my ex-bf

ok..something bad happened between me and my ex so thats y i had to break up with him. then barely a week later he fucking already has a new girlfriend i mean its not like im saying he still has to like me after tht much time,,, but i mean c;mmon... now i look and see that his girlfriend and him are already posting pictures of them kissing and its pissing me the hell off. i mean she already wants to slit my thorat and thats bad enough. but omg..i know i shouldn;t be jealous but i am. i wish i was still with him. i wish i never broke up with him. the only reason i did was because someone told him I was cheating on him with this ugly mexcican guy which absolutely bugs the fucking shit outta me. i want to fucking rip his face off when he comes near me. this is so fucked up. i wouldn't mind so much if i had someone that wouldn;t ditch me for him and shit. but whatever.. life sucks... THAT'S WHY IM THE ANTI-EXISTENCE MODEL.!!!!! (1) Comments

Posted: 12/6/2007 6:07:17 PM

I dont Even know What to Say

I dont know what to say. My dad yelled at me asking me why the hell Im so retarded because Im not doing well in school. I really dont think he loves me. He even told me. I asked him if he loved me and he said no, straight face, and moved onto the next subject. I dont want to be here. I dont want to go back to where i lived before. All i got was shit. blame. yelling. smacking. brusing. from everyone. FUCKED UP (0) Comments

Posted: 11/7/2007 11:04:03 PM

um....what do i call this one???

Well... today sucked. it started out ok, then got screwed up. apparently i havent really noticed, but this girl i thought was my friend keeps ditching me for this chick who hates me. Luckily i hate her too. then this guy who said liked me a lot like harted me always hangs out with my so called friend. I think that since they hang out so much and are always hugging and kissing cheeks, they should just effin go and date. It pisses me off too because the girl who hates me FxxxING flirts with one of my good friends crushes. people blame me for what goes wrong with their day/life. IM READY TO SLAP THE NEXT PERSON TO WHINE AT ME OR TELLS ME WHAT TO DO!!!!! Im at the end of my string (0) Comments

Posted: 11/6/2007 8:52:24 PM

Sensual Feelings...not what you think

My dad..... omg. I seen too many things. I know he cheats on his wife. I find all these texts. Nasty ones from who I know or might be going to meet. He had 20 porn movies hidden in MY room... He's tried hiding them. I found them. He has accounts on AdultFriendFinder.com and sexsearch.com and other things. He thinks I won't figure it out. His new baby and his wife will never find out. I can tell. Shes too stupid. He wont let me near guys. So hes lucky I like girls too. Its pointless. Im over. Its over. I might go back to my mum. Its hell over there. But oh well. (2) Comments

Posted: 11/6/2007 3:41:27 PM

I hate this.

I’m not smart. My mom made me out to be a genius but I’m not! I hate how she thinks that if I don’t succeed that I’m a failure. I’m bisexual. She told me that she’d disown any of her kids if they were gay, or half gay. So I guess I don’t have a mother anymore. I live with my dad. He thinks that everything should be about him. I don’t mind much, but sometimes he’s obnoxious . I still don’t really care. My mom made him and I sign a dumb contract for my living situation. I have to send her all my report and progress cards. She tries to run my life over here too, my dad sees it too. Apparently, if my grades are low, I have to go back. I don’t want to. My dad doesn’t help me with homework. He has these high expectation, like my mom, and he gets pissed off at me pretty easily. He says he loves me, like my mom does, but, I don’t think they really mean it. Sometimes, I feel like I’m in hell. My situation is horrible, to some its like heaven and they’d rather have that than what they got, but I still hate it. I’d do anything just to leave. Go somewhere. Without them. I’d find somewhere. I wouldn’t miss them, They make me miserable. They just don’t realize it. My grades are low, unfortunately. I’ve never been good in school, but somehow I passed first quarter and second quarter. Now I’m flunking badly, I asked for a tutor a few times but “we can’t afford it” my dad says. I think we can. He goes and buys things, useless things, all the time. If he stopped doing that and invested his money into my learning so I can get a good education so I can be successful, but its not important enough I guess. WHAT CAN I POSSIBLY DO TO GET IT THROUGH TO PEOPLE I’M NOT INTELLEGENT AND I NEED HELP!?!?!?! -Erica (2) Comments

Posted: 11/5/2007 9:38:14 PM