can you help me delete a virus Posted 4/9/2007 12:30:55 PM ... i got a virus and i DONT want to get a new hardrive, because i have TOO MUCH stuff on there and some files it says access denied... when i try to delete...and i know theres some programs.... to download but i have no space... so if i do download one, at least it was reccomended... (1) Comments

LIFE: loving god Posted 3/30/2007 3:30:11 AM god i love you! i havent prayed for so long! and im glad im doing good! its only because of you, i'm strong! it feels good to be here it feels good to be near i can finally feel you again now i know, you were always my friend i used to blame you, through hard times but i forgot you're the giver of the lives we're the choosers with the free will we're the blamers of what you can but, will not kill you were always there but i told everyone, you were'nt fair i almost cheated life when i almost cut my wrist with a knife i almost fell for money's love i almost gave my life away, with a shove but you shoved truth back, with a weapon and it was all through a split second compared to the time it took as i entered it seemed long, as i learned, and nearly surrendered now i comprehend the full picture the world's words, have made a mixture between flesh and soul we confuse and question the goal the days brought depression the world advised aggression i've lost the trust of many friends many family says im for pretends but i need only your trust i dont need to confirm, i came from dust i was put together so perfect i had such pride, humility submerged it my faith now flows through my heart desires for material have been hit by a dart i'm able to believe you will give me what i need and you will put together what's meant to be all i can say is thank you all i can do is show it to you ~JAG Only Through GOD I Write, He's The Speaker (0) Comments

LIFE: living Posted 3/30/2007 3:27:55 AM we can wine "you owe me!" they know you and know me yes we are tough but for money, pain is enough there is no other level people can urge me to rebel but those people love money i love a day that's sunny because it doesnt cost nothing i dont need to pay a penny i dont need to say its not plenty i could take it for granted i'm not 100% sure who planned it i'm not forced to give thanks cause the judging has many ranks but the days still come i awake everyday to a new sun and the day god calls me i'll be the program, but he installs me people can ridicule my belief but they have no say, where i leave if they're right, they have no regret if we're right, we will rejoice if we're wrong, we have no regret if they're wrong, they regret that choice people can ridicule my morals but we don't follow the same tutorials some who know, stumble and fall so i believe the heart is the all some of us will not have time to change some of us will not be taken away therefore the plans of the heart, should come the intentions, are unpredicted, but done whether we have time or not it's all layed out in the plot many of us will learn and many of us will worry in concern at the tick-tock of the turn and the clock, where the time will burn and before we even blink fantasy will sink REALITY will humble anything we THINK TRUTH will reveal the LIE on my book, i will keep my eye what many would do for money many give it the attention of honey all i can mind, is my own the only one i can credit, is GOD alone ~JAG Only Through GOD I Write, He's The Speaker (0) Comments

LIFE: love life Posted 3/30/2007 3:26:05 AM have i told you i dont know how i can't hold you i cant grow you out to help you learn what i do to help inspire you to help get you through to help you understand, i suffer too its odd how i skip feelings its a mixture of dealings but from one second to the next my tears drain, for my heart to rest it was too heavy from pain so i had to pay for my gain before i could predict the following second i was smiling, loving life, at the split of a second ~JAG Only Through God I Write, He's The Speaker (0) Comments

LIFE: giving back Posted 3/30/2007 3:24:44 AM +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ i can give now you've tought me how you've tought me why you stood waiting, when i walked by you sent people in my life as i walked away from you only to find out, those weren't only people you knew but you sent them to follow me you asked them to help me see as my pride wouldnt look back so they let me trip in the crack they let me slip in the dips when you asked them to give me my respect as they also were given, through the voice between your lips no one could make me do anything, i regret but you humbled me overall and someone i love, is you in all you never told a demand that deserved respect in contrary, you allowed me to select and for that, you still didnt charge me a cent you said i don't need to apologize forgiveness has been sacrificed so loving to my fullest, is the best of all trys persevering is the best fruit of all crys and although you dont ask i ignore the world, and my love is true, at last my appreciation i owe, is as visible, as through a glass ~JAG Only Through God I Write, He's The Speaker (0) Comments

LIFE: wondering away...damn.... Posted 3/25/2007 7:37:32 PM iF I die No pity for my life I lost the ones who cared Vision was impaired Threw away the best The one who couldn't rest If I wasn't in my bed Away from troubles i could get close to her arms, i pled i would not be in mental debt i will watch where i'm led doing only what she said try to do what i read when god gave me his bread real hunger i starved, he fed but i drained it, and my eyes are now wet with them i slept through the days that left a lost mind, i cant interpret in a lost place, i took a step knowing but not, the obstacles ahead rough roads to a dead end grabbing on to the last thread looking for something to live in reflect of appreciation, for this gift i reject pain stands behind every regret still confused where the compass will direct a couple choices to inspect searching shore from the sail i set pride of the flesh, life included inside my home i rested through the back door, evil intruded no wonder for my acts, the past i accept this blueprint has long ago been spread accross the table, with the king i never met got to know him, then turned away my head back to a low life instead raw thoughts close to infested by the winds i was swept my consciounsc is dead poison my heart was fed the love she kept i didnt select still i fight to dry the sweat trying so hard to change, in tears i wept wondered away, pitiful to expect at the least a drop of respect ~JAG copyright © 2007 jesus alvizo (0) Comments

depressed: behind the scene Posted 3/6/2007 12:08:37 PM learning behind the dice beneath, the blood dries my soul cries my will, tries my flesh deprives mind is confused brain cells are overused eyes are abused people are accused faces are bruised cant feel, cant move dont steal, dont boof where along, i fell nobody could tell i walked a lonely day on a lonely way when i heard someone say "what who you hurt" but her home was burned he's told to sit down the sword is taken out shoe prints are found fist grips fingerprints lonely trips guilty lips takes a glimpse see's the tape tears are too late the questions were asked a life he doesnt know brings him to death row the dice was passed they were rolled, too fast ~JAG Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (0) Comments

depressed: 1-2-1K Posted 3/6/2007 12:24:34 AM they said "go" she said "no" tears began to drop this man didnt stop how he started? call him retarded society influence pointing a finger has sense to who, the non-citizens? blame is forever conviction will make it no better anti-depressants after the resins before the crystals guilt triples farewell to the dimples what are the principles wrong doings dangerous pursuings led by silence eyes of no non-violence sympathy of least reason is deceased troubles are deeds not of his own in a world alone in a mind who knows only the pain which grows the hopes that dont for the life he was loaned vulnerable to the voices which have helped make his choices the amount he heard could be, everytime he saw a bird Copyright ©2006 Jesus Alvizo (1) Comments

can't let you go Posted 12/3/2006 10:56:19 PM i just wanna be with you why do i continue to want you and keep you if i never get to see you so many ways you diss me so many times you i want you with me but you dont even miss me when i see you, you dont even kiss me and while my patience can no longer grow i still cant let you go my love is more than it shows you are more to me, than you'll ever know i just wanna know will i stay or will i go cause everyday i fight just to hope you will get sight stop playing these games start putting up frames of pictures with our names showing me you're not ashamed cause i will do the same is it maybe cause you know im here and no matter what you do, you know i fear the future i see with you gone the pain of seeing you move on the tomorrow of being lonely with nobody to console me but once i open my eyes i hope soon you realize i loved you and i was willing to watch you change, but now its killing and i dont wanna die but i dont wanna lie i still love you because i feel i trust one day your love will exceed your lust and you will appreciate what we have between us cause i just wanna be with you why do i continue to want you and keep you if i never get to see you so many ways you diss me so many times you i want you with me but you dont even miss me when i see you, you dont even kiss me and while my patience can no longer grow i still cant let you go my love is more than it shows you are more to me, than you'll ever know but i dont know what tempts me all i know is my heart is empty i wanna stop trying but my love is just denying hoping you will stop dreaming i will not wake up to the same shit but now i know you just love it cause you see me on the phone still not leaving you alone even though you did me wrong even though you dont call all day long even though im here hoping soon you will shed a tear even though i fear that the end is near i guess i feel you'll change i hope things won't always be the same i dont care about me i care about you but you care about who? when i call you my boo all you wanna do is tell me my feelings arent true? what gives you that clue? admit to me if its an excuse ill leave you alone for god's use to do whatever he wants to all i wanna do is be with you i treat you how you wanna be treated still you go and brag to your friends how you cheated i see you're pride, the way you feed it it seems constantly your just fiending i hope you cry that im leaving i hope you go look for love cry and remember i treasured you as my dove i know you wanna care but you cant your feelings were there, but your heart ran you wanna be left alone live a free life cause your grown well i dont wanna be who you own so take your freedom and go hopefully one day you learn to know i loved down the whole road now i know how you view me all you ever did was use me i just wanna be with you why do i continue to want you and keep you if i never get to see you so many ways you diss me so many times you i want you with me but you dont even miss me when i see you, you dont even kiss me and while my patience can no longer grow i still cant let you go my love is more than it shows you are more to me, than you'll ever know Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (0) Comments

Depression: let me go Posted 11/29/2006 3:19:08 AM PAST TWO MONTHS just sucked i hate it my dads been depressed, talking about he doesnt wanna live, everyday i cry, because he doesnt come home, and im afraid it was the last time i seen him, when he left for in the morning, and when he goes to work, im afraid hes never coming back, and i cry, then i have no one to talk to, cuz nobody understands my dad, NOBODY, they all say WATS HIS PROBLEM? WHY DOES HE ACT LIKE THAT? like they get mad that hes depressed... and he cries... cuz they think he has no reason to be acting like that.. and when he comes home we just hug and cry and i just ball out my tears, listening to him talk, without me saying antying, just listening, KNOWING i know how he feels, and being angry that no one understands that we feel we have nothing to live for, no reason, i've only told him one time that if he goes, im going with him, to not do it for me cuz i love him... but he said... im old i have no family... i have no hope.. you have more than me.. more chances.. you can still better your life... and learn fromme not to fuck up... and have a happy family... ifucked up twice... and im too old to start over... and that made me cry more... then i never brought it up again... all i do is hug him tight and feel his tears runnig down my shirt.. and mine running down my cheeks... missing class... smoking weed... getting in trouble... hanging out the wrong people... drinking everyday again... hating myself for being a liar... cant stop thinking of my last gf and picturing her w her new man... wishing i never wouldve fucked up... then all my family hates me... at least 50 percent of them... cuz of me and my STUPID older brother... then i spend my money on a couple stuff..and later i realize i just wasted it... after i get jacked for the money i had saved... aand i got bills to pay... damnet life sucks.. no money no girl failing school bad family relationships depressed dad im depressed and stressed cant work diligently my minds on too many things boss is yelling at me everyday im far from god no friends to talk to i have no one to talk to... my dumbass lied to my "girlfriend" and now she moved on... i cant bug her... cuz shes happy... i dont wanna talk bout my depressed life... shes got her own happiness toworry about... my other best friend... said she cant talk to me no more... cuz she's going bak w her x, and her x dont want her talkin to guys... and she said shes gona tel him im her best friend and im a good guy... i never tried hittin on her.. and she thinks hell like me.. when we meet... but she cancelled her myspace... and changed her number... and now shes gone... and i told her EVERYTHING... and she ALWAYS understood me... she always made me feel better... you could say she wasnt a true friend... but dam i miss her so muuuch!...then one of my close friends listens to me but he dont understand... at least he tries... but it sucks that no one can understand you...and another close friend... doesnt listen... doesnt talk to me no more... im not sure why.. i guess friends come and go... he doesnt return my phone calls anymore... and my poor mom listens but also doesnt understand... she listens... but it seems sometimes she doesnt pay attention... most the people i can talk to are one of these ways.. then i got another friend who always listens for like an hour... then BAM... "THIS IS WHY THIS IS HAPPENING" and shoots me with all reasons to feel guilty... that IM AM the problem... so then i start thinking about my first BEST FRIEND... who ended up being my gf.. then we broke up... but ended in good terms.. but then we lost in touch... then i get on her myspace... send her a message... and another one.. and antoher one.. and i never hear from her... so i got my top 8 full of people i want to count on... and myspace starts makin me depressed...soo.. i cancel it... NOW I REALLY dont got no one.. cuz i cant post bulletins.. i cant post blogs... cuz some people reply... but then at the same time... i feel like my last gf.. like she's gona thinki want her to feel bad so she can come back with me... i dont know why but thats how i feel... IM SAYING ALL THIS AND NAMING ALL THESE PEOPLE... BECAUSE IM NOT MAKING AN EXCUSE THAT NO ONE IS THERE FOR ME! its just that ive been really depressed but none of them can either hear me oout..or understand me... maybe this is a sign from god... that if i pray... since hes always listening... he'll hear me out... AND understand me... just let me go be free, be me i cant go on --jessie (1) Comments

love life: If Only You... Posted 11/27/2006 1:21:30 AM If its love your afraid of If its a single life you want a piece of If its a better man you need If I'm not the type I'd like to be If its family holding you back Friends telling you what I lack If its just feelings that aren't there If only as a friend you care If only you want it to remain that way If its another man in the way If its fear that you won't be able to deal If its unworthiness you feel If its fear that its going too good If your gut says it's not right for you If its fear that its happening too quickly If its something truly wrong with me Please take a plead If you have the courage to do so please If you gave me an answer, I'll be free So work with me If you could please If only you care If only you're heart is there If only you were you If only you were true Let nothing come between me and you If only you dreamed of me too ~JAG Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo WRITTEN: 5/27/06 (0) Comments

love life: i dreamed of her twice in a night... Posted 11/27/2006 1:14:18 AM we were playing in the pool... swimming all over and messing around and then someone walks by and points like ' you and her' like asking if were together and i say no and she thinks i said something like 'yea she's my girl' then i clarify and shes happy and we keep playing... i do a dive in like my lil bro w/ my stomach... we laugh... keep playing.. then we start playing hide and go seek under the pool we go on a balcony... we're talking... ive only known you for two months and i know your last relationship was a long one... so i don't want to pressure you...but let's try it... soo what are you trying to say? that we're bf gf. i look at her with out saying anything quieres? then i woke up hanging out with friends... miguel was there ... we were listening to a mariachi... he was telling me that was his uncle playing it... and it was coming from the house... on the corner of 19th and euclid we were on a small wall between a liquor store and the house... i was like foreal?? what's his name? does he have a neice??? he didn't rm then he said his name was domingo... i was like waat?? ohhh daaang i'm talking to his daughter... and then she comes out with a bunch of girls... and some guys.. and i'm like oh daaang that's her oh waat... and then i'm like dont say nothing just see if she sees me... here give me a beer... but i change my mind cause i dont want her to be like jesus... tu tomas???!! so i'm watching her wander around... for a while...i think that's when i woke up written: 6/5/2006 (0) Comments

love life: One Day Posted 11/27/2006 1:10:40 AM we will be together or you will be gone forever we will be friends or our friendship will come to an end tomorrow may just be another day maybe we'll go our own way perhaps together we'll stay there's a chance for you to go the truth though, nobody knows sadly, I'm afraid all day long I doubt we will stay strong you're a great woman who's true i'm just afraid to believe in you i imagine your warm love and purity you spare your kindness and caring adds to your share it's what we need to protect us as security in which we have trust joy, and neverending happiness that could be endless i tell you this as i wish your kiss because i love you and i want to hug you you're all i need you are my desire indeed you're all i want i wish to strengthen this bond Only if tomorrow, you're not gone ~JAG Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (0) Comments

love life: Feelings Posted 11/27/2006 1:07:24 AM Feelings grow so much through these poems But soon I will have to show them My emotions you will have to know them And if you want to grow them You will have to help hold them If you want to hold them You will have to tow them Or I can just roll them And yours you will have to fold them Hand them over so no one can coal them Give me the right to console them Neither of us will own them We will be submissive and have limits to control them Trust me like I do, that I will care for them Once you have known them You'll see I did not clone them Real feelings run inside unstolen Hopefully you do not loan them If they aren't right you can tone them I will let you mold them If you wish you can poll them Don't want to find out later, that you sold them If your feelings are secret but golden Trust, they will remain untolden ~JAG Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (0) Comments

love life: Succeed Posted 11/27/2006 1:05:49 AM The years are gone A new life you must take on Memories will stay But nothing should change Continue to live the same way Be focused on your life Filled with Determination to strive A burning desire to succeed Beyond what some believe Many people will doubt But don't let them wear you out Life is not what many make it seem You're more capable than you think As much as you may sink The goal is to not give up Always keeping your head up No one said life would be a perfect giving They just it would be worth living Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (0) Comments

love life: I Wanna Know Posted 11/27/2006 12:59:48 AM just wanna know if theres a chance we can grow do you feel the way i do do you think about me too when you go about your day i wanna know before its too late i wanna take you out on a date cause your driving me wild thinking about your sexy smile lets forget about our past and make new memories to last it could be we might get hurt we will cry, but let it be heard that we can make it work if its meant for us to be and if its just a fantasy then at least you and me can make each other feel free for just a spare moment lets give love a try, lets not live in torment we know sooner or later we will love another, and cater everything we have to someone that makes us laugh i wanna make you mad i wanna hold your hand i wanna forget about our past i wanna love you , and make it last i dont wanna be sad so if it goes bad i just wanna tell you that it was worth a try we have to learn to cry theres a lot of tears, before it goes right so give me permission to take you out on a mission and carryout this vision to search our souls and find what we want most a love to caress our heart that will never leave a scar maybe some kicks and punches but will never hold any grudges so what do you say about my proposal to play in the playground of love that awaits one couple to make their own way and sow another seed give each other what we need we both know we're dieing very slow from the pain our last love left but its not over yet maybe we could win for once in our life, have some gin and some juiice to cheer to this lovely year where we finally found someone to save us while we drown in the waterfall of the tears that made us not love, but fear and cover ourself in love-proof gear since our last illusionate soulmate went their own way thinking we would cry forever because they chose somebody better not knowing me and you had someone else that flew straight into the core of our soul inside my heart, that felt so cold so before the year ends lets try to love again i wanna be the one you call to walk you around the mall i wanna heal the guilt of my mistakes i need to smile for every bone that aches because all i do is hate everything i did in my last relationship that made me lose her and led another guy to use her so if you want to help heal my pain your love will make it go away Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (0) Comments

love life: Beautiful Posted 11/27/2006 12:57:19 AM dang girl im so in love with you just like i love beer i want to love you too cause all it does is kill my brain cells but damn you make me feel well its inevitably true that all i want is to be with you you make my heart warm turn my tears into smiles galore everyday is so much better just to be able to count on you in cold weathers the thought of thinking of you daily it brings joy to my life, cause your caring is unfailing and i know i can count on your support in anything i do, you’ll be there in my court trying to understand, and play along help me out, and help me stay strong cause caring, loving, kind, and sweet you are like the beauty of a shooting star im able to wish anything i want cause you’re the type that will help me all along you’ll be willing to help me make it through cause that’s the way i’ve been with you and you’re so good, that you want to stay true so i ask that you never leave me if you ever miss me, i want you to come see me and if we ever have downs lets work out the problem, and get around whenever your life makes you sad i need you to know, im here for you through all the bad i’m not just here through the good i want you to know i truely love you cause inside and out to me, your beautiful ~JAG Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (0) Comments

love life: Like That Light Posted 11/27/2006 12:54:58 AM Inch by inch all around Shining like a golden crown Beautiful and bright In dark times, the only light There to please When the sun is down with ease The only one To look upon when the sun is gone Never-ending caring There every night for sharing All the love, light, and inspiration Deserves appreciation To be there every day Takes a lot to live that way Never failing, there forever Eternal through every type of weather More than a replacement When the sun is gone in its basement I tell you it’s true all around Shining like a golden crown Along with the beauty comes, value You’re just like the moon Except close enough for me to hold you ~JAG Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (0) Comments

love life: Are You Done Posted 11/27/2006 12:48:36 AM did i ruin our trust i know you know i love you if u do too tel me so i know so i dont hav to go to search for another soul is he treating you right does he watch you walk by or does he pull you aside to tel u he loves you does he kiss you and hug you just out of the blue does he tel u hes thinkin of u does he give enough time does he inspire your life i dont mean to ask too much i just wanna know if thers a chance for us to finish wat we started or are my questions retarted i dont mean to make a big deal i dont wanna steal the way he makes you feel forgive me if i bug im just tryin to jug should i stay or should i leave i dont wanna worry i just want you for me cause its already done youve chosen your one but i wanna know if u could be sitting here next to me if im bothering or wastin ur time tel me so i can take some wine and take chill pill lay back, let the liquor kill just relax and take my hopes back so i can holler to that chick that i seen walking real slick- but even though we were both so dumb whats done is done we can start over again but if you wanna stay friends i respect your decision i just wanna know are you done searching your soul testing other offers swimming in other waters dont be afraid to respond there is no pro or con if u decide to be gone love is love, life is life and nothing can make it right you dont have to be my wife but i wanna know if you might just want to be mine just one more time ~JAG Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (0) Comments

Anger: Watching You Posted 11/27/2006 12:32:06 AM For all the haters for all the traders i will revenge you like a rebel so fear me like the devil you will face me at my level i dare you come near to my grave to say a cheer poor me some liquor without fear you will be the victim of my spear acting like you cared fronting that lifes not fair i will laugh and watch as you die by my darts if i have a choice to take the life of the fake that made a mistake when they did me foul you didnt know i was like an owl i was hiding in my ark i was aware in the dark in the time of day when there was no sun ray you thought i was out of play that my eyes were afraid and i slept as i paid no attention to you to nothing you do you thought my eyes were closed but nobody knows i watched when nobody knew i caught when no one had a clue ~JAG Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (0) Comments

Depression: Hopeless Life Posted 11/27/2006 12:27:10 AM i cry so much i get a headache but i cry so much i just let it knowing im regretted its not worth trying after i realize im dieing whats the point im just a joint being smoked away burned into gray smoke that clears life that steals pain that feels like overheated steel stinging through my heart like a burning dart quick to be sharp stab me when my eyes are closed dreaming with a burning rose in a deep sleep of life cant get out by a tithe by a penny or a dime i arrived at the end of my time troubles are over i can't pay my owner im not yet at the door i havent met my lord i cant yet beg i cant give a hand or leg if i pass to a new life at least i'll be alive my soul will live on so i must stay strong and wait for my heart beat to stop and leak not a single more drop no blood, no cot im at the edge with no use of revenge as i watch and see the tears as i leave from the ones that loved me i dont mean to hurt but death is at work its timing is now waiting to take me out from the world i invaded that everyday i hated i didnt mean to shoot this pain i give to you theres nothing i can do no remedy to stew no prayer to say no soul to sell away cuz its my last day im already dieing my life is on timing time flies and im tieing great memories to sadness pain to lost chances theres no advances no time to borrow to go back to tomorrow not five years ago and neither another hello to a new woman to get to know not even another goodbye i can't even cry because even if i do theres nothing i can choose the end is the end, i have no luck i cant pay life a buck its done, and im stuck i might as well shut up i can't get fed up my future has been set up my life's been planned this is the end of my life span i can do all i can but life will not hand not a single more minute of life not another second to even cry ~JAG Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (0) Comments

Love: Goodbye Posted 11/25/2006 9:47:06 AM just a minute before i could start at the peak of the dart i saw the dark the light was gone my hope before long went away, and on to where it belongs home sweet home again leaving me alone not to give me peace but take away my ease and leave me lonely once again, and only to see my down just stop coming around if you love my tears if evil is your peer and rejoice is your feeling when you see me cry everytime im healing you continue to lie you steal my life crime is your hobby you love to see me sobbing when im your toy i see your joy so next time i float off to sea to look for the key that sets me free and opens the door to give me the answer i look for i'll have to wait til then theres nothing i can lend nothing i can yield my heart is sealed the pain is not yet healed im suffering from your acts drowning in tears of the impacts so evaluate your pity for now just leave me when i float off sea ill see you on that next boat goodbye again hope ~JAG Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (0) Comments

LIFE: Can't Go On Posted 11/22/2006 2:07:24 AM im sorry mom your so calm im so gone i can't go on just to see you work makes my heart hurt i watch myself play still, i dont change i see my mistakes even though its not too late i cant go on im so gone i can change for you but i have no clue how im so into me your so happy to see the pillow under my cheek the shoes off my feet my body under the sheet my eyes in a deep dream windows closed, no sun beam no cold air to freeze no noise from the trees quiet in peace so i can rest in ease a smile on my face just the other day the shadow i felt made my heart melt you love to see me in bed i opened an eye when you left i caught your smile and i live in denial that im not who i act i try to fight the fact im not a wretched man i try as hard as i can just to be a good example so i can be your sample i can be your candle that you leave behind i can be that light your example is great everyday i feel its too late but soon you'll go away but everyday i loose faith everyday i make another mistake i still continue to hate everything in my hearts cage because i cant change i wish change was fast i dont want to last one more second in the past cause all i do is pass my victories through fire mistakes through every vein of wire inside of me all my veins so guilty , hold strains that now i feel pain what used to give me life was cut by a knife poisened with guilt living in what i built a wretched man still the blood is gone i cant go on im so gone veins are purely dry no distribution, i cant survive leave me moveless my thoughts are ruthless i know you care but you cant share with someone whos not there like you are for me but i still go free to do my own thing while you waste your energy working for who you think is so innocent and pure but my kindness is a lure to make you continue give me everything in you so i can go about my day playing the games i play ditching school using ur money like a fool telling lies school fees are a disguise my job pays my bills in your eyes really though my money is buried in the ground just merry with my drugs that carried my mind to smitherenes my life to miseries everything's gone i was pushed on by something strong with a force so great power with such faith it could make me hate success was achieved i have to leave im so dumb im so done take my left lung burn my right one take away my fun take me with a gun blind with the sun dont let ur rights run take the stunt im an ungrateful son push me away for once the wretched man has won i cant go on im so gone ~JAG Copyright © 2006 Jesus Alvizo (1) Comments