Adrianna_SA
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I wil write a book one day and you will know all... For now come find out for yourself..
Age: 19
Gender: F
Location: South Africa
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Posted 1/23/2007 3:01:52 PM
Ever been told your realy beautiful? (did i spell that properly?) Realy unique? Stunning?
Blah Blah.. Well I have. I have, realy.
Belive it or not but so any people have mentioned just hoe gorgeous I am, infact I am so stunning I have had ONE boyfriend in this lifetime.. Who I think to be honest is somewhat of a mama's boy.
Dont get me wrong guys want me, but for all the wrong reasons, they want to srew, fuch,lay, naai whatever els me but never want relationships or even my number.. Why is this I ask myself time and time again.. Well looking past problem number one I have found myself in what I prefer to call my Un-Happy-Place.. Where keeping myself happy is dependent on what I am going to eat or next.. Or how long I can starve myself for.. Witch does not help my wieght condition at all! Cause facing the demon and telling the truth is adding the fact I DO have one!
I over-eat.. and I know exactly how to rid myself of this extra baggage I just dont seem to be motivated enough over the last year to stick to something long enough to lose enough.. Witch is a huge pity for me cause I thought I'd be on runways by now!?
Well maybe life/eality is kicking in now and I will just never be one of the lucky few..
You judge maybe a sane person out there will voice thier opinion!?
Posted 1/23/2007 3:01:52 PM
Ever been told your realy beautiful? (did i spell that properly?) Realy unique? Stunning?
Blah Blah.. Well I have. I have, realy.
Belive it or not but so any people have mentioned just hoe gorgeous I am, infact I am so stunning I have had ONE boyfriend in this lifetime.. Who I think to be honest is somewhat of a mama's boy.
Dont get me wrong guys want me, but for all the wrong reasons, they want to srew, fuch,lay, naai whatever els me but never want relationships or even my number.. Why is this I ask myself time and time again.. Well looking past problem number one I have found myself in what I prefer to call my Un-Happy-Place.. Where keeping myself happy is dependent on what I am going to eat or next.. Or how long I can starve myself for.. Witch does not help my wieght condition at all! Cause facing the demon and telling the truth is adding the fact I DO have one!
I over-eat.. and I know exactly how to rid myself of this extra baggage I just dont seem to be motivated enough over the last year to stick to something long enough to lose enough.. Witch is a huge pity for me cause I thought I'd be on runways by now!?
Well maybe life/eality is kicking in now and I will just never be one of the lucky few..
You judge maybe a sane person out there will voice thier opinion!?
Help me help her!
Posted 9/25/2006 3:21:08 PM
Well it has been a while but I have not got down to as much living as would usually be expected. I have a friends staying with me now and she is a wonderfull person but I am in one hell of a dillemma I work from home and she is workin with me so we are always home or on weekends, out at the local party spots,the one single HUGE problem iis I feel as though the days are flying bye and nothing, besides my work, is happening, when I do have free time I dont know how to keep us both occupied, I need some Idea's! Desperately. I dont know what we can do. some thin active but laid back. anyone out to help a desperate girl!? PLEASE!
Cool Later!
Posted 9/25/2006 3:21:08 PM
Well it has been a while but I have not got down to as much living as would usually be expected. I have a friends staying with me now and she is a wonderfull person but I am in one hell of a dillemma I work from home and she is workin with me so we are always home or on weekends, out at the local party spots,the one single HUGE problem iis I feel as though the days are flying bye and nothing, besides my work, is happening, when I do have free time I dont know how to keep us both occupied, I need some Idea's! Desperately. I dont know what we can do. some thin active but laid back. anyone out to help a desperate girl!? PLEASE!
Cool Later!
This Road..
Posted 7/28/2006 7:05:02 PM
On this road I walk,
this road of love and care.
On this road I walk
this road of hate and fear.
On this road I walk
this road with smiles and cheer.
On this road I walk
with lifts on the way.
On this road I walk
with the moon as my guide.
On this road I walk
with many things to hide.
On this road I walk
with only passion inside.
On this road I walk
I wish for you, as the man by my side.
Posted 7/28/2006 7:05:02 PM
On this road I walk,
this road of love and care.
On this road I walk
this road of hate and fear.
On this road I walk
this road with smiles and cheer.
On this road I walk
with lifts on the way.
On this road I walk
with the moon as my guide.
On this road I walk
with many things to hide.
On this road I walk
with only passion inside.
On this road I walk
I wish for you, as the man by my side.
He Knows
Posted 7/28/2006 7:01:27 PM
This boy's been lookin at me so crazy,
dont know what to do.
Yet, every time I get close to him
there's one more exuse,
I look into his eyes and I know,
he feels the same way too,
boy, why you wasting both our times
I've done all I can do.
When I told you what I told you,
and you know just what I mean,
your best friend said you like me soo much,
even he could see.
Lets just stop these foolish games,
what must be Will be!
I keep my feeling in a box,
for no-one els to see.
But then I slipped my my guard and told you,
look what it's done to me.
Now I feel like such a foolish child for lettin you see,
I just couldn't take it no longer,
I let go of me.
Now I sit, writing you this letter,
for only me to see.
Maybe I should let go of these feelings,
We could probably never be.
Posted 7/28/2006 7:01:27 PM
This boy's been lookin at me so crazy,
dont know what to do.
Yet, every time I get close to him
there's one more exuse,
I look into his eyes and I know,
he feels the same way too,
boy, why you wasting both our times
I've done all I can do.
When I told you what I told you,
and you know just what I mean,
your best friend said you like me soo much,
even he could see.
Lets just stop these foolish games,
what must be Will be!
I keep my feeling in a box,
for no-one els to see.
But then I slipped my my guard and told you,
look what it's done to me.
Now I feel like such a foolish child for lettin you see,
I just couldn't take it no longer,
I let go of me.
Now I sit, writing you this letter,
for only me to see.
Maybe I should let go of these feelings,
We could probably never be.
Wishes from the heart
Posted 7/28/2006 6:51:09 PM
As I saw the shooting-star,
then blinked as it passed.
I unintentionaly forgot to make that wish,
that one inside my heart.
As blessed as I am to live this life,
remember it was NOT asked.
And so this chance, to make wrong right,
passed before my eyes,
it broke my heart to realise,
lifes chances pass me by.
As I saw that shooting star,
Yes, with just a blink it had passed.
It hurt inside to realise,
I forgot to make a wish,
for there was no more heart.
Posted 7/28/2006 6:51:09 PM
As I saw the shooting-star,
then blinked as it passed.
I unintentionaly forgot to make that wish,
that one inside my heart.
As blessed as I am to live this life,
remember it was NOT asked.
And so this chance, to make wrong right,
passed before my eyes,
it broke my heart to realise,
lifes chances pass me by.
As I saw that shooting star,
Yes, with just a blink it had passed.
It hurt inside to realise,
I forgot to make a wish,
for there was no more heart.
All Alone
Posted 7/28/2006 6:34:21 PM
I have a dream! And that dream is, like the Great Martin, is to make a statment to the world, for people to see, as I see, all that we do to ourselves and one-another. I have that dream and I wake-up with a falling-type of sensation in my feet, as though I feel my spirit, flying at the speed-of-light, back into this moral-like body of mine with so much fear, I start to shake there-after. I remember only glimpses, as that is as much as my consious can take, I have, for many-a-year controlled this, this, emoional urged to "see the light" or "dark", whichever or however, but it comes now and I have NO CONTROL.
I have a nausiating feeling I have lost myself without ever realy knowing who I was. Or is this just me, my true inner-self or inner-child, calling out in desperation, to be found. Then there are the good days, required there are enough requirements I complete, I hear no cries nor the need to "find myself" as I see no need? Or what is this realy just a lost child who is realy just in need of medicated help to 'clear' her thoughts? This girl is me, bad dreams and all, haunted by demons that have no real sustansial reason to be there, as there is no memory of real pain. O r is that true (excuse me as I question myself)? We all experiance pain, in our own unique way, as we all are born under different sircumstances, some alike but never completely exact. What does this mean? Just that we should all have a different tollerance to pain and emotional abuse, like the fat kid? Or the cheerleader? She, too, (Yes she does) has problems you wouldn't understand, or most lkely she would never admit to, But where does that leave us? In a world where any real connection is remote, and with people who are incapable of realy getting close because of walls we have built up to protect ourselves from ever getting hurt, AGAIN? I have had 5 BEST FRIENDS, who I alowed to get skin-close and inturn were given the power to completely tear me apart in the matter of DAYS (I'm talking under a weak). One day we are inseperable, the next we dont even make eye contact. Where does this leave ME? I know, for now, I am alone in a cold dark cellar with water and dry bread, and completely drivven to show those MOTHER FUCKERS they they messed-up. But still alone, and that, for someone like me, is the worst nightmare alltogether!
(You are welcome to correct any grammar and spelling mistakes! I am a dropout, so it would be helping me!)
Posted 7/28/2006 6:34:21 PM
I have a dream! And that dream is, like the Great Martin, is to make a statment to the world, for people to see, as I see, all that we do to ourselves and one-another. I have that dream and I wake-up with a falling-type of sensation in my feet, as though I feel my spirit, flying at the speed-of-light, back into this moral-like body of mine with so much fear, I start to shake there-after. I remember only glimpses, as that is as much as my consious can take, I have, for many-a-year controlled this, this, emoional urged to "see the light" or "dark", whichever or however, but it comes now and I have NO CONTROL.
I have a nausiating feeling I have lost myself without ever realy knowing who I was. Or is this just me, my true inner-self or inner-child, calling out in desperation, to be found. Then there are the good days, required there are enough requirements I complete, I hear no cries nor the need to "find myself" as I see no need? Or what is this realy just a lost child who is realy just in need of medicated help to 'clear' her thoughts? This girl is me, bad dreams and all, haunted by demons that have no real sustansial reason to be there, as there is no memory of real pain. O r is that true (excuse me as I question myself)? We all experiance pain, in our own unique way, as we all are born under different sircumstances, some alike but never completely exact. What does this mean? Just that we should all have a different tollerance to pain and emotional abuse, like the fat kid? Or the cheerleader? She, too, (Yes she does) has problems you wouldn't understand, or most lkely she would never admit to, But where does that leave us? In a world where any real connection is remote, and with people who are incapable of realy getting close because of walls we have built up to protect ourselves from ever getting hurt, AGAIN? I have had 5 BEST FRIENDS, who I alowed to get skin-close and inturn were given the power to completely tear me apart in the matter of DAYS (I'm talking under a weak). One day we are inseperable, the next we dont even make eye contact. Where does this leave ME? I know, for now, I am alone in a cold dark cellar with water and dry bread, and completely drivven to show those MOTHER FUCKERS they they messed-up. But still alone, and that, for someone like me, is the worst nightmare alltogether!
(You are welcome to correct any grammar and spelling mistakes! I am a dropout, so it would be helping me!)
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Lazybones
2/6/2007 1:41:15 PM
oh. i was just wondering. :)
Study hard in those English classes now ok?
Arsham
1/23/2007 2:58:32 PM
hi nice to meet you :) i send you a message please read it
joseph_faye07
1/5/2007 10:34:02 PM
hi...
Lazybones
12/23/2006 2:16:00 AM
hey whats up south africa. I'm definitely gonna be coming to your neck of the world in 2010!
ogirik
7/20/2006 12:51:15 AM
wierderthanthou
7/14/2006 3:10:53 AM
But... I already know all. Just need to know one more thing tho....Where can i get a real hotdog in europe? then ultimatly be happy
Scoots
7/11/2006 9:24:16 PM
Welcome to NB!
2/6/2007 1:41:15 PM
oh. i was just wondering. :)
Study hard in those English classes now ok?
Arsham
1/23/2007 2:58:32 PM
hi nice to meet you :) i send you a message please read it
joseph_faye07
1/5/2007 10:34:02 PM
hi...
Lazybones
12/23/2006 2:16:00 AM
hey whats up south africa. I'm definitely gonna be coming to your neck of the world in 2010!
ogirik
7/20/2006 12:51:15 AM
wierderthanthou
7/14/2006 3:10:53 AM
But... I already know all. Just need to know one more thing tho....Where can i get a real hotdog in europe? then ultimatly be happy
Scoots
7/11/2006 9:24:16 PM
Welcome to NB!
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