I think I might faint

Mia's coming home frome rehab in a matter of days. She's soooo much better! She's gained about 30 pounds and she EATS! (1) Comments

Posted: 3/13/2007 9:52:30 PM

So theres this girl...

And she's kinda all I think about. She's smart, funny, cute, and all that jazz. But we're so...perfect for eachother and she can't see it. Don't you hate it when that happens? I do. I don't even go on myspace anymore because it kills me so much to see her relationship status on there. (In a relationship) Seeing them together reminds me of the song "Gallery". look it up, its by Mario Vasquez. I just wish ANY of my friends were around to talk to. (0) Comments

Posted: 2/26/2007 11:17:56 PM

Follow up to the horrible tragic news.

Mia posted this in her myspace blog explaining the whole thing. kind of, she doesn't understand whats going on really. "If I tellyou what happened, will you stop talking about it? Current mood: scared Yes, I'm fine (ish) and I'm back frm the hospital. If your uninformed, I will emerse deeper. I might as well tell you the whole thing. I have anorexia. A lot of anorexia and bulimia. I've had it since last year, and kept it a secret till 2 days ago at the Hollywood Undead show. I fainted half way through it, and Tyler didn't think too much of it since this had happened to all of us at shows at some point. He took me to the hospital and I think it took me a few hours to come out of my coma. They let me leave and as we were walking out the door, I fainted again. I had to stay there the rest of the night. I don't know what happened, because I was in a coma the whole night. I woke up early the next morning and had no idea what was going on. The doctor had done some tests or something and had told everyone (yup, alll my friends were there) all about it. I'm not sure exactly how it all went, but all I know is that my friends and my dad know now. I didn't plan this. I didn't want this, and I didn't hae any control over this. It just happened to fast to catch. Tyler is gonna take me to rehab somewhere in Utah, and I'll be there a few months. As you can see, I remember nothing about this, so I'm not good for much. Ask Tyler if you have a question about it. I'm at home now, packin stuff. I'm leaving in a week. I'll be ok, and thanks everyone for all your support the last 2 days. I'm just really scared. I have no idea whats going on and I don't understand everything everyones telling me. I'm told that if this had gone any longer I'd pretty much be dead. ♥Mia" Keep praying for her. (1) Comments

Posted: 1/15/2007 4:23:56 AM

I'm back! with tragic horrible news.

Mia and I are back from our road trip. We went everywhere but the best places were Oakland and Santa Monica. Santa Monica is too damn gorgeous and Oakland is just fun. We were supposed to ave been out and about for another 2 days but we had to cut it short. Damn Mia and her eating disorder and her fainting half way through the Hollywood Undead show. (awesome show by the way!!) But no seriously guys. Pray for her. Been in te hospital all day with her. I'm on my lap top on the floor next to her bed. Its this crazy thing called Anorexia. I'll tell you more about it when my heart stops pounding. I swear this girl doesn't deserve anything that happens to her. First her mom dies, the her sister dies and now this. As I said guys, pray for her. (0) Comments

Posted: 1/14/2007 2:36:42 AM

airport secuirty!

So we started by going north and hit too many places to name and saw too many shows to remember. The hilites of my trip however, were: Driving right by Alissa Milano on highway 1 and waving at her (she waved back!) Seeing The Rolling Stones in some town that I couldn't tell you the name of for my life (it probably had about 78946327w623763643265473864643 letters in it!) Finding the world's cutest purse in some random ass downtown shopping area place (I'm not gay) Becoming like, best friends with a guy that looks just like me, has my voice, and shares the same passion for chai lattes as me(freaky) Meeting Jared Leto Oh, and some random's blog on myspace gave me the greatest blog idea! Here it goes: Top 5 most memorable airport security experiences: 1. Being forced to down a (words can't describe how wot it was) starbucks yummy to prove that it wasn't some kind of liquid franchise explosive in PV 2. Being told I had to sit on the conveyor belt (because there was totally no other available seating) while the old dude swabs my feet (yes, my feet) and the machine detected TNT on them in Colorado. 3. Old dude in sweet purple turban arrests Mia AND Janie AND me on a felony charge for leaving BRASS FUCKING NUCKLES in our pockets in Hawaii. 3 1/2. Me, Janie, and Mia spend a night in jail on the same incident in hawaii because they pulled out our camera and found pictures of us "punching" eachother with said brass nuckles 4. Dude in London made me, Mia, Ian, Cendra, Breezy, Danu, Destiny, Jaxon, lexi, adri, and Janie take out a total of 127 metal piercings and we spent most of the 19 hour flight trying to sort them all out again. (most of them belonged to Breezy and I, and we were 13 and 15 at the time) 5. dude in Japan pats down my hair for at least 15 seconds to determine if there are any ilegal weapons in it. (0) Comments

Posted: 1/1/2007 11:37:23 PM

Full gas tank? check. CDs? check. sunglasses? check. What? no drugs?

Just got outta school for 3 weeks! Over winter break, I'm pretty much gonna be all over California with Mia in her fatty Escalade. yup. lots of gas, lots of Burger King, lots of singin along badly to both our collections put together of bad CDs. (which ads up to about 300 CDs!) We've got like, a million concerts lined up and more if we find anymore. We're gonna be in Fresno, Oakland, San Francisco, Reno, Burkely, Tahoe, San Jose, and Melissa, we're even gonna be in Santa Cruz! I won't be able to see you because I'll only be there for about 5 hours, but I find it settling to know we'll be breathing the same air. Um, what else? Oh, We're gonna be in Ukiah too, because I totally know where all the members of AFI lived and live now. I'll also be lurking around Oakland for quite a few days because I also know where Davey Havok lives now. I'll write as it progresses. Love you all. Ty (1) Comments

Posted: 12/11/2006 11:58:43 PM

Your lightbulb is out...

I was on the phone with Janie and had the following conversation this morning: Janie:Yeah so anyway-OW me: wah-ppen? (Thats "what happened" in Tyler at 3 AM language) Janie: I just cut my back while shaving. Me: Oh that sucks I did that to my nipple the other day when I was shaving my chest. Janie: Ouch...nipple? me: nipple. Janie:... me: I probably shave more things on my body than you do. Janie: Oh yah? Me: yeah. .... Me: trust me I do... Janie: I bet I do cuz I'm a girl Me:You shave your legs....and your back...and you arms...and your hairy little toes...do you c=shave the back of your neck? Janie:no... Me: I win (2) Comments

Posted: 11/25/2006 3:22:07 PM

I hate my job

A little kid threw up in the bathroom last night and I had to clean it up. Two questions: 1) Why the fuck do little kids get taken to nice restaurants? Its inevidable their gonna throw up on shit. 2) Arent waiters supposed to wait tables? Isnt cleaning the bathrooms some kind of custodians' job? ( We have a custodian, He just doesnt do shit) So I guess my boss figured cuz I'm the skinniest, I had the least to lose. So she made me clean it up. She doesn't realize that I spend more ime primping for work than most girls and that I in reality have the MOST to lose. But seriously. I'm whining, but I'm a kid so I have the right to whine. I should stop. My vegan friends made me eat tofu yesterday. How the hell do you people eat that shit? My earring fell out yesterday and I cant get it back in. Its one of those plug things so its gonna be hard. (0) Comments

Posted: 10/26/2006 6:33:58 PM

found my purse!

Yeha,me and Danu were dumpster diving yesterday, and my purse was just sitting there. I know it was mine cuz it had Smith Puget's siggy on it. nothing in it, but thats ok. In other news, I'm driving down to San Diego with Mia this weekend to see my girl Breezy, who moved there this summer. I'm terrified of driving, and Mia doesn't watch the road when she's driving, so we're pretty much gonna die. If we ever were to crash while driving to quiznos or something, I'm sure she'd be fine and i'd be embedded in a tree. but if she ever kills me with her driving, I'm gonna come back as a squirrell and run up her pant leg. besides it'll be her Escalade we're putting in harm's way I'm not too worried since she has two more Escalades. (cough and a Ferrari and a BMW and a mercedes...rich slut...) I miss Janie...I dont wanna dwell on that but I never stop thinking about her. I like that chick. (1) Comments

Posted: 10/23/2006 9:37:36 PM

This is what happens when you live in the hood

You all know that I live in a place where getting your car stolen and getting beat up and your wallet stolen is just the norm, right? Yeah. If youve read my blogs, you'd know that I've had my 6 different cell phones, my car, and my wallet, and my shoes stolen right off my feet. Why do I bother buying nice things? But yesterday, my purse got stolen. Yeah this sucks I know. Yeah I know shut up. but like everything I've ever owned was in there! such as... All my $300 worth of Sephora makeup yet another cell phone another wallet. This one had like $250 in it. If anyone lives in Sacramento, I'm looking for a gray satchel-ish bag with Smith Pugets signature on it and safety pins all over it. I dont care about the makeup or the money. I just want that purse, is anyone happens to come across it. This is useless, isnt it? (1) Comments

Posted: 10/8/2006 3:40:57 PM

Hi guys

um I just though I'd tell you how my week has been. I went to LA, got hyphy in Lotus with all my cuz's celebrity friends. Such as Nicole Richie, Paulie Shore, and Paris Hilton's Aunt. I got drunk beyond my wildest dreams, and went home with some chick named Leslie. I'm not sure what went down exactly but the pictures don't lie and it was crazy. And also, I finally broke up with my evil bitch of a girlfriend. Thats all for now (2) Comments

Posted: 9/30/2006 12:13:25 AM

I got new glasses!

isn't that cool! And also, I am goin to LA next weekend for my friends birthday party. We gonna party it up at Lotus. Oh and do you know what else is cool? I met Will Farrel yesterday. yeah he was just hangin out at my usual coffee shop drinkin the SAME thing I was drinkin. I got his autograph! (1) Comments

Posted: 9/24/2006 3:30:31 PM

aww man

I just broke my glasses. yeah yeah I know I'm a loser I wear glasses. I wear lipstick and eyeliner too. (0) Comments

Posted: 8/27/2006 9:09:49 PM

Melissa (Raven)

dont kill yourself. I'm begging you from the bottom of my heart. Please. Don't (2) Comments

Posted: 8/7/2006 1:44:51 PM

Cell phone blood?

uhh the first two words of the title were true...I got a new cell phone yesterday, and it is soo cool! so anyway I went to the gym, and ran and lifted weights and stuff, and when I went back to the locker room, looked in my bag, and guess what wasn't there? My BRAND NEW, CHOCOLATE PHONE! I'd been saving my shitbagmoney for months to get a cell phone, and it got stolen within a day. I seriously need to get out of this hell we call East Sacramento. (0) Comments

Posted: 8/6/2006 11:25:23 PM

So help me out with this

The website where I download my music from got shut down. Anyone know any other ones? (2) Comments

Posted: 8/6/2006 12:05:10 AM

At the moment

My girl Mia is in my room, she broke her ankle dancing, her daughter Delia is asleep in my bed, bein adorable. My feet hurt like hell, cuz I got a new job waitressing at the sickest reastaurant ever, I'm so hungry, but I'm poor so I can't afford food or underwear (just thought I'd throw that in there, I'll tell you the story later) and I'm thinking about going to Mia's house to eat, but I'm very comfortable at my desk browsing through those sick myspaces about 13 year old boys without penises posing as hussy sluts without clothes on who say they're just on myspace looking for "friends". I'm went to Colorado last weekend. I am not sure why. It was Mia's idea to hop on her lil ole plane and go somewhere. I'm not sure, but I think I have a girlfriend now. Her names Dia and shes pretty damn awesome. She's funny, crazy, beautiful, and hellza fun. right now I miss my friends, and I miss my lil pet shark, Ashley, who died on friday, and now I am seriously ready to eat Mia I am so hungry. (0) Comments

Posted: 8/5/2006 11:48:11 PM

Jack The Ripper

oh, you look so tired mouth slack & wide ill-housed & ill-advised your face is as mean as your life has been so, crash into my arms i want you you don't agree, but you don't refuse i know you and i know a place where no one is likely to pass you don't care if it's late and you don't care if you're lost and oh, you look so tired but tonight, you presumed too much too much too much and if it's the last thing i'll ever do, i'm gonna get you crash into my arms i want you you don't agree, but you don't refuse i know you oh, crash into my arms i want you you don't agree but you don't refuse i know you Greatest song ever. without doubt. I'm gonna marry Morrissey. (0) Comments

Posted: 7/26/2006 12:35:50 AM

Janie

I want you to know that I love you more than anything and it will all get better. I promise. Just keep dancing and do what you love. that's why you're in the place that you are at the moment. It's destiny. Everything happens for a reason. Everything will work itself out and you'll end up with me again. don't worry. Just remember that I'll never forget you and you'll never forget me. No matter how many miles between us, or how much heartbreak we experience, I'll always love you forever. Nothing can change that. Y regreso aquí otra vez y comienzo Break down and cease all feeling. Never forget. (1) Comments

Posted: 7/25/2006 12:40:25 AM

someone talk me out of suicide please

life has decided not to play fair anymore. It took Janie away. It got me fired from my job. It made the shittiest AFI album in the history of AFI. it sprained my wrists so it hurt to hug Janie goodbye. and now its moving Ian to Rhode Island, me to LA, and Breezy to San Diego. I cant take this. I hate Sacramento, and I drink too much. However, MELISSA, somehow I refrain from cutting myself. You know, somewhere along the line, you meet just a few really good friends that you cant live without. I've met them early in life luckily. but life has taken them away from me. its weird, ya know? just last week I was walking around downtown sacramento with Janie, Ian, Destiny, and Beezies holding a sign saying honk if you believe in Nessie. and now, everyones leaving. You would understand this if you understood the bond me and Janie have. Its like, we're the only people that understand eachother. and we cant live without eachother. I'm happy for anyone that has met that one friend. (2) Comments

Posted: 7/20/2006 12:17:52 AM

RELIEF

ok. I just remembered something Nicki told me. she said. when shes sad, (yes, melissa, Nicki gets sad. shes got a damn emotional personality behind all that happy) she listens to her favorite song. her favorite song (mine too) is sexual lover by paulina rubio. its so upbeat and happy! I remembered what she had told me, put the song on, and my tears magically dried up. I'm suddenly tyler again! (0) Comments

Posted: 7/11/2006 2:53:40 AM

emo moment

thinking about how much I miss my friends who I havent seen all day (I usually am with them every fucking moment of my life, wich basically keeps my asina ass sane). I have never cried this much in my life. my makeup is running, and my face is all red. My life has sucked for the past week. Janie got a boyfriend, and I'm so happy for her for finding the love of her life. but now she has been spending a lot of time with Deryck, giving me time to think about my love life. I havent had a girlfriend or even a real kiss since I was 16. thats almost 2 years ago. I've been lisening to her talk about how amazing it is to be in love, and I just want to be that so bad. I need a girlfriend. but I dont wanna rush into love cuz I dont think I can stand getting hurt again. my boss is pretty much about to fire me because I have too many piercings. My social life just got murdered and stabbed to a bloody pulp. Mia hates me for doing something I didnt do. I have just realized that I'm a loser without a car, credit card, wallet, or phone. (mugged) I need a new job. a new girlfriend. a new car. a new cell. a new life. I'm just so over this life. I cant breath. usually, if jay wasnt around, I'd dance to make it better. I'm so weighed down with fucking sadness, I can hardly bring myself to move. how come whenever I do something right, 10 things go wrong? I need my sanity back. (1) Comments

Posted: 7/11/2006 2:45:59 AM

The worlds most hectic day

yesterday I got up at midnight!!! which is about 16 hours earlier than my regular schedule...and I took a shower and got dressed and left the house at 1:30 AM. wow. I drove to Auburn (which was the scariest thing ever since I was alone and driving is the scariest thing in the world for me) to see my dance instructer for an emergancy meeting with her and my entire dance group about some things. bye then it was about 3:00...but before that I went to the gas station to get LOTS of energy drinks cuz I almost fell asleep in my car, the mall for businessy clothes for a job interview tomorrow, my friends house to hang out and SLEEP, called Janie and Beezies from a fuckin phone booth and told him to find my cell cuz someone stole it the night before, and went to the gas station for more energy drinks. by then it was only 7 am. `then I went to the meeting, then, i had to driv3 to La for an audition for an absolutezero tour. again! I got the job, but I ended up fracturing my wrists (yup, both of em!) and now I cant do it. by then it was 4 pm. I would be waking uo by now normally!! Then I got more energy drinks, and a cast thing for my wrists, and drove home. I didnt get back till 10 pm and then I went and got more energy drinks and went to Dennys with the guys. then at 3 am, I wasnt tired from the energy drinks, so we went and walked around downtown till 6 am, then I got mugged again, and my wallet got stolen. then at 7 am we went to dennys again, and finally at 10 am I went home and slept. for reference, I aint too great at math but I think that was a 34 hour day. (1) Comments

Posted: 7/9/2006 2:58:15 AM

oops

About that last blog. No, I don't cut myself at all. I'm anti-self mutilation and I put that blog on there to spread awareness about it. People got the message twisted. I didn't even write that. It is a chain letter on Myspace and Friendster and I liked what it said Sorry for the confusion. Your favorite emolicious sexy breakdancer guitarist, drummer, bubble blowing emo, Ty (0) Comments

Posted: 7/6/2006 11:56:06 PM

This stuff is deep

Before you make that first cut, REMEMBER – you will find the blood and pain release addictive. Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren’t deep and will heal easily – They will get deeper. They will scar. They will take sometimes months to heal. And years for the scars to FADE. If you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your body, think again. It will spread when you run out of skin. Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame. Even if you are the most honest person ever to live – you will find yourself lying to the people you LOVE. You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were dipped in poison. You will be terrified that they will feel something under the cloth of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to be touched. Be prepared to get so out of control you fear your next cut because you don’t know how bad it will be. Just wait for 10 cuts to turn into 100. Be prepared for your entire life to revolve around thinking about CUTTING – cutting and covering up cutting. And just wait till that first time you cut “too deep.” And you freak out because the blood won’t stop… and you are gasping… and you feel yourself shaking all over. You are having a panic attack and you are terrified but you CAN’T tell anyone. So you sit there alone…Praying it will be okay – swearing you’ll never let it go this far again… but you WILL and FURTHER…Don’t worry, you will learn how to take care of you cuts so that you can go deeper and deeper and avoid the emergency room. And the better you get at TREATING your cuts, the deeper they get. You will lie to yourself and justify it when you find yourself spending 20, 30, or 50 dollars every time you go to the PHARMACY. You will feel the flutter of your heartbeat every time you go to the counter to ring up your order. Butterfly strips – 3 or 4 different kinds of dressings…Antibiotic cream…Medical tape…scar reducers…you will tap you foot impatiently hoping the line will just move and no one will stare at you or wonder why you need all these things. And at the same time secretly hope SOMEONE will notice – someone who is standing in line with an armful of the same SUPPLIES. Someone who understands – but of course that never happens. Medical supplies won’t be the only thing you spend all your money on. Be prepared to buy a new wardrobe –LONGSLEEVE SHIRTS in summer colors, bracelets, wristbands, boots…the list goes on and on. You will start looking at EVERYONE in a different way. Scanning their bodies of any signs of self-injury. Just hoping that you might meet someone like you so you don’t feel so terribly alone. You won’t even THINK about it, as your eyes scan their wrists and arms. Hoping, just hoping, they will be like you. But they are not. You will see their clean arms and feel terribly ashamed and alone. You will start doing a lot of things alone. You will always have to wash your laundry in private so no one sees the blood stains on your clothes and towels. You will always be cleaning up the blood. Scrubbing your bathroom floor. Wiping the blood off your keyboard. You wont’ be able to make it through a day without cutting. Next thing you know you are in a public bathroom somewhere breaking open a scab with a sewing needle that you keep in your wallet for emergencies. When you get really desperate, anything will be a cutting TOOL …scissors…a car key…a needle…a paperclip…your nails…even a pen. Doesn’t matter what it is if you need to cut bad enough you will find something. Say goodbye to things you took for granted. Like wearing shorts or sandals…pedicures…sleeveless tops. A normal summer day at the beach or in a swimming pool will become a far off memory for you. Get ready to itch. Because you will itch and itch. So much you will look like you have fleas or a skin disease. You will become an expert on your body as you DESTROY it carefully. You will dream about cutting. You will dream about being exposed. It will haunt you day and night and take over your life. You will wish you never made that first cut because while you absolutely hate cutting – At the same time you love it and cannot live WITHOUT it… (1) Comments

Posted: 7/2/2006 7:39:18 PM

I hate

cheese raisins when people sit and sulk in the corner getting arrested doing homework I LOOOVE Singing taking pictures (I need to buy a camera!!) playing my guitar JayJay bubblegum rollerskates laying in the grass Melissa (3) Comments

Posted: 6/4/2006 2:16:00 AM

You know what I just noticed?

ALL of the people in my circle of friends have soo much in common. Its almost weird. 7 people all do this stuff. I'll break it down for ya all of us play either guitar, or the drums ALL of us work at Jamba Juice ALL of us are breakdancers ALL of us love makeup and happy bunny and ALL of us have some kind of agreement with one another where we would die for one of them somehow. Isnt that weird??? (3) Comments

Posted: 5/13/2006 4:43:56 PM

Again, to brag about this awesome life!

I am a happy emo! well, I'm always happy, but this month just ROCKS OUT LOUD!!! I'm going to mexico with janie, cendra, and mia! it is gonna be the shyt! of course mia's paying, duh! and melisssaaaaaa! wats up, homie! you are soo cool! and, hella beautiful! well, aside from my computer nerd life, even work has been fun! words cant expresss how I feel right now! and my friends arent even around to make me hapy! I just am! well, work, just imagine 5 people singing REALLY loud! and theres lots of sun coming in through the windows! thats my life! we have been having fun. making chaos is what we do best! the police have been called on us several times at several parties. I've been getting pretty wasted too! (0) Comments

Posted: 5/9/2006 7:25:29 PM

So....Just the current state of da uNiOn

Life's pretty good right now. janie and I are having the sickest time in this boring town. we're making it fun. between janie's trampoline, and my pool parties, and all our jamba parties on janie's trampoline...that end up moving to my pool. Ian, Mia, Danu, (thats Duh-noo) destiny, and Cendra and janie and me have made some fucking chaos in this town. We jump on one of that rich bitch Mia's cars. and we SCREAM!!! and then theres "the singing" at jamba. and suddenly, we all have TONS of moNEY! but, that doesnt matter to us right now. We're just all putting it in the bank. We are having free fun! (2) Comments

Posted: 5/5/2006 8:44:17 PM

MYSPACE!

I GOT A MYSPACE! YAY! Its like really fun. I met an emo girl omg. she's pretty darn hot. but anyway, add your homie Ty-ty RIGHT HERE www.Myspace.com/XxThatsALotOfXsxX AND add my MSN at IGotsCoolEmoHair@hotmail.com AND add my AIM at TyTyFluffy (1) Comments

Posted: 4/30/2006 10:49:27 PM