Why?

He thinks i'm jealous? Just cause he is with her again? why does he think I care? Or do I care? I have alot on my mind right now, and this song that I am listening to has made me decide to write about this one thing first. To start. I went out with this one guy for a few months or so, then I stopped talking to him for 2 yrs, then he comes back into my life.. and he goes out with me again, and then my best friend, and then back with me.. now he is with her again, and he is trying to make me jealous.. and my way of facing it is by telling him I dont care.. Is that the right thing to do? cause he thinks I am only being a bitch to him cause of him being with her.. when I'm only being a bitch cause he is being an asshole to me.. and has pissed me off again.. I really need to move on.. but I can't. There is no one else out there for me.. I'm so lonely.. and I am never gonna be with Duncan which I just have to face the facts with. He never loved me at all anyway.. She is more his type.. I dont deserve a guy like him.. or he doesn't deserve me.. now that I think of it, he is a selfish immature little prick. God, he is so damn immature.. trying to make it jealous.. BUDDY!! WE'RE 16 YRS OLD.. THAT SHIT IS TO BE KEPT IN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL! WTF!! You know what.. I dont care anymore.. I might deep inside..but this article is just pushing it to the back of my head.. and its just making me think positive stuff, which always happens.. you never know I could end up with Duncan one day, and if not I'll end up meeting a really nice goy that I will spend the rest of my life with.. And cody~ if he tells me that I'm to young to love, that Im just a stupid teenager who has no idea about what the three words, " I love you" mean than he has another thing coming to him.. and I gotta few choice words to go with that.. Quit with the negativity!! bringing everyone else down, just cause you cant find love yourself.. ( another person who needs to grow up) I know I totally changed my nice perfect mood to a "stubborn" angry kind of mood, but it made me think to myself. There is not really anything in life that it perfect, and you know what? You just have to go with it.. lifes a great big rollercoaster, you got your ups and downs, but you just go along for the ride. (1) Comments

Posted: 9/2/2006 11:51:24 PM

The starter

I found this blog, so therefore, I have a 5th place to type everything, poetry.. journal entries.. blah blah.. the mix. I'm thinking I'm in the mood for Journal writing right now, so.. here it goes.. I am Australian.. stuck in a Canadian town. ( or city since last yr. apparently) I work in the shittiest motel ( Best Western ) and have no real friends left in the world. Everything turns out being lies, and well.. it goes on. I'm going into grd. 10 ( I'm repeating ) at Jacks ass.. thats not what its called, thats just what I call it, cause its a crappy school.. seperated into two campuses.. one up town, one downtown, I have to attend both campuses.. a-b block uptown, c-d block downtown.. I take a bus down at lunch, and have to eat ON the bus.. -retarded- I live with my parents, and pay them board just to let me live here, and have to start buying my own groceries. I have friends, but they are mostly guys, and they are assholes. Always calling me a bitch and stuff.. so i guess I can't really call them my friends. I dont have a boyfriend.. but I really like this one guy, his name is Duncan, I like him alot.. and I think he likes me,just by the way he is always staring at me and stuff.. He is amazing.. -melts- But I have never spoken to him, and he has a girlfriend :( Dont ask.. I know it just sounds weird that I think he likes me, but he was like always staring at me way before she came along.. It's complicated. (0) Comments

Posted: 9/1/2006 7:11:11 PM