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Rants: What Else Is New? Posted 8/26/2006 5:26:32 AM Ok so what else is new? I have had a few people in my life that I have been thinking about lately . I really miss them I hate losing touch with people. It is like your relationship with them never really existed you know? I guess if I had to really dig and reach to look in side my self the bottom ,line is I am so void of feeling that it is rediculous. I go through my everyday life wondering and thiking about the good times I have spent with other people. I miss all of these MIA men. I just hate when things are unfinished. Or worst yet, I hate when things do not end the way I want them to. I cannot help but write because at least I do not have to think about it anymore if I can trap here on a blog. At least this is my thesis. (0) Comments

Personal: A Letter Posted 8/3/2006 2:20:14 AM Well as I sit here at 3 in the morning all I seem to do is think of you and how my life would be if you were in it. There are so many other things that I would like to do with you. I would like to be the woman who has your first child. I would like to be the first person to make you really feel like you deserve all the love in the world. I just wanted you to know that you seem to be changing for the better and I am so proud of you. You seem like you are on your way to being a happier person. I do not know if we will ever see each other again but, if we do it would be my priviledge to be the womaan in your thoughts. If I knew any of these thoughts would make a difference on how you felt about me, then I would tell you face to face. For now, I have to respect the things you feel are best for you. My heart grows everyday to make room for the feelings that I have for you. You showed me that there is someone out there who is made for me. Thank you... You will always be a presence in my soul. (0) Comments

A letter to : The One Posted 8/1/2006 1:43:42 AM This letter is bothe eay and hard to write at both same time. Easy because I know you will never read it and hard because I know you will never read it. I have known you for almost a yera and everyday that I have you even in my mind as a thought is a treat and a blessing for me. To tell you that I loved you from the moment I saw you would be a cliche (yet a true one). I love all of you from the top of your bald head to the bottom of your pretty feet. For every flaw that you can name I canme twice as many reasons for me to love you. I love your imperfections and I admire that you acknowledge you even have any. Everything that makes you imperfect is something that I can live with or I find endearing. You are so much more than the man people see and more complicated that you would like to think. My feelings for you have been in existence for almost a year now and that is why I am writing you this letter. Just to tell you that no matter who I am with or how many kids I have, you are my one true desire, and have been for a while now. There is no day where you do not cross my mind and I just wonder what it would be like to hear you say 'I love You' to me. The passion you have for improving your life is inspiring and I just want to be a part of that. I guess God is trying to tell me that I have a nother path because I cannot be with you at this time. If I could life would be so nice. For once I would have peace in my mind and in my heart. Something I have strived for all of my adult life. I love you. There is nothing else to say. (0) Comments

Personal: Just A Thought Posted 7/28/2006 10:29:20 PM Ok so I have decided to keep the baby.... I guess this won't be so bad. At least I hope not anyway. I also am just prying that I have the strength to go through this process one more time. I am very tired from the two kids I have already. I just pray that all goes well and I can handle the extra responsibility. On a different note , I am thinking about changing jobs and going back to school but I do not know what I want to study. That will reveal itself in time I hope. I justw ant to be able to provide for my family and give them everything they need and some things they want... You know? Maybe I have these grand thoughts but I would just like to have a good job that I like and be able to give my kids what they need and want. Is that so much to ask? (0) Comments

Personal: First timer.... Be gentle Posted 7/21/2006 2:15:55 AM Ok so here goes nothing... I am a mother of two beautiful children and I am currently living with my kids father. However I thought that we could try and really make the whole family thing work but I have come to the decision that i just do not really want him in that manner anymore. This is not to say that I want him talking to anyone while I am still around but you know what I mean I hope. I have come to the conclusion that he will never be the kind of man that I want. This is disappointing yes I know but I am getting over it slowly. I feel like I made a big mistake even being with him this long but now I am once again pregnant and I am forced to give this child up for the sake of my other two children. We broke about a year agao and I moved up North with my kids and I met a nice guy there however, he was not mines to keep so I had to give him back. I was ok with that after a while but then I met the man I knew I wanted to marry, unfortunately he is not the marrying kind. I do not know if it is because of my race or my children or what he is just not having the commitment thing at all. It is so hard to be in any relationship right now because I am not where I want to be. I just want to be able to relax in my own space with my own things and my kids with having to deal with drama and inmaturity. I guess maybe the man that I really want to be with would not want to be with me because I am such a mess at this point in my life ...Prayer and faith is all I have with the exception of my children for focus. I really just wnat to be content with my surroundings and my life and know that me and my kids will be just fine and in a good environment around good true people you know? (1) Comments

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