Wow.

Melissa is at school. Typing on this crappy junior high school computer. Melissa's pretty bored. But it's Friday, so she's happy. Lol. (0) Comments

Posted: 2/2/2007 11:23:41 AM

Heroin Related Dream -- Someone Please Clarify!

I had a dream that I was in my bed and I had just woken up and I could hear my parents in the next room talking about how I should be and all that crap. I'm lying there in my bed, exhausted and then I take out a hypodermic needle full of heroin, I poke my lower arm with it to make sure I hit a vein and then inject the heroin into my arm. It feels amazing and I can't believe what I just did. I stand up and try to walk but I keep tipping over and I almost fall down the stairs on my way to my parents room. Once I get there my dad's asleep and my mom's watching tv. My mom asks me if I was okay and I just turn around and walk back to my room. Once I get to my room, I lock the door and cry. Once I wake up I'm just really confused and tired. I write down the word heroin in a page in my sketchbook about a billion times and then cry. Could anyone clarify what this dream means? Please? (2) Comments

Posted: 12/10/2006 11:03:58 PM

i didn't die

In the time of which I was gone, I was able to fall in love and get a boyfriend. I love him so much! I didn't think that I would ever be able to love again after Jason, but now I know I was wrong! He's so cute, nice, funny, smart, and he's an overall good guy. He can draw too! He's so sweet. I love him. :3 His name is William but everyone calls him Pikmin. But I'm the only one who can call him Pikky-pik. x333 UPDATE: William and I broke up. William and I are still good friends, but he likes my best friend more than he likes me. (3) Comments

Posted: 11/12/2006 6:43:20 PM

Bye.

I'm going to Rome tomorrow at 4 A.M. So I might as well say bye right now. BYE. (0) Comments

Posted: 7/23/2006 5:47:25 PM

Oh no!

I'm sick. D: I guess it wasn't very healthy for me to go on vacation to San Diego. Here the temperature is usually somewhere around 60 degrees, and in San Diego it was like 106. :[ Also we're having some people staying at my house for a couple of days. So I'll probably get the sick. ;o; Does anyone know a really good way to get rid of a cold fast? (1) Comments

Posted: 7/16/2006 2:21:44 PM

SQUIRRELS ARE EVIL

Dude, the squirrels here are SATANIC! They attack my family and my pets! ;o; We have to guard my cat from squirrels now..! In other news today, I'm hungry and really bored, hungry and bored does not mix. D: (3) Comments

Posted: 6/21/2006 9:08:18 PM

..freaking retarded..

I'm just posting the new stuff that happened in the past few days. 1. I got new glasses 2. I hate my dad. 3. My dad doesn't like me being emo, and wants me to dress up all girly. x.x 4. I miss my friends. 5. I miss TyTyFluffy. 6. I got a manicure and a pedicure. o.o 7. I can't wait for Thursday; I'm going to a party! ..and most importantly: 8. I MISS BEING ABLE TO BE MYSELF AND I HATE HAVING TO HIDE BEHIND MY ALTER EGO 'LITTLE MISS HAPPY-SUNSHINE' IN ORDER TO MAKE THE PEOPLE AROUND ME (in other words my father) FEEL GOOD. Here are the things my retched father won't let me be/do: 1. Be emo. 2. Have my hair in my face. 3. Wear black. 4. I HAVE TO FUCKING SMILE EVERY FUCKING TIME MY FATHER IS IN A 20 FOOT RANGE OF ME. 5. My father won't let me buy anything from Hot Topic anymore without him inspecting it. WHAT THE FUCK?! I utterly despise my father. He has to learn that people can be WHO or WHAT they want to be. He fucking makes fun of me when I tell my parents that I might be Bipolar! (2) Comments

Posted: 6/13/2006 11:33:08 PM

Satanic Squirrel

I went outside to go see my cat and then I heard this little sound going "ku-ku-ku-ku-CHOOK" over and over again. Then I looked up and there was a squirrel in a tree and it was 'barking' at me. o.O I was like WHAT THE FUCK?! It was getting ready to jump at me, so I grabbed my cat and got inside the house. I think it was possessed or something... (0) Comments

Posted: 6/11/2006 12:35:08 PM

it's getting hot in here..

Yeah, it's getting hotter here in Aptos. I'm not used to it being so hot. It's always really cold here. =O Not ALL of California is hot all of the time; THEY ADVERTISEMENTS LIED. I mean, it's a great day to be at the beach. =D Yup, I'm going to Raging Waters tomorrow with all my sixth grade buddies. Oh and look at this picture my friend, , on SheezyArt made: Click here to see it. (2) Comments

Posted: 6/4/2006 4:13:50 PM

OH MY FUCKING HORSE

HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT~!! My third trimester speech is tomorrow and I'm all stressed about it and I'm freaking out about it! OH MY GOSH. I HATE SPEECHESSS ARRGGHHHH!!! >=( RAWRR I WISH I COULD DO MY SPEECH FIRST SO THAT EVERYONE CAN FORGET ABOUT ME AFTER THE SECOND PERSON GOES. GRR. OMH I HATE SPEEECCCHEEESSSSS! I think I just need a good night's rest to relax.. BUT STILL I CAN'T GO THROUGH WITH THE FUCKIN SPEECHES! ;o; (0) Comments

Posted: 6/1/2006 10:55:58 PM

How Could You

How dare you say such things, How can you not care? I've apologized to you, You just never play fair I've tried to talk to you, Yet you ignored me, Is what you say true? If it is then I regret saying sorry Somethings you say Really piss me off Ooh, what you said that day, Were you just trying to show off? You had me in your little spiderweb, You just ate up all the attention, You saved the best for the end, And that was the realization That you never loved me, The way that you said you did Oh, how I regret loving thee, You made me hate you for what you abid How dare you say such things, How can you not care? I've apologized to you, You just never play fair... -------------------------------- Shut up, it's a terrible poem. It's what stopped me from my..emotional problem. NO CRITZ OR I'LL SHOOT YOUR HEAD OFF LIKE RASPBERRY JAM. (2) Comments

Posted: 6/1/2006 12:17:04 AM

. . . : : : ///|||=-ALL YOUR BASE ARE BELONG TO US-=|||\\\ : : : . . .

DOWNLOAD THIS SONG, IT'S SPIFFY. There are just too many times that people have tried to look inside of me Wondering what I think of you when I protect you out of courtesy Too many times that I’ve held on what I needed to push away Afraid to say what was on my mind afraid to say what I need to say Too many things that you said about me when I’m not around You think having the upper hand means you gotta keep putting me down But I’ve had too many standoffs with you it’s about as much as I can stand So I’m waiting until the upper hand is mine (One mintute you're on top) The next you're not Watch it drop (Making your heart stop) Just before you hit the floor (One mintute you're on top) The next you're not Missed your shot (Making your heart stop) You think you won And then its all gone So many people like me put so much trust in all your lies So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long All I know is that all I want is to feel like I’m not stepped on There are so many things you say that make me feel you crossed the line What goes up will surely fall and I’m counting down the time Cause I’ve had so many standoffs with you it’s about as much as I can stand So I’m waiting until the upper hand is mine (One minute you're on top) Next you're not Watch you drop (Making your heart stop) Just before you hit the floor (One minute you're on top) Next you're not missed a shot (Making you're heart stop) You think you've won (And then it's all gone) (And then he’s all gone) (And then it's all gone) (And then he’s all gone) Now it’s all gone I know I’ll never trust a single thing you say You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway And all the lies have got you floating up above us all But what goes up has got to fall (One minute you're on top) Next you're not watch you drop (Making your heart stop) Just before you hit the floor (One minute you're on top) Next you're not missed a shot (Making you're heart stop) You think you've won (And then it's all gone) (And then he’s all gone) (And then it's all gone) (And then he’s all gone) Now it’s all gone Anyways, my friends tell me I've gotten skinnnier, maybe it's all the Dance Dance Revolution Extreme I've been playing...[like 1-3 hours a day =X]. Nicki keeps accusing me of being anorexic, WHICH I AM NOT, and it gets annoying. >.o CLICK HERE TO SEE MY SPIFFEH ANIME GRAPHICS WEBSITE Lol. I love Tyler. (3) Comments

Posted: 5/26/2006 9:05:22 PM

LOL

Jason got a nerdy haircut and now he looks like a pixie boy! PIXIE BOY! (1) Comments

Posted: 5/19/2006 5:31:45 PM

OMG DUMB FREEWEBS

>_> Damn FreeWebs.. It ain't working and I really need to update my website. I keep trying to log in but it goes to a 404 Error page. >:0 GRRRR... BUT I do have something to look forward to tomorrow; a field trip! I'm going on a Stagnaro boat cruise, after that we're going to Gilda's for lunch, AND after that we're going to Marini's for dessert! =D Yaaay! Oh, and supposedly I'm a "bad influence" on my friend Nicki, according to my teacher, Ms. Ferrero. I asked a whole bunch of preps, nerds, punks, and every other social-type group if I was a bad influence and all of them, I repeat all of them said that I wasn't a bad influence. Ms. Ferrero is a stereotypical bitch, she only said that cuz I wear black most of the time. And I don't want to change my appearance just because of that. OMG TYLER JUST SIGNED INTO MSN. (1) Comments

Posted: 5/17/2006 7:37:23 PM

No freaking way.

Damn it, my parents think I got an F in Social Studies when I actually got a B. GOSH. Now I can't go on the computer anymore, I just snuck on cuz my parents ain't here right now. =P Jeez, my parents are such weirdos. (1) Comments

Posted: 5/12/2006 9:39:31 PM

OMG OMG OMG NO WAI.

I'm bored. So bored that I even thought of doing extra credit homework! SOMEONE HELP ME ESCAPE THE BOREDOM! But I did have like a really weird dream last night, and another one before that..I'll talk about them later cuz I dun wanna type all that crap. IMOGEN HEAP FOR THE WIN! WOOOOO... NOW I'M GONNA TYPE A WHOLE BUNCH OF RANDOM WORDS!! WOOTTT!! TAE KWON DO! DID YOU KNOW THAT URAGIRIMONO MEANS TRAITOR IN JAPANESE?!!? OEKAKI!! TYLER! MUFFINS! GIANT PURPLE LIGHTBULBS! JANIE! MOCHA FRAPPUCCINO! POINTY BELTS! JAMES BOND! THE END. WOOT. (2) Comments

Posted: 5/9/2006 6:17:00 PM

Pshaw, Emo Poser?

Okay, so yesterday when I was sick and didn't go to school, Maxx and Alex called me an Emo Poser behind my back. PFFT. I was able to get them to stop calling me that with a little help from my tape. Don't get any weird thoughts there. LOL. Maxx was doing something (he sits next to me) crafty and he needed some tape. So this is the little conversation we had: Maxx: Dude, do you have any tape? Me: Yeah. Maxx: Can I borrow some? Me: No. Maxx: Aw, come on, please? Me: Nope. Maxx: PLEASE! Me: Mmm...only if you and Alex stop calling me a poser and don't say, "Just kidding," afterwards like you always do. Maxx: Okay, fine, as long as you stop going to HomeStar Runner. Me: Okay, fine. And I got him and Alex to stop calling me poser and Maxx threw a little ball of tape at Michael. Lol. It then turned into a little war, and finally Maxx missed and hit Johny in the head. LMAO. Oh, and one more thing: Tiffany is the awesomest person I've ever met. ... OH MY HORSE. (2) Comments

Posted: 5/3/2006 4:03:40 PM

One of my first poems

Elliot By Melissa Ramirez Elliot, don't hang your head in shame, I can feel your pain, It's not your fault, All you have to do is open your heart as if it were a vault, And everything that fell apart, Will shape once more, If you just let me through your guarded door, You won't feel your pain anymore, You have your art, And the's the special part, No one will judge you, If you just let me through... This was for a novel project. I got an "A" on it. :D Elliot is a guy in a book called The Art of Keeping Cool. It's a very good book, you should read it. >_> xD Elliot (the poem) © Melissa Ramirez '06 Elliot (the character) © The Art of Keeping Cool (I forgot who the author was.) (2) Comments

Posted: 4/19/2006 10:36:26 PM

Frightening Information

Dude, four guys from my school like me. And guess what. They're all fags. There's: Nathan (gay Michael Jackson impressionist fag) Jonathon (annoying fag) Connor (geek fag) Ian (fluffy-pink-loving, hat-making, obsessed with kniting fag) I'm frightened by the staggering amount of guys that like me right now. And it just so happened that it was right after Nathan found out that I was a lesbian. -_- (2) Comments

Posted: 4/12/2006 8:34:30 PM

This sucks...

Agh, one of my friends told one of their friends about that dream I had with the princess. Now, FOR SURE it's gonna spread out. People are gonna be calling me a lesbian and whatnot. God damn it, I hate you Nathan. Is it strange to see an emo person who's Mexican and is a lesbian? D: I just hope that no one calls me names. ;~; One more reason that I think I'm a lesbian is that I don't like any boys in my school, and I seem to be more attracted to the girls now. Maybe I'm just bi or going through some weirdo stage. D: (1) Comments

Posted: 4/4/2006 6:46:37 PM

Woah. I had the weirdest dream...

Omfg, I had the WEIRDEST dream ever last night. I was in a jungle city looking for a princess's Golden Acorn. (It turned out to actually be a peach core but whatever.) Once I finally got it to her, she put it in a drink and gave it to the mayor of the city. XD 5 seconds later he dies. Leaving the Princess in charge of the city. Later that night, in the dream still, she invited me over to her house for a Thank You gift. And guess what the gift was. Did you think it was gold? Or a new house? Maybe a vacation somewhere. If you guessed any of those you were wrong. The gift was, it was...IT WAS GIRL ON GIRL SEX! Oh my god, it was incredible. But like in the middle of having sex with the princess, my little brother woke me up by yelling, "AAHHH, MY FINGER!!" And he was all the way downstairs too. Gosh, that was the MOST AWESOME, yet weirdest, dream ever. Now I'm unsure if I'm a lesbian or not. o____O (4) Comments

Posted: 4/1/2006 2:13:43 PM

Yay.

Yay, my first post on this NewBlog thing. :D Well...I'm talking to this guy named Juan over MSN. He's really nice to me. He's the first guy to ever compliment me on my personality. I think I'm falling for this guy...o.o No, I don't want to go through all that again. No more broken hearts..;~; I wish we could meet, but he lives in Mexico, near Arizona or something. And I live in the humble little town of Aptos in California. D: I met him by playing GunBound. An online game where you get to shoot people in little cars. :D It's fun. Well, I have to go eat dinner. Bye. :D (3) Comments

Posted: 3/25/2006 10:13:50 PM