. (0) Comments

Posted: 11/18/2006 4:58:47 AM

Father....

This was my father's favorite song. I remember being a little kid and watching my dad sing along to Al green. Today is the anniversary of my father's death. Wow...it's been 21 years...i can't believe it. I wish you could see your sons...how we've all grown up. I know you'd be proud of us. I know you would have spoiled morgan... And i wish you could meet cyan. Wish i could see you... (0) Comments

Posted: 11/14/2006 9:54:26 AM

Old Gamer...

So...i've been playing video games since i was a kid. I remember being 7 years old and having my very first Coleco Vision game system. Wow! Those were good days. Not an adult problem in the world. But anyway, since then, as i grow up i just had to get my hands on every new system that was out. I've got everything from the Nindendo entertainment system all the way to the xbox 360. I plan on getting the new systems coming in november. The "Playstation 3" and Nintendo's "Wii". But the other day...i was playing an online game on xbox live (something i haven't done in about a year), and was playing against a group of 12 and 13 year old's on "halo 2" (A game i once thought i have mastered). Woah! These kids handed me my ass! I couldn't stay alive for more than a minute. These kids were everywhere. Shooting at me from different angles...lol. It was crazy! Then one of the kids was trash-talking saying to me "Get off-line old man! Let the real player join the game!" "Old man?" i thought...but then i remember reading an article about men losing some "hand-eye coordination" after a certain age. I can't remember what age it was exactly, but it was somewhere in the late twenty's. Me being 27 yrs...i started to feel old. And for a moment i was depressed. Y'know...the whole "Getting old" thing just got to me. Then...as i thought deeper into it all, i realized i didn't really like what "B-weezer632" has just said. It really pissed me off! So i started another game with the same group of people...and it was on!!! It was a huge war. But i still got my ass handed to me...lol. But i'll always play. My losses do not mean i'm getting too old for gaming. It just means i suck at playing online matches. But i am getting better at it. It's sort of a new hobby within a hobby. So meet me "N3VURMYND", on "X-box live" bitches!!! (0) Comments

Posted: 11/1/2006 8:30:13 AM

Some reading material...

Found this on another blogging site. I just had to respond... WHY DO MEN CHEAT? Current mood: aggravated WHAT IS IT...WHY DO MEN HAVE TO CHEAT ON THIER WOMEN? PERSONALLY IM JUST SO TIRED OF THE BULLSHIT...I FEEL LIKE IM THE 1ST BUT IN ALL REALITY IM THE SECOND..I SHOULD BE FIRST. ITS NOT TRUE WHEN WOMEN SAY THAT MEN ARE LIKE DOGS BECAUSE A DOG WILL NEVER CHEAT ON YOU, WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU ALONE, THEY WOULD ALWAYS BE LOYAL TO YOU AND CAN LICK THEIR OWN BALLS..LOL BUT ON A SERIOUS NOTE...TELL ME, MAKE ME UNDERSTAND WHY DO MEN CHEAT ON THIER WOMEN? NOW LOOK AT THIS..LOL. MEN ARE PIECES OF SHIT..HERES THE PROOF AND THATS JUST SOME OF THE MEN THAT SPEAK THE TRUTH. How often do people cheat? Is it common? Basics of Statistics on Cheating Obviously cheating is about being dishonest. Here Are Some Statistics On Cheatng 12% of women cheat, 22% of men cheat The National Opinion Research Center at the University of Chicago 20% of women cheat, 40% of men cheat Dr. Scott Haltzman, Barrington psychiatrist 22% of women cheat, 37% of men cheat According to AskBob.com, up to 22% of women have been unfaithful at least once ... 25% of women cheat, 33% of men cheat Janus Report on Sexual Behavior (1993) (End Of Post) Now, here's my response... Well, men cheat cause that way...they won't have to leave. Personally, i don't cheat (I'm tired of getting caught!). But i understand why. Even though it's wrong...we cheat cause we don't want to lose the girl we love. Otherwise...we would just leave you and move on. The truth is, being in a relationship is hard. We always gotta deal with your personal feelings and emotions. You're naggin' and crying (Every girl does that). We always have to listen even though sometimes we really don't want to. Yet, here's a girl on the other side who's willing to give him sex with no strings attached. It only being a sexual thing. It's easy to give in to all of that. If you don't already know how we think, then say bye bye to relationships in general. Cause the truth is...we're not really that complicated. We want the girl we fell in love with. Not the person she's become. The reality is that after some time in a relationship, women tend to change. She's no longer that sweet girl who laughs at all of his stupid jokes and who always praised him for every single thing. Now she's a woman who wants more in life and makes things alot more complicated with all the naggin' and all the fighting for reasons we have no clue of. See...men have a need to make "sense", and if you're fighting with him over something you can't even explain then you're pushing him away. Just because they cheat, Doesn't mean they don't love you... But now, it's not only men who cheat. What bugs me out is how women always tend to be "faithful" when they have a man who's dangerous, being an asshole all the time, beats or degrades her in the most horrible ways. Each one of these men are men that women have no reason the be with. It could never get better, yet they always stay faithful. Weird. But when you finally got him the way you always wanted him to be. When this poor man's treating you like a queen and listening to everything you have to say. Never questions you and let's you have free time to do whatever it is you want to do...that's when you cheat. And your reasons for cheating goes something like this: "It's cause he's a lil' too good to be true." Now, of course you loved him...but you just couldn't believe him. I will not condone, nor justify cheating or the reasons for cheating in any way. But it is what it is. Everybody cheats. And those who deny that, are just good liars (At least they think they are). And as long as Women want bad Men and Men want Women who'll Shut up, It's always gonna be that way. (END) Now...i know there are many people here at Newblog who'll disagree with what i said. Let me know what you think. This'll be interesting... (1) Comments

Posted: 10/24/2006 9:18:38 AM

About my old profile song...

"Mention this to me... Mention something, mention anything. Mention this to me... Watch the weather change". -Tool: Disposition- These are the only words recited in this song. Yet for some reason, i've been listening to this song for a long time now. It makes me think of how everything good in my life changes. Like some of my old Childhood friends. Some i'll never see again and some who i've just lost touch with. We had good times. No adult problems. Not a worry in the world. But of course we grow up right? And that changes everything. Then there's love. You think you've found your "Soulmate". You then make plans to be with that person forever, only to find that after so many years of loving this person...and at a time when you are most vulnerable, they then destroy your plans in the most humilliating way possible. Again, everything changes. I guess it just makes me think about everything i miss most. Like my friends...i miss being a kid and i wish i can go back. And the mother of my daughter's...who i had beautiful times with and would probably love always. Yes i do miss her. But in my heart i feel it's not worth going back to her and risk having to go through the pain again. I worry about all the changes that may take place in the future. Will this change have anything to do with my daughters' or maybe my health? My hands shake at the very thought of such things. I guess i'm just afraid of change. I could never get used to it. Yes...this song makes me think about all of these things and more. But i can't explain why. Maybe the melody of this song just hypnotizes me into this state. Whatever it is, all i can say is...it's a good phuckyn' song. (1) Comments

Posted: 10/18/2006 6:03:14 AM

Sorry...

Sorry i havent' Had the chance to write in awhile. I'm sick. I have the flu. It sux!!! Lots of luv to everybody. Wish you all well. (1) Comments

Posted: 10/15/2006 5:12:51 PM

Strange...

Wow! Talk about a strange week. Well, work was crazy on monday. So crazy...it all felt like a dream. Let me explain: On monday i get to work @ 7am. Dead tired cause i just punched out eight hours earlier. I had hoped the day would just breeze by. But it's never that simple. Well, first of all...my "associate" was unable to get work done. Now because of this lazy fool i have double the work to get done. So it was a very long day. Then...during my lunch break, i decided to request a week's vacation for decemebr 21st til the 28th. But again...it's never that simple... I presented my request to the boss. Who doesn't think twice about rejecting my request. He says "I can approve it. But "morally" i can't. I mean c'mon...it's christmas week! I can't have the other guys working double shifts all on account of your vacation". At first i understood. He had a point. so i just let it go and i resumed my shift. But then i started to think deeper. After all of the double shifts i have worked all on account this guy's stupidity, and during the vacation of my co-workers. Instead of using all the time i could have spent with my daughters'... the rest of my family and my friends, i instead chose to place this company first. Thinking of all of that wasted time just pissed me off! I couldn't take it anymore... I proceeded back to the boss' office. I couldn't believe what i did next. I just tossed my work keys, my employee i.d and my keycard right at his desk. But not before yelling the words "I Quit". He tried to work something out but i didn't want to listen. I just walked out of there...with no regrets and went to visit my beautiful lil' girls. I checked my voicemail yesterday. I got a message from one of the higher up's at the corporate offices' and she asked me to call her asap. I return the call and i couldn't believe what i was hearing. She apologized for my ex-boss' behavior, gave me a speach of how much they "value" my services to this company and asked me to come back in a week to discuss a promotion they've been considering for me. I felt like i won the lotto. lol. So the week's turning out alot better than i thought. It can't get any better than this. But then i log in, and i find that lotus leaves me a comment. And she think's I'm handsome! Lot's of love lotus. You don't know how much i smiled when i read that! Thank you. (0) Comments

Posted: 10/11/2006 3:35:47 AM

Before i go...

Hey people...i was about to log off but i just wanted to say one thing before i left. LOTUS Rocks! I know everybody knows this already, But i just wanted to scream it out!!! Anyway people, i'll see you all soon! (0) Comments

Posted: 10/3/2006 8:05:34 AM

Silver Lining

Well, yesterday was a good day. At first it seemed like it was the start of a bad one. I got off of work @ 7am, only to find out that i have to return @ 3pm. So i only had a small amount of time to sleep until i returned. I probably fell asleep a little after 11am. all i was thinking about was how much i missed my daughters. Thinking how all i wanted was to hear my oldest daughter "Morgan", tell me about her day. Or imagining the piercing stare from Cyan's eyes following the occasional smile and laugh. I wished i had a picture. Damn i miss my babies'. Anyway...i get to work at around 2:40pm. Only to find out that i got a really long day ahead of me. Thing's are falling apart over there But that's another story. So yeah, i was feeling down and out with the whole situation. I get a phone call on my cell phone @ 5:46pm. "Hey, Come outside!" It was Janette, the mother of my little girls! She knew how bad i was feeling with all of the work i've been doing and she remembered that i take my breaks @ six pm. So she decided to show up with the girls so we can all have lunch together. It was amazing. I hugged and thanked her. We went to a nearby diner and it was the best hour i've had all week. We had a great time! For the rest of the shift, it was all smiles. It was really the highlight of my day. Anyway...today's my day off so i'll be with them all afternoon. It's gonna be another Great day. (0) Comments

Posted: 10/3/2006 7:31:26 AM

Still @ work....

So yeah...I'm still @ work and i'm a lil' stressed out. I feel like i've been working too much. I've not had the chance to spend time with my daughters for a few days already. Work is taking too much of my time. I feel so sad. I feel like i am failing as a father. My relationship with thier mother can never work out and now this. I don't know what to do. And now, i've been having constant nosebleeds. It's not just nosebleeds, it's also strong headaches following the nosebleeds. They're so strong, they make me feel dizzy. This has been going on for the past two months. So now i have my health to worry about. Anyway, maybe it's nothing. My friends always say i have a habit of overeacting so maybe this is the case. I've made an appointment to see a doctor on tuesday. I just pray that all goes well. Anyway...i gotta get back to work. See you all soon. (0) Comments

Posted: 10/2/2006 2:07:33 AM

300

Hey people! I was browsing the internet a few days ago and i ran into this clip of a movie based on a Graphic novel by Frank Miller. The Movie's called "300". This Movie's gonna rock! If you were living under a rock for last few years, Frank Miller is the writer of the "Sin City" Graphic Novel that was also made into a movie. "300" tells the true story of 300 elite Spartan fighters who, led by King Leonidas, fought to the death against King Xerxes' massive Persian army during the battle of Thermopylae in 481-480 B.C. Their valor inspired all of Greece to rise up against the invading Persians, planting the seeds of democracy. I'm a huge comic book fan so im pretty hyped up about this movie. Here's a clip of the upcoming movie as well as some photos'. Hope you all enjoy and look foward to seeing this movie as i am. And here's the link to the new updated trailer with official release date. http://www.apple.com/trailers/wb/300/trailer1/ (0) Comments

Posted: 10/1/2006 4:17:16 PM

Something funny...

A Friend of mine sent this to me. I thought it was so funny. Hope you all feel the same. It's all in fun. I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I have never figured out why men think with their head and women with their heart. FOR EXAMPLE: One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed. Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says, "I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me." I said, "WHAT??!! What was that?!" So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to hear... "You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man." She responded to my puzzled look by saying, "Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?" Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep. The very next day I opted to take the day off of work to spend time with her. We went out to a nice lunch and then went shopping at a big, big unnamed department store. I walked around with her while she tried on several different very expensive outfits. She couldn't decide which one to take, so I told her we'd just buy them all. She wanted new shoes to compliment her new clothes, so I said, "Lets get a pair for each outfit." We went on to the jewelry department where she picked out a pair of diamond earrings. Let me tell you... she was so excited. She must have thought I was one wave short of a shipwreck. I started to think she was testing me because she asked for a tennis bracelet when she doesn't even know how to play tennis. I think I threw her for a loop when I said, "That's fine, honey." She was almost nearing sexual satisfaction from all of the excitement. Smiling with excited anticipation, she finally said, "I think this is all dear, let's go to the cashier." I could hardly contain myself when I blurted out, "No honey, I don't feel like it." Her face just went completely blank as her jaw dropped with a baffled, "WHAT?" I then said, "Honey! I just want you to HOLD this stuff for a while. You're just not in touch with my financial needs as a man enough for me to satisfy your shopping needs as a woman." And just when she had this look like she was going to kill me, I added, "Why can't you just love me for who I am and not for the things I buy you?" Apparently I'm not having sex tonight either....but at least that bitch knows I'm smarter than her. (0) Comments

Posted: 9/25/2006 7:54:31 PM

Update...

Well, as you all know...i recently wrote an article about my friend being diagnosed with Lung Cancer (Phuckin' Bullshyt...). Now, Here's an update... Today, he arrived to the job to tell his friends and coleagues he will not return to work and to wish everyone good bye. I got a chance to speak with him and i asked him why he will not be returning. He says he recently got another check up and the doctors found that the cancer has spread to his throat. He says the doctors say it's only a matter of time now and there's nothing more they can do. He got real emotional while telling me all of this, and i could not even say a word. What do you say to all of that? I told him how sorry i am that all of this is happening to him and that i'll continue to pray for him. I asked him not to lose hope but in response to all of that he says: "Look gil, I'm not gonna waste the little time i have left praying for a miracle. The doctors have done all they can. I'm just gonna live my life. I'm gonna do all of the things i've been dying to do. So please gil, don't feel bad. Just enjoy your life. Thank god for each day. Cause at the blink of an eye, it could all come to an end." And that's that. I know lately i've been writing some depressing articles and for this i'm sorry. I just wanted to write a follow up for those who were interested on what's going on. Thank you all so much for taking the time to read these articles and for all of your kind words. I really appreciate it. (0) Comments

Posted: 9/21/2006 1:13:12 AM

Question...

Well, today i was talking to a good friend of mine. She and i have been friends for a very long time. I look at her like a sister. We're always there for each other. She's a great person. She has a husband (Married for 6 yrs. But they've been together for 15), and a beautiful 4 yr old girl. They've never had any problems and they've been a very happy family. But there's always a catch... She calls me today and tells me she needs someone to talk to. She says she's feeling down and out because of something she has done. Now this "something", this secret...can end the relationship i was talking about above. So she'll never tell him. She just needed to tell someone. I will not talk about what she's done. That's not important. But what i can say is that i couldn't believe what i was hearing. Which brings me to my point... I remember someone telling me something about women "going to the grave" with secrets that can ruin them. I agree with that now more than ever. Now i'm not being stereotypical. We all keep secrets that's for sure. But i feel that when men keep secrets that can end a relationship, the truth would always come out one way or the other. So we always get caught...lol. Now trust me i know her. So aside from telling me, this secret of her's would never be told to anyone. She will die with it and nobody else...not even her husband will ever know. So now i have a question for all the women who read this. How do you do it? What makes it so easy? How can you...even with all of the guilt you may feel, act as if nothing's ever happened and keep this secret for such a long time? Any input would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading. (0) Comments

Posted: 9/16/2006 3:16:42 AM

CYAN....

To all of my friends...take a look @ the newest addition in my life... | View | Add Favorite (0) Comments

Posted: 9/11/2006 11:36:06 AM

Phuckin' BullShyt!

Today i found out that a Fellow co-worker of mine has lung cancer. Shit's been buggin' me out cause although we weren't eye to eye, we've gotten past all of that shit and we became real cool Friends. Shit's really buggin' me out. He's not that much older than i. The fucked up thing about this is...this kid quit smoking over a year ago...and this shit happens to him. It's funny how life turns out. You stop the self destructive behavior and try to do the right thing and be healthy...only to find out that the joke's on you. Now he has to have one of his lungs removed, get chemo and pray that everything goes ok. Then people wonder why i think the way i do...but i wont go there. I will just pray for him, do my best in being a good friend and be there for him. Nobody deserves to go through this alone. I can sit here and write to you all about how everyone should take this as a lesson but, that just makes me wanna smoke. I'm Sorry...Just Having A Really Bad Day. Shit's Fucked Up Man. (0) Comments

Posted: 9/10/2006 3:45:44 PM

Something to think about...

The other day, i was watching television (Something i can rarely do..), I saw Some things on tv that really Had me buggin' out. I saw on the news that some man had killed his children, i flipped the channel and saw a special on cancer, flipped it again and as i kept switching channels...i saw specials on Global warming, Starving children and the War in Iraq. I couldn't help but think of how this world gets worse and worse everyday. Then i caught something else...a Talk Show. Can't tell you which one it was cause i don't remember. But anyway, On this show...There was a woman who used to weigh over 400lbs! She lost so much weight. She spoke about her struggle trying to lose all of that weight and how growing up having kids make fun of her made her depressed and all. That was all fine...but here is where it all just bugs me the fuck out: The audience... hanging on each and every word that came out of her mouth, were all covering their faces while tears rolled down. They cried and cried, so sad and shocked as if what she talked about were some of the most horrible things that could ever happen to a human. And i couldn't stop laughing. Bitch!!! You act like you didn't have blame in any of this. You were over 400 pounds!!! What did you expect people to do? If you grew up slim and fit...you'd be the one pointing and laughing too. But we all know this. And the audience knew this as well. Yet with all of the problems going on in the world and in our own lives...We stop and cry for this dumbass who was too greedy to control her eating habits and blames everyone but herself for being that way. This is what America cares most about. If this in whatever way offends any of you, I'm sorry. But it's nothing personal. This blog is not about fat people. This is about America and how it seems that America is the land of a bunch of phuckin' pansies'! You're welcome -BALLISTIC1020- (0) Comments

Posted: 9/8/2006 8:11:23 AM

who_am_i
1/5/2007 9:40:59 PM
if i had eggnog i would give a toast to you.

BrooklynFrank
10/8/2006 5:33:14 PM
thanks for your comment, dude.

Kaitlyn
10/5/2006 8:34:36 AM
i agree...

Kaitlyn
10/4/2006 8:15:35 AM
YOU'RE VERY WELCOME!!!!

lol- yeah- i think too much, i know i write weird things, but i write what i think...lol!

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