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TLPutnam
Member Since: 8/13/2008 7:59:01 PMLast Seen: 9/12/2008 10:57:55 PM
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Posted 8/21/2008 6:54:50 PM
I have been on such a rant recently wanting people to come and read my stuff. I SO appreciate everyone's honesty and participation. Unfortunately at my new duty station I cannot get my own internet and I'm only allowed 2 hours at a time then I have to wait in line again. AHAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAH So I will try my best to write as much as possible but I can't make any promises. I want to thank everyone again for reading and I hope you enjoy more to come. I will be writing in my book (gift from my L) until I can transport them to this digital venue. :D
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Posted 8/19/2008 10:28:02 AM
So not fully understanding the simplicity of the site I jumped to conclusions in thinking no one was listening. It was wrong of me but everyone has an off-day, right?Now in my new high hopes of people reading (but most importantly enjoying it with whole-hearted sincerity) I will continue my loving tirade across the internet. Doing my best to spread more hope and as many positive thoughts as possible to help people get through their day and onto the next. Of course their will be ups and downs in life but a constant smile and determined passion will win over any adversary, especially destiny (the most feared and avoided of lifes great hurdles). Smile, T Special thanks to cindi and brianwb
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Posted 8/19/2008 4:43:11 AM
What else could you call this preoccupation with the internet when it doesn't involve tangible results?Who reads this really? I've read a few blogs, but who is reading mine, really? I can't tell either...Fact is, I don't really want to know. It would probably just depress me. Mostly what I'm trying to do is spark some kind of a conversation. Challenge me people! Its the only way that I will grow. You probably won't change my beliefs but you will give me reason to read the book again for more ammunition in our debate. I thrive on impartial, informed, involved, and innovative conflict. I plan on writing for a living (maybe not now but later) and I don't see myself doing that by simply stating my points over and over again. Without someone to tug and push against in an argument I won't learn anything new and I'll just be spouting the same stuff over and over again. Simultaneously I'm battling this intriguing problem of spotting 'dancing shadows' in other peoples writings. The result of which is my pure belief that they are talking completely and singlely to me. Through which I derive many preposterous sub-realities and responses multiplying in, and only in, my own reality. If thats not narcissistic then I don't know what is...but I can admit it at least right? "Pseudo-Intellectual Masturbation" I wish I could say I thought of this but as much of my quotation comes from it is actually from Jubal Harshaw (whom I call 'the man') in 'Stranger in a Strange land'. Read it and you'll understand. It was used to describe artists who claim to make art and then when no one understands what they were trying to say they presume that "they just don't get it." While a real artist can make a piece of art that inspires complimentary emotions in the masses. So, if I'm wrong and I really am communicating with more than four people, then unless I am inspiring them to feel something along the same wavelengths as each other this endeavor is nothing more than self-gratifying backslapping with no more purpose than the proverbial tissue-dispensing activity. Don't get me wrong though. It is kinda fun to write out my thoughts (as scatterbrained as they look from even my perspective sometimes) and it is most definitely relieving to point out someplace that someone can go (other than hell) to find out my opinions on a variety of ecclectic subject matters. BUT, all in all, with no thinking, breathing sounding board to bounce my thoughts off of all I hear is the echo of my own past blogs as they ricochet off the cracked walls of the cavernous pit of ideas that is the internet. I don't blame you, not really. I'm just as busy as you. And that is far too busy to concern myself with a complete strangers blog to actually comment on them or bring up in conversation. And by busy I mean I, too, am occupying myself by burying my face neck deep in the keyboard to hide myself from impending decisions. Just peak up from your keyboard from time to time and say hello and entertain your spouse and your kids, smile at your neighbor once in a while, and for the love of existence play with your pet. Your computer doesn't have the same kind of memory as they do. And your computer won't sulk about it.
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Posted 8/17/2008 4:50:08 AM
You know when you find yourself not realizing just how lost you are? I found myself wandering on the internet and when I awoke from my daze I had four windows all with 'wandering stars' by Portishead on pause having restarted once already.Feeling the music flow and almost breath with the world around me. It is a life of its own and it calls to me. It calls for understanding and I reach to it with my soul. It takes me to new heights to which I know many would envy. The music fuels my unity with the universe because I listen beyond the mind. Coupled with my being and its knowledge of the roots of reality the music vibrates with my spirit. This feeling I can only assume is the closest I will ever feel to immortality, for in this beat I feel like I'm moving in time with the pulsing of the universe. Through the waves of existence I float, but not as a foreign piece of driftwood but as a thrashing and churning wave of its own. A wave that caress' the galactic symphony in unison with every entity attuned to the frequency of reality. I am not a part but am whole in it. I stretch and flow with it. I see the smallest particle as I would our beloved Sol spanning across time to give life to our home and see a red hypergiant star as I would the fickle electron fading in and out of existence by the nanoseconds. Within the rhythm of a truly lifted soul I am nothing less than everything. Sound. Vibrations. Music. They are what forms and solidifies reality while maintaining the fluidity that keeps existence in a constant state of change. When you can become one with music you can reach beyond the fabric. Beyond the veil behind which true reality is. The world we see is nothing more than the rippling of the curtain and the light that reflects off of its curves. Why do we struggle against the curtain? Embarassed as we may be, trying to find where it parts and opens to that which we seek, we should not find anger in this pursuit. ('Gravity of Love' by Enigma) This needless frustration with the shroud is less than productive and has resulted in many stumbles and many more abandoned lives. Those abandoned lives are the cause of this darkness which further inhibits the common goal of understanding. How hard it is to find the gate with no guiding light. So we must light our own way. But in our own way we need not do it alone. For in us all and in tandum with the universe we share light. Share energy. Share life. In the act of sharing we build others which in turn builds us. Smile. It brings more light than you might think. Smile and love. For it is the stuff that dreams are made of...and with a little will, a little effort, and the endless passion which everyone must have to truly live we can open the curtain to the world and share in a reality where everything is possible. Through it all, never allow yourself to become jaded, live with a passion for everything as a newborn child would, chase life with a furious indifference to it so you may fear nothing, do not change about yourself something you love for someone else, have fun and make opportunities reality because memories are all we will really have, and most importantly, never forget to love and allow room for human error. Smile, T
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Posted 8/17/2008 2:37:01 AM
I have learned to let fear and pain wash over me. Now the closer I get to a powerful change the calmer I become. A french proverb says "The sign of wisdom is a constant cheerfulness." The waves have crashed over me before I sway in time with their rhythm. It gives me balance Makes me feel one with the world. I look up and the world is new again. New and beautiful in its possibilities. I can't hold back a smile. Partly in awe of the mechanics of life Partly in awe of watching people. They walk around upset at having gotten wet. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH I feel the wave coming. Its shadow covers me as it makes ready To crash across my existence. It hovers and time slows. I turn to the tsunami and talk We need no words. Fate and I need no words anymore. I smile as I do and it smiles back Knowing it won't push me I won't budge from my path. I only sit and admire its power. How can you not admire?
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Posted 8/15/2008 5:04:39 PM
The "other day" someone special brought up a dream that we seemed to have in common. It was a dream of the future and this future to put it plainly was good. The kind of dream that fills your spirit with that cozy fireplace, a blanket, and a lover feeling. It makes me overcome with joy to think that this pleasure is shared by others.Only this special someone sees it as a virtually impossible future. I however disagree. Because as how most science fiction was previously thought to be no less than impossible it seems to be more accurate to say 'impossible is no more than science fiction.' I feel the joy of the dream as if I were there so I hold this treasure close and strive with my actions to find a way to make it a reality in existence. I am the little boy with dancing sugar plums in his head dreaming of christmas day. I dream of the angels wing that sits atop my tree and the angel that will soon soar through the air when I ring that bell. I wait patiently for that day. It seems like forever but I know grown-ups are more distracted so they can't FEEL time passing anymore because time is subtle. A subtle tool that we use to deal with reality. Existing in all time would be very disheartening so we formulate a forward moving system when in reality we live in all time. "Now" is nothing more than the combination of past and future. We can watch and form that future if we see fit, but most of us don't because its too hard. It may be hard but you feel a lot happier about life when you do it. :D The fabric of reality, space, and time respond well to joy, belief, and sincerity. But I wait with the grown ups and dream. Because even though its a long ways away, I know its coming, and I know it will be beautiful. I love you Santa L, T
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Posted 8/14/2008 1:14:30 AM
"My pen knows what to do. I close my eyes and I see this girl who glows. A girl who radiates. When she smiles, she beams. She warms my heart. I open my eyes with a feeling of floating past all the garbage around me. I will emerge unscathed because I will not endeavor to hide myself from whatever is coming. Bring on the worst. I welcome it with open arms." Black Coffee Blues by Henry Rollins I know people are afraid. People are frustrated and people don't want to see the world. They don't want to see it because of the bad things or the troubled things that await them, but I sit outside tonight with my laptop having a conversation with the starry night sky and wonder why everyone is so hidden. This world is too beautiful in the things it can offer to worry about the things that might hold us back. I think the people who are most afraid are those that found love and are frightened at the idea of it vanishing, but it won't. Of all the times I've seen people fall out of love it has always been inaction that was the culprit. It wasn't some terrible force of nature, it was giving up that ended the glory of love for those couples. But love in a relationship is only the beginning. Love of yourself and love of the world as a whole are two major parts of that. We are not static individuals who rely on only ourselves. We are a community based people that thrive on attention and grow through the love of others. Many angst ridden and self destructive people have gotten by on leeching love by feeding off of people who are genuinely kind. This pop culture world from tabloids we see in front of us is a product of that subculture (which is quickly becoming culture) which feeds off of each other. But before I can show people how to live with love I must first show you whats wrong with how things are now. If you haven't seen it already this world is dying. Not so much dying as getting ready for a rebirth, and those of us who do not become reborn with it will starve in our own way. Those who are clammering for love and attention the wrong by trying to push, shove, kick and canive to get to the top of the hill will have no more hill to climb because everyone else will see the error in that method. Chinese philosphers once said when climbing a hill it is best to work as a team even if the other people appear to be rivals because in helping someone up you are that much closer to the top yourself. In the coming years I feel something is going to happen. This is a reawakening of the human consciousness. It is predicted by the Mayans and backed by cunning observation. It is not the end of the world, but rather the end of the world as we know it. A world where there is no more tower of babel formed from the bodies of fallen comrades and competitors that we must climb through lies, deceit, or subversion. A world of equal footing. A world where mother nature herself will bend the very ground we stand on to assist us so we may assist others. These entities which we have soiled will forgive us for our trespassing and continue its love for us as one of its own by giving us all that we need. But first we must understand the connection between everything and live the understanding whole-heartedly. All we have to do is ask. And mean it.
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