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Well I'm a 19 year old from Alabama... I have lived here for 6 years now (I came from South Florida) so I'm a little country and a little bit of a beach girl. I'm into writing poetry and songs and I seem to attract trouble and drama alot of the time.....
Age: 21
Gender: F
Location: Brundidge Alabama
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Posted 11/6/2006 5:11:11 PM
God I haven't been on here in a while.... I have been really busy lately... But nothing new really has happened. I'm gettin ready to start school it's kinda getting exciting... I have got to find a car though! My beloved old bright yellow unique car died on me bless its soul. I loved that thing my grandpa got it for me and had it painted my favorite color it has a lot of sentimental value.... But now it just resides in my yard... I'll never sell it. I am so tired of my job. It's very stressful sometimes I think life knocks you down to just see how hard it'll be for you to get yourself back up. I mean how can you do anything without a leg to stand on. Come on people I'm only 19 and theres so mnay people who expect me to just be able to have evrything situated and perfect! I think I'm babbling again man am I bad about doing that! But anyways I didn't just get on here to bitch and make typo's I wanted to see how everyone was doing.... I didn't ditch anyone... But anyways It's finally five and it's time for me to go home... See yall later.
Posted 11/6/2006 5:11:11 PM
God I haven't been on here in a while.... I have been really busy lately... But nothing new really has happened. I'm gettin ready to start school it's kinda getting exciting... I have got to find a car though! My beloved old bright yellow unique car died on me bless its soul. I loved that thing my grandpa got it for me and had it painted my favorite color it has a lot of sentimental value.... But now it just resides in my yard... I'll never sell it. I am so tired of my job. It's very stressful sometimes I think life knocks you down to just see how hard it'll be for you to get yourself back up. I mean how can you do anything without a leg to stand on. Come on people I'm only 19 and theres so mnay people who expect me to just be able to have evrything situated and perfect! I think I'm babbling again man am I bad about doing that! But anyways I didn't just get on here to bitch and make typo's I wanted to see how everyone was doing.... I didn't ditch anyone... But anyways It's finally five and it's time for me to go home... See yall later.
finally friday
Posted 10/13/2006 8:37:55 AM
Ok I think I may have over analyzed things yesterday I'm horrible about that... But I have decided basically hell if things work out great if they dont its not worth wasting time worrying about it because hey theres plenty of other people out there and I do not need a man to make me feel complete. I guess I'm a little insecure. I worry too much. But whatever... moving on. I found out I got accepted to Troy University and will start in Jan. They said I had been accepted for fall semester but I never got the letter... *bullshit*. I'm not really worried about it though a new year, new things. I needed to take care of some stuff since this summer anyways. I had a really shitty one. I had let myself get into some things I really shouldn't have. I'm normally a very ambitious person and it was just like I didn't give a damn anymore... But like Johnny.. I'm Back and it feels great to finally know I am actually going to start doing things with my life. I'm doing them for me and no on else. God I babble too much but I guess thats what blogs are for really... kind of a stress reliever in a way...
Posted 10/13/2006 8:37:55 AM
Ok I think I may have over analyzed things yesterday I'm horrible about that... But I have decided basically hell if things work out great if they dont its not worth wasting time worrying about it because hey theres plenty of other people out there and I do not need a man to make me feel complete. I guess I'm a little insecure. I worry too much. But whatever... moving on. I found out I got accepted to Troy University and will start in Jan. They said I had been accepted for fall semester but I never got the letter... *bullshit*. I'm not really worried about it though a new year, new things. I needed to take care of some stuff since this summer anyways. I had a really shitty one. I had let myself get into some things I really shouldn't have. I'm normally a very ambitious person and it was just like I didn't give a damn anymore... But like Johnny.. I'm Back and it feels great to finally know I am actually going to start doing things with my life. I'm doing them for me and no on else. God I babble too much but I guess thats what blogs are for really... kind of a stress reliever in a way...
confused
Posted 10/12/2006 2:28:10 PM
I cant stand not knowing whats going to happen like in the next few weeks. Like I said in earlier blogs I met someone and I mean everything seems great most of the time but it's like he's giving me hot and cold messages. Starting with my phone was messed up (i had to go get a new one) so I couldnt answer. He said it gave him a bad vibe because of the time frame it was messed up... which I'll admit was a little coincidential. I had been going there every night but now he says he may have company tonight (some guys from his hometown)and last night he had said he wanted me to comeo over to finish a movie we had been watching. I know we havent known each other long and I'm not trying to be clingy but it just seems weird. I mean I havent really done anything that would make him not trust me. I might just be overeacting but still... maybe its a girl thing... But I just don't want to waste my time on something thats not going to work out. When we were talking about where we stood and everything it came out to be seriously dating and not dating other people. He said something about not wanting to put a lable on it... which to me that is a lable. I just think it's messed up that because of a damn phone all this came about. He thinks I get too defensive over this and it makes me look guilty for something. Guilty for what??!! I am so confused and I hate that. I havent spoke to him much today but he seemed ok. I know I'm boring anyone who bothers to read this ... does anyone know where I'm coming from?
Posted 10/12/2006 2:28:10 PM
I cant stand not knowing whats going to happen like in the next few weeks. Like I said in earlier blogs I met someone and I mean everything seems great most of the time but it's like he's giving me hot and cold messages. Starting with my phone was messed up (i had to go get a new one) so I couldnt answer. He said it gave him a bad vibe because of the time frame it was messed up... which I'll admit was a little coincidential. I had been going there every night but now he says he may have company tonight (some guys from his hometown)and last night he had said he wanted me to comeo over to finish a movie we had been watching. I know we havent known each other long and I'm not trying to be clingy but it just seems weird. I mean I havent really done anything that would make him not trust me. I might just be overeacting but still... maybe its a girl thing... But I just don't want to waste my time on something thats not going to work out. When we were talking about where we stood and everything it came out to be seriously dating and not dating other people. He said something about not wanting to put a lable on it... which to me that is a lable. I just think it's messed up that because of a damn phone all this came about. He thinks I get too defensive over this and it makes me look guilty for something. Guilty for what??!! I am so confused and I hate that. I havent spoke to him much today but he seemed ok. I know I'm boring anyone who bothers to read this ... does anyone know where I'm coming from?
good morning bloggers
Posted 10/10/2006 9:01:49 AM
Ah tuesdays arent so bad! I made it through monday alright too lol. I'm sorry I dont get a chance to come on here much so if Ya'll comment me and I dont get right too it I'm sorry...I've actually become attacthed to this wesite... its kind of neat to be able to write what you really want to and people will not judge you as bad.. do you know what I'm saying. I used to love myspace so much but if I wrote anything on it the least bit personal one of my friends would be like "oooh I saw what you put on your myspace blog" it was like god is eveyone seriously addicted to that site?! I joined it before it got as big as it is now. I hope this site stays the same as it is. I absolutley love it. I think I have had way too much caffiene this morning.... Maybe I should log off before i talk oops type your ears or eyes.. whatever off lol. Oh yeah I wrote that last article this morning its a song I'm working on its not though yet but its like a slower rock ballad tyoe thing....
Posted 10/10/2006 9:01:49 AM
Ah tuesdays arent so bad! I made it through monday alright too lol. I'm sorry I dont get a chance to come on here much so if Ya'll comment me and I dont get right too it I'm sorry...I've actually become attacthed to this wesite... its kind of neat to be able to write what you really want to and people will not judge you as bad.. do you know what I'm saying. I used to love myspace so much but if I wrote anything on it the least bit personal one of my friends would be like "oooh I saw what you put on your myspace blog" it was like god is eveyone seriously addicted to that site?! I joined it before it got as big as it is now. I hope this site stays the same as it is. I absolutley love it. I think I have had way too much caffiene this morning.... Maybe I should log off before i talk oops type your ears or eyes.. whatever off lol. Oh yeah I wrote that last article this morning its a song I'm working on its not though yet but its like a slower rock ballad tyoe thing....
I can remeber
Posted 10/10/2006 8:51:55 AM
It's like your a drug,
You've taken over me,
You carved up my soul,
And left me here to bleed,
I look at your face,
It's one I cant descripe,
It has been replaced,
WIth so much pain and lies,
How can you sit there and look at me?
Standing just far enough outta reach?
I can remember...how we used to love and laugh...
I can remember...you made me forget my past...
Holding your hand...your kiss on my lips... I can feel it.... I can remember....
Your eyes on mine,
Baby how'd they get so cold,
It sends shives down my spine,
I can't believe that you're gone,
What we had, the two of us,
I thought would last,
How could I have been so wrong,
How can you sit there and look at me?
Standing just far enough outta reach?
I can remember.... how we used to love and laugh... I can remember... you made me forget my past... HOlding your hand.... your kiss on my lips... I can feel it... I can remember....
I can remeber....
Posted 10/10/2006 8:51:55 AM
It's like your a drug,
You've taken over me,
You carved up my soul,
And left me here to bleed,
I look at your face,
It's one I cant descripe,
It has been replaced,
WIth so much pain and lies,
How can you sit there and look at me?
Standing just far enough outta reach?
I can remember...how we used to love and laugh...
I can remember...you made me forget my past...
Holding your hand...your kiss on my lips... I can feel it.... I can remember....
Your eyes on mine,
Baby how'd they get so cold,
It sends shives down my spine,
I can't believe that you're gone,
What we had, the two of us,
I thought would last,
How could I have been so wrong,
How can you sit there and look at me?
Standing just far enough outta reach?
I can remember.... how we used to love and laugh... I can remember... you made me forget my past... HOlding your hand.... your kiss on my lips... I can feel it... I can remember....
I can remeber....
daddys girl
Posted 10/9/2006 2:35:34 PM
I wrote this when I was like 14 so have mercy but I'm at the office so I don;t have any of my new stuff...
"I'll always love you, you'll always be my girl",
Thats what he told me, he said I was his world,
He'd take me to the beach, out on the bay,
Happiness was something we shared everyday,
Miles couldn't harm us, all it was was road,
But now as I look back, I wish I could have knowm,
Tearful goodbyes were said and promoises were made,
How was I too know that all of them would break,
At first I heard the phone ring about once a week,
But then overtime our connection had grown so meak,
When I'd see you it was for fun and laughter,
But then I wouldnt hear from you for a long time after,
I wish you could have been here for so many of my special days,
Such as proms, to walk me out at homecoming and basketball games,
What am I supposed to do when a father/daughter song plays,
I sit and watch my friends dance while you are miles away,
I've had a father but nobody who was like a dad,
But after all these years I guess a girl gets used to that,
You've missed all the little things like Buffy, my very first dog,
Or even meeting the guy that court me quizzing them all night long,
Were you there to see me off on my first real date,
I had a great time and he didn't bring me home late,
How about that birthday when you forgot how old I was,
Don't you know that hurts so deep and an apologys not enough,
What about my future say my wedding day,
Will you walk me down the isle or will a replacement have to be made?
All of my life I guess I'll never know how you could hurt me so bad,
I thought you loved me I thought you cared, I thought you were my dad....
My parents divorced when I was two I was a daddys girl sorry this one isnt so hot but I'll post some more recent ones soon....
Posted 10/9/2006 2:35:34 PM
I wrote this when I was like 14 so have mercy but I'm at the office so I don;t have any of my new stuff...
"I'll always love you, you'll always be my girl",
Thats what he told me, he said I was his world,
He'd take me to the beach, out on the bay,
Happiness was something we shared everyday,
Miles couldn't harm us, all it was was road,
But now as I look back, I wish I could have knowm,
Tearful goodbyes were said and promoises were made,
How was I too know that all of them would break,
At first I heard the phone ring about once a week,
But then overtime our connection had grown so meak,
When I'd see you it was for fun and laughter,
But then I wouldnt hear from you for a long time after,
I wish you could have been here for so many of my special days,
Such as proms, to walk me out at homecoming and basketball games,
What am I supposed to do when a father/daughter song plays,
I sit and watch my friends dance while you are miles away,
I've had a father but nobody who was like a dad,
But after all these years I guess a girl gets used to that,
You've missed all the little things like Buffy, my very first dog,
Or even meeting the guy that court me quizzing them all night long,
Were you there to see me off on my first real date,
I had a great time and he didn't bring me home late,
How about that birthday when you forgot how old I was,
Don't you know that hurts so deep and an apologys not enough,
What about my future say my wedding day,
Will you walk me down the isle or will a replacement have to be made?
All of my life I guess I'll never know how you could hurt me so bad,
I thought you loved me I thought you cared, I thought you were my dad....
My parents divorced when I was two I was a daddys girl sorry this one isnt so hot but I'll post some more recent ones soon....
Babbling
Posted 10/2/2006 8:10:31 AM
Well.. seems like this is going to be a weekly thing for me. I cracked the screen on my laptop (boo) and it is not worth it to fix it I think I'll probably be getting a desk top soon their much more reliable.... Things with the "hershey" boy are going great. I have some pics on my phone but I am retarded when it comes to technology so I can not figure out how in the world to send them to anything on the net. I'm not used to being treated great though its a nice change. The only thing that bothers me is he says I'm too defensive about things like I have a wall up or something... My ex was extrememly ill tempered though and not trying to say pity on me but made me feel lower than crap. So I guess I have to get used to this now and that every question someone asks me doesnt have hidden motives... You'll have to excuse me I'm venting now... Work is going kind of crappy they have made me go in from 3 till 12am the past few days and I am not getting any sleep... But I'm probably getting promoted soon I just hope I can balance school and work properly. I'm not sure where Hersheyboy will fit into all this but I'm not basing my life around a guy ever again anyways. I think I've babbled a little too much butI cant help it everyones so friendly here!
Posted 10/2/2006 8:10:31 AM
Well.. seems like this is going to be a weekly thing for me. I cracked the screen on my laptop (boo) and it is not worth it to fix it I think I'll probably be getting a desk top soon their much more reliable.... Things with the "hershey" boy are going great. I have some pics on my phone but I am retarded when it comes to technology so I can not figure out how in the world to send them to anything on the net. I'm not used to being treated great though its a nice change. The only thing that bothers me is he says I'm too defensive about things like I have a wall up or something... My ex was extrememly ill tempered though and not trying to say pity on me but made me feel lower than crap. So I guess I have to get used to this now and that every question someone asks me doesnt have hidden motives... You'll have to excuse me I'm venting now... Work is going kind of crappy they have made me go in from 3 till 12am the past few days and I am not getting any sleep... But I'm probably getting promoted soon I just hope I can balance school and work properly. I'm not sure where Hersheyboy will fit into all this but I'm not basing my life around a guy ever again anyways. I think I've babbled a little too much butI cant help it everyones so friendly here!
A new Era
Posted 9/25/2006 8:44:41 AM
I had the absolute greatest weekend ever! (wow its been a long time since I could say that. I broke up with my boyfriend\fiance'. I know that sounds horrible but he was a pretty bad guy. I had already met someone else. I dont want to count my chickens before they hatch but this guy has some real potential... Hershey Guy as I'll call him is amazing. It has been so long since I have had someone who actually respects me and makes me feel like I'm a great person too. Even my mom likes him. But the one bad thing is he might be moving soon to Atlanta, Miami or Dallas soon, and he's 27 I'm 19. But that doesnt seem so bad does it? I had someone tell me he'll just use me becuase he probably thinks I'm young and naive. But it just doesnt feel like that. We have so much in common besides the age difference... So if anyone out there reads this tell me what you think. A guys point of view would be great lol.
Posted 9/25/2006 8:44:41 AM
I had the absolute greatest weekend ever! (wow its been a long time since I could say that. I broke up with my boyfriend\fiance'. I know that sounds horrible but he was a pretty bad guy. I had already met someone else. I dont want to count my chickens before they hatch but this guy has some real potential... Hershey Guy as I'll call him is amazing. It has been so long since I have had someone who actually respects me and makes me feel like I'm a great person too. Even my mom likes him. But the one bad thing is he might be moving soon to Atlanta, Miami or Dallas soon, and he's 27 I'm 19. But that doesnt seem so bad does it? I had someone tell me he'll just use me becuase he probably thinks I'm young and naive. But it just doesnt feel like that. We have so much in common besides the age difference... So if anyone out there reads this tell me what you think. A guys point of view would be great lol.
Monday thouhhts
Posted 9/18/2006 9:09:46 AM
I think I could just let my face fall onto this keyboard and just pass out.... but I have to go to work in like an hour or so... maybe I should call in. It kind of sucked they had me there till 1 am last night and instead of sleeping in all morning today I am sitting here in an office with gah* bright lights. But it's a Monday those usually suck anyways right? I think I actually met someone last night that might not be an asshole but I didnt get his name (I was really busy) But he looked back at me like 4 times when he was walking off.. thats good right? I need to get away from drunks and drug addicts their habbits will become your eventually if you know what I mean. Just I wish I could have a written story of what the rest of my lifes going to be like.... but that would be too easy I guess then you wouldn't have any excitment. I try not to live in my past because thats exactly what it is the past. But no one can say it does not affect your present time or future. (scenario: someone comes up to you and says "oh yeah I heard you have done this that etc etc" and then they judge you by that) I hate that! I am not the same person I was about a year ago and I'm glad for that. I know I'm sitting here rambling on and on but I'm zoned out right now so I am trying to wake myself up. What is it with mondays? It's too early to think so much....
Posted 9/18/2006 9:09:46 AM
I think I could just let my face fall onto this keyboard and just pass out.... but I have to go to work in like an hour or so... maybe I should call in. It kind of sucked they had me there till 1 am last night and instead of sleeping in all morning today I am sitting here in an office with gah* bright lights. But it's a Monday those usually suck anyways right? I think I actually met someone last night that might not be an asshole but I didnt get his name (I was really busy) But he looked back at me like 4 times when he was walking off.. thats good right? I need to get away from drunks and drug addicts their habbits will become your eventually if you know what I mean. Just I wish I could have a written story of what the rest of my lifes going to be like.... but that would be too easy I guess then you wouldn't have any excitment. I try not to live in my past because thats exactly what it is the past. But no one can say it does not affect your present time or future. (scenario: someone comes up to you and says "oh yeah I heard you have done this that etc etc" and then they judge you by that) I hate that! I am not the same person I was about a year ago and I'm glad for that. I know I'm sitting here rambling on and on but I'm zoned out right now so I am trying to wake myself up. What is it with mondays? It's too early to think so much....
Pondering
Posted 9/13/2006 7:39:45 AM
Has anyone ever thought maybe a life without realationships would be so easier? I think mine would be... They always seem to get so complicated. Maybe thats why I like the net so much because you can just turn it off if your finished with it. Sometimes I just feel like staying at home curling up with a good book and my cat and basically going incognito for a little while. Do you know what I mean?
Posted 9/13/2006 7:39:45 AM
Has anyone ever thought maybe a life without realationships would be so easier? I think mine would be... They always seem to get so complicated. Maybe thats why I like the net so much because you can just turn it off if your finished with it. Sometimes I just feel like staying at home curling up with a good book and my cat and basically going incognito for a little while. Do you know what I mean?
Well this is me
Posted 9/8/2006 9:05:15 AM
Well as you can guess I'm new to all this blogging stuff but hey my life gets pretty dramatic so why not write about it... right? I'll never use names because well everyones online most of the time so who knows who could see what or who I'm talking about hee hee... oh the irony! But anyways (you'll notice I tend to say that alot) I am not some spaced out airhead who has nothing better to write about than what they're boyfriend got them or what they wore.... etc etc.. I love debating about anything and everything as long as it's important to me. So one day I may be talking about political views (screw bush) and the next my favorite drink (jose) So if you like me hey thats great and if you dont... well nevermind... so anyways (there I go again)I hope to see comments and maybe sometimes advice (I'm a great listener and advice giver... one of those you scratch my back and I'll scratch yours kind of thing)So happy blogging to everyone else and I hope to fit right in....
Posted 9/8/2006 9:05:15 AM
Well as you can guess I'm new to all this blogging stuff but hey my life gets pretty dramatic so why not write about it... right? I'll never use names because well everyones online most of the time so who knows who could see what or who I'm talking about hee hee... oh the irony! But anyways (you'll notice I tend to say that alot) I am not some spaced out airhead who has nothing better to write about than what they're boyfriend got them or what they wore.... etc etc.. I love debating about anything and everything as long as it's important to me. So one day I may be talking about political views (screw bush) and the next my favorite drink (jose) So if you like me hey thats great and if you dont... well nevermind... so anyways (there I go again)I hope to see comments and maybe sometimes advice (I'm a great listener and advice giver... one of those you scratch my back and I'll scratch yours kind of thing)So happy blogging to everyone else and I hope to fit right in....
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JANAKIRAMAN
5/30/2007 12:00:23 PM
hi i have read a sweet persons profile
shawn
10/17/2006 7:05:06 PM
hi,morning.hope you have a nice day
shawn
10/11/2006 6:56:23 PM
hi,morning.hope you have a good day
Kaitlyn
10/10/2006 8:53:00 AM
i used to live in Oxford, alabama, close to Hover, Talladega, you know....i MISS IT!!!!!
shawn
10/10/2006 5:41:30 AM
Just stopped to say hello:)
DEVON
10/9/2006 11:41:28 PM
yah my dog is a English Sheep Dog and hes really hairy and high maitance
angeldust
10/6/2006 7:02:18 PM
Still awaiting your poetry.
shawn
10/5/2006 7:38:11 PM
hi,morning.hope you have a good day
DEVON
10/2/2006 10:12:32 PM
your dogs are sooo cute!
joeschmoe714
10/2/2006 4:28:18 PM
thanks, my friend can suck the big one sometimes
shawn
9/25/2006 6:48:45 PM
thank you for your friendly invite
joeschmoe714
9/25/2006 2:07:16 PM
i want to see some pictures of your dogs!
joeschmoe714
9/25/2006 2:06:25 PM
my weekend sucked, but im used to it. i was ditched by my "friend" punk ass.
joeschmoe714
9/9/2006 4:02:14 PM
welcome to newblog :)
thanks for the kind words about my dog. She was cute, and i miss her.
5/30/2007 12:00:23 PM
hi i have read a sweet persons profile
shawn
10/17/2006 7:05:06 PM
hi,morning.hope you have a nice day
shawn
10/11/2006 6:56:23 PM
hi,morning.hope you have a good day
Kaitlyn
10/10/2006 8:53:00 AM
i used to live in Oxford, alabama, close to Hover, Talladega, you know....i MISS IT!!!!!
shawn
10/10/2006 5:41:30 AM
Just stopped to say hello:)
DEVON
10/9/2006 11:41:28 PM
yah my dog is a English Sheep Dog and hes really hairy and high maitance
angeldust
10/6/2006 7:02:18 PM
Still awaiting your poetry.
shawn
10/5/2006 7:38:11 PM
hi,morning.hope you have a good day
DEVON
10/2/2006 10:12:32 PM
your dogs are sooo cute!
joeschmoe714
10/2/2006 4:28:18 PM
thanks, my friend can suck the big one sometimes
shawn
9/25/2006 6:48:45 PM
thank you for your friendly invite
joeschmoe714
9/25/2006 2:07:16 PM
i want to see some pictures of your dogs!
joeschmoe714
9/25/2006 2:06:25 PM
my weekend sucked, but im used to it. i was ditched by my "friend" punk ass.
joeschmoe714
9/9/2006 4:02:14 PM
welcome to newblog :)
thanks for the kind words about my dog. She was cute, and i miss her.
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