going from one thing to another

people say that hearing a song or a familiar noise will bring you back to a memory. i truely believe this. hearing a song always reminds me of something or someone. And depending on if i just broke up with someone or falling in love with someone new most the songs i listen to will remind me of that person. sure theres those couple of songs that remind me of my friends or a crazy time. but in those times where i'm sad and feeling depressed about some guy or completely head over heels about him and can't get them out of my head. EVERY love song reminds me of that person for no reason at all. for instance the song don't matter by akon has nothing to do with our relationship at all but i still think about him when the song comes on. but maybe he never really left my head, it just seems when a slow love song comes some guy always pops into my head. HOW LAME! and the song so sick by NeYo will always be in my ipod for the reason i understand why this song was writen cause i'm sick of only thinking about guys when a slow love song comes on of course what else is there to think about? If i wasn't thinking about that lame guy what would i be thinking about? i guess i could ask that questions in alot of different situations. of course you can ask alot of questions about everything and thats the kind of person i am i ask aton of questions and i like answers to them when they are able to be given. anyways thats just me rambling on again (0) Comments

Posted: 4/22/2007 3:05:14 AM

for some reason

Its just one of those nights where everything seems to be going just right but messing up all at the same. I haven't broken any laws but seems as i'm getting in trouble. I haven't gotten in a fight with anyone but seems as if someone is mad at me. I have nothing to cry about but for some reason the tears want to fall. i have no reason to be relating to this song but for some reason i am. I have nothing to be afraid of but for some reason i'm scared. i have no reason to be awake but for some reason i can't sleep. i have no idea whats going through my head right now its going all over the place. so much stuff is going on right now that its hard to think of just one thing. i don't talk to one of my closest friends anymore cause shes a slut. i really like this guy and he likes me too but something is just pulling me back from him yet i'm more outgoing and more open to him than anyone else. i have no time for the friends i still have because it seems i work 24/7. school is killing me slowly but yet i've stopped drinking until summer so i can get my grades back up. i'm getting iratated so fast that i have no time to think about what i'm saying to others. writing is my stress releaver but i have no time for that either.i've been making really stupid mistakes they haven't hurt anything yet but i'm sure they'll add up thats why i need to start getting my act together now.i've learned in the past couple of weeks that you can't rely on anyone and can't trust their word so i've stopped doing that. and just thinking of all this stuff is just making my fustraited so i'm DONE! (0) Comments

Posted: 4/21/2007 2:20:40 AM

After Being Gone For Not So Long

Some people may think that being gone from your regular life to go on vacation for two weeks is really long, not me. I could have been on vacation forever! But when i got to AZ i relized that i love montana i love the gorgeous skies and mountains seeing the brillant stars the people the places. I'm sure lots of people think like that but in my first night in AZ i had the weirdest dream about my job and the people that work there...i missed my job more than anything else! When i got home today i thought i'd go check my schedule when i pulled up i saw my ex-boyfriends car and i thought i'd park next to him...he was in his car and rolled down the window and told me to get in i did and he gave me a huge hug and a kiss on the cheek....that his new favorite thing to do is to kiss people on the cheek personally i think this is very weird but that might be just me. We hung out for alittle while and i went home even though i didn't want to....turns out i had to cover for someone who didn't show up for work. I relized why i missed it so much the people that work there are like my family we all treat eachother like bestfriends and I LOVE IT! i love my job and i think thats really weird but its true! (0) Comments

Posted: 3/18/2007 2:21:26 AM

Somethings never change

After talking to one of my ex-boyfriends (who i now work with) he helps me come to the conclusion that the reason i love the chase and not the catch is because after i have caught them i relize they aren't good enough for me and i mean that in the very least concided way. It dawns on me that he has thought about this alot and he tells me that he is done with girlfriends and that i'm the last real relationship he had, that i really kind of hurt him.For him to come out and tell me this is kindof a big deal since he likes to act like he is really tough. The truth is i really never got sick of him like i did all my other boyfriends, the fact is that he was a flirt and i was a jealous girlfriend. The bad thing about our friendship is that i still get jealous when he flirts with other girls when hes around me and he knows this, but doesn't pay any attention to it. He knows when i'm mad at him and he hates it, but he has also told me that he's just waiting for the day i stop talking to him forever, i don't know if that means he's expecting it anytime or that he wants it to happen, but he's a great friend to talk to and fun to hang out with, hes really cute but he's a flirt and i'm never going to get over getting jealous when hes flirting with other girls which hes always going to do! I guess i should just be thankful that we are still friends (2) Comments

Posted: 3/5/2007 2:44:05 AM

the reason i don't have a boyfriend

its almost 5 o'clock and i'm just sitting here like always monday through friday waiting for it to be 5. it seems like i'm always doing this in every class i go to, to every job i'm working i'm waiting to get out. now my friends think that i'm a player well maybe i'm not sopost to be stuck in one place at a time maybe i'm not ment to be held down to anything. i'm a free spirit i think what i want and most the time i do what i want. i'm a person that can't stand rules and can't stand being told what to do, i guess sometimes that can be a goodthing because if it needs to be done then i'll just do it without people telling me it needs to be done. My friends also think i'm only after the chase which is somewhat true. If i reall think about it, it is true i always am going for the guy that has the girlfriend or the one you can never find the older ones that call anyone and everyone when they are drunk and i always dump the ones that want to be with me and hold my hand and see me at work, but thats because i feel stuck with them and can't stand that feeling!I like knowing that if i am going to get drunk i don't have to worry about cheating on someone because that is the last thing i want to do is cheat on some one. but i guess this is just who i am (1) Comments

Posted: 3/1/2007 5:58:34 PM

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