BOYFRIENDS!: Where've you been all my life?

What do you do when someone walks into your life unexpectedly and opens an entirely new chapter in your life when there is still a little bit left to live in this one? Well you either forsake the possibilities by doing the sort of right thing (depending on your situation) letting it pass you by or you jump by the seat of your pants and see where it takes you... I'm letting it take me wherever, even though I have to admit that I'm a little scared. You know in the beginning when you meet someone they seem so close to perfect it's scary? That's kinda how it happened... well maybe... except that I already know he's impatient and stubborn. But I can deal with that because I'm like that too. Overall, he is the perfect nice guy - polite, honest, intelligent, funny, interesting, well spoken, well traveled, and sincere. After talking with him for a little over a week and corresponding by e-mail for close to a month, things are going well so far. Just so happens that I'm going on vacation where he lives. Very convenient and actually underneath everything I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited! There's that part of me that keeps thinking that this is a load of crap seeing that I am dealing with the end of a very failed marriege and all... I mean I have every right to be apprehensive - after all I was duped, bamboozled, and smackledorped. My soon to be ex was never cut out to be a husband, father or even a best friend. Too bad I never saw it coming - again, things were so perfect in the beginning. The there's the other part of me that is hoping for the impossible - that just out of the blue like in a movie - that he could be the one. Don't get me wrong, I was over this marriage about 18 months before I even talked to this guy. I asked for a divorce the first time last June and couldn't take the bull**** anymore by this christmas. But then again, am I ready for commitment all over again? I know that the next time I fall in love I want the passion, the commitment, the compassion, the love, the understanding, the want, and the romance I missed out on being married for 3 years. Let's be honest here - it is awfully hard to forget about this guy. We talked for two nights in one week for 8 hours a piece and neither one of us likes to talk on the phone! There's a connection there and he says he feels it too... but you know how guys are, they will say anything just to get in your pants. NOT SAYING THAT HE'S LIKE THAT @ all... but you gotta wonder. I am a unique individual with a very eclectic way of thinking... I honestly didn't think that anyone but my best friend could be close to my tactics... this guy though, he's got her beat in several other departments that I won't even think about mentioning just for the sake of me thinking about it again and sitting there all night trying to figure him out. AND I HAVEN'T EVEN MET HIM YET! All I know is that everytime I talk to him I giggle like I'm a silly teenager... and there are things I want to say to him that I shouldn't be saying... at least not yet - maybe when we're face to face. He'll prob. call me here in a little bit after he gets off work. And then I'll wake up tomorrow all happy and S*** like I always do since I started talking to him. He is always on my mind! More tomorrow, stay tuned! (0) Comments

Posted: 3/28/2007 6:50:54 PM

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